The last glance.
I remember like it was yesterday, the look in her eyes. She was in shock, neither of us believed that we were going to live apart, that we were going to be splited in two. Everyhting we did together, all the memories that we been thru, when we first met I was crying, I remember, but she held me in her arms and sang for me. We know each other for a long time, we fighted a lot everyday. Somedays I remember saying words that I didn't mean to her, making her feel like garbage. But she was a friend of my best friends, they liked her and insisted to me that we stop fighting because we love each other. And we did.
The last glance was unforgetable, I was going to Portugal to study, and she was waving me at the booarding gate with tears in her eyes, I was with too. I remember that I was so nervous and my heart was beating so fast that I thought I would faint. When I entered the gate she looked at me with her eyes red and moved her lips in a way that I could understand what she was saying:
"I love you, son." And that was the last time I saw her...
I have never felt this thing of not being comprehended before so strong like now. I wish my words did not make so much confusion as I already do, my mind twisting side to side, feeling lack of vocabulary or just preparation.
Love is hard to explain and, worst, to accept. It can come in many shapes and ways but everyone has it own. To identify the woman of your life? Easy. To be with her for the rest of your life? Hard.
I already found the woman of my life, the girl that will push me forward, will help me, will love me for who I am, make me smile and laugh like nobody does and etc. but I am too weak, too coward, too idiot.
Words like to play games with me, like to give me hope of being understood but the truth is, I am an idiot... I deserve no such thing as love, I used to treat this woman like a princess, like she was my everything and now I just feel I'm acting like an asshole with her every time.
I'm tired of being mad at myself for saying things that I didn't want or saying things and it goes out in a wrong way.
There are 2 certainties in this world:
1) I will die someday
2) I love you more than anything I felt or will feel in my hole life.
I don't expect you to trust me or whatever... I just wanted to be the one who runs away because he thinks he ruined everything and cry all night about losing the only thing that he promised not to lose: YOU.
It’s a trap
Once my mom told me
Love is a trap,
It's like a drug
More addictive than Crack
So I thought
Make love not war,
But I was young
True love was far
But I forgot
Love does not come when you desire,
He hits you coming from nowhere
It feels like you're on fire
Maybe you turn into blind by love
That happens a lot,
And suddenly you have to leave
But your heart does not
Maybe that's why she said it
She raised me alone,
She felt like there was no thing
Such as romantic love
She loved me
And for me it was enough,
I love her too
But for me this topic is rough
I fall in love everyday,
Maybe that's why she said,
Never understood the phrase
I just don't feel like that.
Love isn't bad
My mom said,
It's so strong
It becomes a trap.
An evil project
So the year is 2120, the place? Earth. May not seem right but there were a group of scientists that have developed a thing like a helmet, that you put in Cows and they raise themselves alone knowing that in the end they have to sacrifice themselves in the name of human hunger.
These scientists are known as "Saviors", they found a solution to the problem of raising cows and their diseases that made cows meat unable to be eaten.
This helmets are known as "Ultra Intelligence", they can configure the brain to rethink everything and to condition animals to do whatever you wish, including to learn to communicate with humans by actions or drawings. This creation had own the prize of "Most Revolutionary Thing Invented since 2080" having the same title as the Flying BMW Car and the "Water Purificator". Make sense to enfatize that this is only an experiment, that's why the tests with humans are unapproved by the government and the UN. Plenty of schools all over the world are gathering together to fight agains the implantation of the helmet in the process of knowledge of kids.
The important thing to talk about is a crew of radical vegetarian people that call themselves "The Vegansaviors". They fight against this type of slavery that is induced to cows just because humans want meat, they see humans as the worst creature in the planet (worst than mosquitoes). They are a secret organization, their secret líder? Carolina Big, Scientist, 26 years. She works undercover in the Saviors project, to rethink, reorganize and repair defects that the invent may cause, but her deep idea is to find a way to destroy this once for all and to erase the studies so they loose all the work of years. Carolina works like a sidekick of Richard Kahn, the real developer and father of the creation.
Richard has 4 sons, all men, they are all scientists like their father and help him at the project. From older to younger son: Mark, Micheal, Andrew and Thomas. Mark is a brilliant líder, he wants to advance is his father work and be remembered too. Andrew is a good technology scientist, he knows everything about softwares, computers, devices, everything that is electronic. Thomas, also known as Thommy is fascinated by landscapes, he never wanted to be a Scientist, his dream was to become a famous photographer and to travel around the world to shoot photos of beautiful places, but he also know that he needs money for that, so he accepted the job with his father.
You guys may are thinking "You left Michael behind", actually I didn't. Michael is one of the most important characters in this story, as he is son of Richard and one of the most respected member of the Vegansaviors, but he hides a deep secret. Michael doesn't like his parents, his brothers, or humans. He likes cars, women and of course MONEY (the thing he lives for).
As the years fly and the many attempts to destroy this project fails, Carolina had one last chance, she was almost being discovered by the Saviors and she needed to create a solution fast. Michael in that same time was going to make a thing that would change everyone's life on earth forever. He met with the older Cow with the helmet on earth, her name? Frida. Frida acquired a high level of intelligence and was kept to brain researches, he sat with her and discussed the future.
⁃ If I could change everything, and make you the owner of humans - said Michael to Frida.
Frida didn't understand but asked for details and Michael revealed his plan.
⁃ As this years came, I putted a device of a High Intelligence XO39 in all helmets all over the world, and distributed this to 1 billion Cows and Bulls all over the world. If this was turned on, the reality of slavery would shock you. And would have a aggressive response, starting a war between you and humans, but you are in advantage as you have Ultra Intelligence and I will make this spontaneous without boundaries.
Frida agreed, and asked what he wanted in exchange.
⁃ I want privileges for me, like be threaten (?) as God and to be kept with family and Carolina in a safe place.
They agreed and Michael initiate the program. He went straight to his home, were he hugged Carolina, his wife, and said to her:
⁃ Please, be with me, no matter what. - Said with a smile in his face
⁃ What have you done? - Asked Big
⁃ Nothing that I though would be bad for us, I love you my love.
She have not understood what he was talking about but she said she loved him back and that was everything all right.
Michael went to his bedroom, opened his Computer and initiated what himself called "Project Adão and Eva.". As he pushed the button, his head starts to hurt a lot, he goes to the bathroom screaming in pain and look at the mirror. On the side of his head appears a light that starts to blink blue, and starts blinking faster and faster and hurting more and more.
Michael doesn't feel his hand anymore, he loose his motion senses, fall in the bathroom floor, everything begins to change, he starts to think that Cows developed some kind of technology to kill all humans. He is worried, his head hurts a lot, he start to scream loud of pain, suddenly he realized that Carolina isn't screaming of pain, maybe she passed away, the pain keeps getting worse and worse and he lays on the floor crying in pain.
Suddenly it stopped, the pain is gone but he is in shock, he can't get up, he screams for Carolina but she doesn't answer. His worries did not ended. So he looks at the bathroom ceiling and see what appears to be a black ink painting the bathroom walls, and painting all over the place, gets to his bedroom, everything on black, his sink, bathtub suddenly disappear. Was he crazy? Was he seeing things?
The black ink turns up to reveal a box of metal, around him, he was in a capsule, he now sees himself laid in a bed, not understanding a thing he managed with difficulty to get up, he looks around and see what before was his bedroom door another door in metal with a writing "Open carefully, may be a lot for you, Mike.". He opens the door, frightened, shivering of panic, fearing what might these Cows created, the type of technology he was dealing with, the type of powerful enemies (or friends) he managed to make.
A big light emerge from the door as he passes through, the truth finally have revealed for him. In the other side of the door is his Father, Richard. He looks to his father and start asking questions like he was 14 years old again:
⁃ Father, what happened? Where am I? What is this device? What I had in my head? This is due to my connection with Frida? I'm sorry, forgive me father.
His father looks to him with desdém and start explaining everything.
⁃ Son, is a shame to say that all you've been through was a lie, your girl, your story, your talk with whoever may be Frida, your stupid idea of developing Ultra Intelligence for cows, your negligence to your family, your rush for money, cars, women, your life story. I've created this machine that is in your head, she is able to analyze the deep thoughts of every person in the planet and I tested on my own son, my favorite one, and is a shame that you FUCKED UP with the entire human race. What the fuck Michael? Your mom is going to be VERY PISSED OFF. You may be grounded for the next month.
Michael just gets more confused, his father show a mirror and he looks himself. He is only 14 years old yet, everything was just a dream, or an experience. His moms walks into the room and start laughing, she starts saying:
⁃ So how he went? Good?
⁃ He really fucked up the humanity, I can't believe this...
His mom laughs and invites him to eat breakfast, as he enters in the kitchen he sees his brothers eating, Mark, Thomas and Andrew laughing. His father whispear in his ear:
⁃ Don't say nothing here, Thomas and Andrew didn't do that experiment yet.. you do when you have 14. Later you debate with Mark your thoughts.
Mark just winks at Michael that starts to smile and happily say:
⁃ I'm sorry I never said that, I will not disappoint this family, I love you all.
THE END.