“Shit!”

It’s really a big mess. There are zombies everywhere. Everyone keep saying that Zombie Apocalypse will come but I never believe it until today. I mean zombies are for children right ?! Guess, I am wrong. Now I see zombies with my own eyes. They are roaming in the street and chasing every human beings they see. I should have listened and build the bunker. Now, I don’t know what to do. I should run away but where. I don't want to become zombies. They are ugly as hell. 

“Calm down”

I take deep breath. First thing first, the zombies haven’t enter my house. But it’s only a matter of time before they do. I should find my emergency bag first. Fortunately, I still have good sense to prepare for emergency situation months ago. Let’s check it once again. My clothes, emergency money, emergency food, emergency contact, passport, travel vouchers, etc are still in there. I just need to contact my parents, family, and close friends to let them know about my situation.

“Tut Tut Tut”

Great, no signal. The zombies couldn’t possibly have anything to do with this, right ?! Of course they can. What am I thinking. Now, I cannot contact anyone. Well, I have to go. I could always contact them when or .... if I am still alive. Wow, way to raise the spirit. Thanks but no thanks. I can do this. I have to do this. This reminds me the day when I got lost in the forest. It was 3 days before I can find my way home. People say it was a miracle that I were still alive after 3 days. It was said that people who stay overnight in the forest were never found the next day. No one could even found their corpses. It feels as if they just vanishes into thin air. Old legend say that the forest are the meeting point for aliens to come back to their homeland planet. So if the legend was true, it could be those people were kidnapped by the aliens. Now is not the time for this.

“I’ve managed to book the airplane ticket at last”

Don’t ask me how I can book the ticket. I don’t even remember what I did one minute ago. Anyway, maybe this is my last entry. I love this diary. As far as I remember, I’ve been with this diary for my whole life. Unfortunately I cannot bring it with me. I cannot take chance it will get destroyed or lost in my dangerous journey. I will leave this diary in my secret place when I want to hide something. If somehow, someone managed to find this diary. Please read and take care of it. Please pray me luck. Hope you guys are safe too.

Regards, 

Angela

People say I should finish my journey

But many things stand in my way

The break shattered my heart and crushed my soul

I was too broken to keep following my mind 

I am not gonna be okay

You say everything's gonna be fine

But the truth is nothing ever will

I cannot turn back

Everything was beyond repair

I try to build myself

Slowly pieces by pieces

There's a saying that time will heal everything

The sad reality is nothing gonna be the same

It is what it is

You cannot imagine my pains and regrets

Those feelings stay in my heart

I hope someday you will understand

I really was just too broken 

Regards, 

Angela

I could not change my fate

It have been thoroughly vetted

Things happen for a reason

I wish I could let it go

Good things happen

Bad things happen

I should always be ready

Because nothing lasts forever

People say everyone change

There's no way I can be the same

Many things are just beyond control

I do what I have to do

I choose with my heart

Doing things I believe is right

I should not regret for making mistakes

What don't kill me only makes me stronger

The wind blows very hard

Erase everything in my heart

Still I can't let all go

For the memory was too much

Love is an illusion

Only true love is real

Because what we have is not real

Both of us lose our hearts

It was not supposed to be

And yet it happened very soundly

I don't lose the faith

Even when the hope falter slightly

You and I follow different path

Path that was determined by fate

Even when we hold each other hand

We still reach to different end

You ask me about my life

My life full of pains and sufferings

Pains hurt the heart

Sufferings kill the soul

I cannot escape life

Life I am not living

People say life is fair

Fairness I cannot see

I cannot become free

Trapped in world without love

Flying to the star is my dream

Dream I want to reach

Many smiles are too little

Few tears are too much

Sadness and regrets are the only things I feel

These feelings stay in my heart

I feel for every moment

Moment that feels very empty

But emptiness is not in my heart

My heart only echoes my feelings

Someone say life is about choice

Choice I rarely have

Happiness is one thing I want the most

Still it won't come to me

People told me to keep my hope

Hope is necessary to continue life

I really do not have other way

Even when it is the last thing I can do

My best friend said I should not give up

Acting is the only way to survive

Still I cannot mask it any longer

I may choose to run away from my life