How I’m Living
I miss the past,
And I’m scared of the future.
I’ve had so many highs, and so many lows.
I’m afraid to try to be happy,
Cause it might crash back to depression,
But I’m afraid of letting myself feel lonely,
Cause what if joy was right in front of me while I help my head down.
I’ve had so many highs and so many lows that I don’t know how to feel.
So I guess I’ll just feel numb.
My Favorite Teacher
Everyone has one or two of those amazing teachers. Those teachers who help you with your problems, never yell, and make sure you understand what you're learning.
When I was in elementry, I was in extra advanced classes, and the teacher was amazing. Thanks to her, I learned algebra, circumfrance, and the pithegrian therum early easily. I did extra projects that challenged me, but never troubled me. This teacher made it fun.
Though, this isn't about her math or L.A. lessons. It's about her life lessons. I became less of a perfectionist thanks to her! And whenever someone was upset/crying in her class, instead of yelling or punishing them, she held them back and talked to them in a calm and encouraging way. I can't speak for everyone, but I know that I would always talk to her. She was just so easy to trust!
It's thanks to her (and my parents) that I actaully beleive I can become and author. It's thanks to her that I'm even on Prose. It's thanks to her that I'm still going.
Noo Yeer Rustitutions
(fur bist resultz, reed allowed)
Noomber won: Spel evryting i rite corectly.
Noomber too: Doo nut poonch anywon. Nut evin tat won kyd whoo hatez yoo.
Noomber tree: Rite evry dae. Nu ehkscuses (blez yoo).
Noomber fur: Doo gud inn voleybol. Joomp hye.
Noomber fyve: Wurk owut. Git ript.
Noomber sicks: Rite mye buk.
Noomber sivin: Reed lotz uv buks.
Noomber ate: Eet helthy.
Noomber nyne: Maak myesilf taaler.
Noomber tin: Doo nut pic mye fyngr nales.
The Bible and LGBTQ+
I support the LGBTQ+ community. I am today a secularly-minded individual, but I have contemplated biblical arguments opposing the morality of homosexuality for many years, and I find such arguments theologically unsound. I have written this post to lay out my reasoning for the consideration of anyone in the Prose community who would like to read it.
Christians opposing homosexuality commonly cite Leviticus 18:22: “Thou shalt not lie with mankind, as with womankind: it is abomination.” (Here and elsewhere, I’m citing the KJV). Such citation places Leviticus in a position of authority. But from a contemporary perspective, Leviticus is… problematic. Leviticus also prohibits the eating of shrimp, scallops, and clams (11:10: “And all that have not fins and scales in the seas, and in the rivers, of all that move in the waters, and of any living thing which is in the waters, they shall be an abomination unto you”). Leviticus also explains that menstruation makes a woman unclean and that anyone who touches her for the seven days around menstruation is also unclean, so women should be kept separated (15:19 “And if a woman have an issue, and her issue in her flesh be blood, she shall be put apart seven days: and whosoever toucheth her shall be unclean until the even.” Some modern translations ditch the unseemly “put apart” bit, suggesting as it does the blood huts of “primitive” cultures, but the Latin “separabitur” is pretty unambiguous.) Women should also sacrifice two pigeons or two turtledoves (but not a partridge in a pear tree) to purify themselves following the end of the seven days (Leviticus 29:30). Needless to say, Christians today ignore these strictures; the explanation I’ve heard is that all these rules are specific to the social codes of the day and need not be followed in light of the New Testament, which is fair enough as it goes. But why, then, is Leviticus seen as an authority when it comes to homosexuality, but not on other subjects? To disavow parts of Leviticus while investing others with the authority of God smacks of cherry-picking. And if the goal of that cherry-picking is to delegitimize a marginalized group, that hardly seems to follow Christ’s teaching that the greatest commandment is “Love thy neighbor as thyself.”
People sometimes also cite the destruction of Sodom as an object lesson in the wickedness of homosexuality, but an actual biblical reading does not support that despite the tradition of the term “sodomy.” The actual crime in Sodom was rape and violation of a guest, as indicated in Genesis 19:4-5 (“But before they lay down, the men of the city, even the men of Sodom, compassed the house round, both old and young, all the people from every quarter: “And they called unto Lot, and said unto him, Where are the men which came in to thee this night? bring them out unto us, that we may know them.”) There’s plenty of sin going on there without bringing homosexuality into account, and there’s no reason to assume homosexuality was the actual crime of Sodom. Additionally, in verse 8, the righteous man Lot whom God spares from destruction tries to sate the mob of rapists by suggesting they rape his virgin daughters instead (kind of like Neville Chamberlain and Hitler, but with female offspring rather than the Sudetenland), so this portion of the Bible might not be a moral polestar to help you sail your ethics boat.
The other clear references to homosexuality are from Paul in the New Testament, who clearly condemns it (1 Corinthians 6:9-10: “Know ye not that the unrighteous shall not inherit the kingdom of God? Be not deceived: neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor abusers of themselves with mankind”) But again, Paul holds some positions that are widely ignored today. 1 Corinthians 11:4-6 also discusses the proper haircuts and head coverings for women: “Every man praying or prophesying, having his head covered, dishonoureth his head. But every woman that prayeth or prophesieth with her head uncovered dishonoureth her head: for that is even all one as if she were shaven. For if the woman be not covered, let her also be shorn: but if it be a shame for a woman to be shorn or shaven, let her be covered.” I’m tempted to just say, “Huh?” but let’s assume that Paul is a divinely inspired author who speaks the word of God. There should be an awful lot more hats and veils in churches. Yet head coverings are a quibble compared to 1 Timothy 2:11-12: “Let the woman learn in silence with all subjection. But I suffer not a woman to teach, nor to usurp authority over the man, but to be in silence.” There are definitely Christians who practice this submission: one of my cousins swore during her wedding (while wearing a veil) to “love, honor, and obey” her husband. But there are plenty of others who would balk at submission and yet happily quote Paul to denigrate homosexuals and deny them rights. I disagree with my cousin’s worldview, but she’s walking the Pauline walk, and if she wants to talk the Pauline talk and oppose homosexuality, she’s at least being consistent instead of cherry-picking, which is what a majority of Christians do who cite Paul as moral arbiter in one spot and then blithely ignore what else he says.
Some Christians might disregard all such inconsistencies and say they simply defer to respected religious figures (i.e. the “it’s what my pastor said” defense). However, anyone seeking to outsource their moral thinking to a religious authority has a major theological problem named Jesus. The fact is, Jesus was an iconoclast. We’re talking about someone who strode up the steps of the temple, saw vendors and moneychangers operating by permission of religious authorities, and immediately threw their tables upside-down and started yelling. Everybody talks about the importance of being “a Good Samaritan” and helping those in need, but that’s only half the point of Jesus’s parable (Luke 10:30-37). After that man got beaten up by thieves and left for dead, a priest and a Levite passed by and did nothing before that Samaritan helped him. Samaritans were a hated people whom the Jews listening to Jesus scorned (see https://www.franciscanmedia.org/the-rift-between-jews-and-samaritans/). Meanwhile, the religious leader and the fellow Jew let the man lay there, and they were wrong. Religious leaders are not always to be trusted for perfect thought and action, Jesus is showing; they will not always do the right thing. (There’s also been the suggestion that the priest and Levite let the man lay there because touching a corpse would have made them ritually unclean and they thought the beaten man dead; if so, the story is an even clearer condemnation of putting religious law over love and kindness.) The Pharisees were viewed as the most expert interpreters of Jewish law, and they lined up hardcore against Jesus in several places in the New Testament, to the point where as a child, I thought “Pharisee” meant “a backstabbing jerk” and was shocked to learn it actually meant “a religious authority.”
Jesus did not come to enforce the law; he came to shake it up. He shook up the status quo so effectively that the secular and religious leaders of the day successfully engineered his execution in a bid to hold onto power (see John 19:6 and Matthew 27:1). And he still won! It was his followers who carried the day and a religion based on his teachings that dominated the world. Christ’s followers proceeded to set up churches everywhere. In 325 AD, the First Council of Nicaea drafted the Nicaean Creed and ruled that groups following other creeds (notably that promulgated by Arius) were enemies of Christianity; in 382 AD, Christian leaders met in the Council of Rome to establish which books belonged to the canonical Bible and which did not. Church leaders proceeded to spend the next several centuries persecuting and sometimes torturing and executing people whose views of Christ diverged from their own. So to be clear, the sequence goes something like this:
A) Jesus opposes religious dogma and leaders of the time.
B) Said religious leaders have Jesus executed.
C) Jesus’s followers establish new religious leaders and laws.
D) Jesus’s followers(?) enforce religious dogma and execute people in the name of
I have searched my vocabulary for a suitable phrase to summarize this turn of events, and I believe the most suitable I can find is, “What in the actual f***?” It’s the greatest irony I can identify in all of history: people unquestioningly following religious leaders and laws, regularly resorting to violence, in worship of someone who was killed for questioning religious leaders and laws.
To summarize, 1) the biblical case against homosexuality is based on Leviticus and Paul, but a majority of people who cite the Bible as a reason for opposing homosexuality shrug off other, problematic promulgations by Leviticus and Paul, as evidence by consumption of shrimp, a lack of blood huts, and a lack of head coverings, and 2) simply overruling such inconsistencies and opposing homosexuality because that’s what a religious leader does directly contravenes both parable of the Good Samaritan and the life of Christ, who, let us not forget, preached “Love thy neighbor as thyself.”
The biblical case against transgenderism is also weak, and often hinges on the creation story (Genesis 1:27: “So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; nmale and female created he them.”) We’ve touched on the problematic morality of Genesis before (see above discussion of righteous Lot offering his daughters for gang rape), but let’s consider this passage anyway. God created male and female; where does it say he couldn’t create something else? It seems presumptuous to place the powers of the Almighty in a box because our categories are easier that way. The Bible is notably silent on the reality of intersex individuals born with both male and female anatomical structures. Are they not also created in God’s own image? Trying to infer an entire system of beliefs about transgenderism from the words “male and female created he them” is an incredible stretch, even by the standards of biblical exegesis.
But let’s consider also what it means to support transgender persons. Broadly and reductively speaking, we’re really looking at questions about treatment and legal rights. Numerous transgender individuals who seek medical treatment receive testosterone or estrogen, and most report almost immediate psychological and emotional benefits. (I base this assertion both on research and on the experience of a close friend who transitioned a few years ago). Are we to oppose the provision of a chemical that helps someone achieve a happier, healthier emotional and psychological balance because “that’s how God made them”? If so, we need to stop insurance companies from covering antidepressants and antipsychotics, because that’s how God made those people, too. In the legal realm, someone who opposes transsexuality may seek to prevent them from changing their gender on birth certificates or drivers’ licenses, and might oppose their marriage licenses. The New Testament makes crystal clear, though, that a Christian should “render unto Caesar what is Caesar’s, and render unto God what is God’s” (Matthew 22:21). If your church refuses to change a trans person’s baptismal certificate to reflect a new gender, that’s your church’s business. But your church has no place seeking to influence government documents.
I would like to be as clear as possible that nothing in this post is intended to denigrate the Bible. My belief Leviticus and Paul should not be used to adjudicate all moral questions does not mean that the Bible lacks value. I have a good friend who earned his Doctorate of Theology at seminary and spent seven-ish years in ministry before changing careers. (He recently discovered me on Prose and is probably going to read this at some point – hello, good sir.) I once asked him about his view of the Bible, and his response became mine. “It’s a collection of writings by people seeking to understand God and do their absolute best to explain God in writing. I think it’s beautiful.” It makes me sad when people cherry-pick passages from this beautiful thing to worsen the lives of LGBTQ+ people I love.
ROY G. BIV
Rainbow flag of pride
Open your mind to the spectrum
You can be any gender and sexuality
Girls can like girls
Boys can like boys
Voices of LGBTQ+ are strong and colorful
I’m *insert label here*
Being in this community is both enlightening and confusing. There are so many levels and labels involved that sometimes it’s easier just to say Queer. I’m so many different things that at this point I’m the rainbow personified.
Least it feels this way.
Why can’t I just be me and not have to worry about the label that comes with it?
WHO AM I?
I used to be straight
I used to be female
Then I was bi and female
Then I was pan and nonbinary
Then I was pan and trans male
Now I am panromantic and genderfluid and asexual.
I don't know what to do.
Am I a guy? Am I a girl? I have to choose a pronoun, but I don't want to.
Why do I need a pronoun? Why do I need to identify as anything?
WHO AM I?
All I want is to live without labels.
But at the same time I want a label
I want a category.
But I don't know where I fit in.
There are too many labels but also not enough.
I just want to be me.
I don't want to have to come out
I don't want to hide.
But here I am and I am waiting.
Waiting for a label
When one might never come along.
I am LGBTQQIP2SAA
But I am just me.
I don't want a label but I want a place to fit in.
I want a pronoun of my own.
I don't want to choose.
I just want to be me...
WHO AM I?
OK. I’ll bite.
I think they've gone too far.
Not about the rights issues or anything like that, but all the subcategories, the sub-subcategories, the whittling down what people are into smaller and smaller groups.
It's getting to the point of absurdity. That + after LGBTQ... It represents about fifteen to twenty other letters.
What is the point? What's the point of even STATING that someone's asexual? All that means is, they aren't interested in sex with anyone. That's not homosexual, heterosexual, in fact, it shouldn't have any impact on someone's life.
There's certainly no stigma attached to someone who isn't interested in getting a girl/boyfriend, but that's the least of the issues with it.
The more you isolate, categorise and separate people, the more alienated they'll feel. It's counterproductive. What's wrong with just having everyone who's doesn't quite fall into the standard LGBTs just take the Queer and have done with it?
And before anyone complains... I'm gay. But I'm 52 so all this nonsense only started in recent years from my perspective.
Quick Update on Fandom Challenge
So... if you haven't checked my challenge out, go do that ASAP. But anyway, I realized that there are many fandoms I do not know about so I've made up a new rule for the challenge... after it's over, I'll tag all the people who did the challenge and ask them to reveal what the fandom was if no one has guessed it or stumbled upon it, that way, people can fall down those rabbit holes and the fandoms could possible grow. Thanks for wasting your time on reading this post and I hope you have an epic day. :)
Self-love. Where do I even begin.
We are brought up to hate such insignificant parts of ourselves.
Raised to search for someone to fix us and make us whole.
We wander aimlessly, looking for someone to fill that void,
to give meaning to our lonely existence.
What we don’t realise, until later in life, and some people never realise atall,
is that the person we are supposed to be with, is ourselves.
Our relationship with us and who we are is the most important one of all.
The only person you will have to spend the rest of your existence with,
So why do we compare, why do we pick ourselves apart and tear ourselves down.
This only leads to picking others apart, and tearing other people down.
Leaving us all fighting against eachother, and ourselves.
We need to join hands, join forces, take a stand together.
We need to take back what is ours; our right to love and be loved.
Our right not to look in the mirror and wish we were different people, in different bodies, facing better things.
How many people hide behind screens, telling the world that they are the best, they are okay, more than okay, infact they’re doing great. We don’t share the bad, and we should.
We need to open up the platform for sharing everything, not just the good, but the god-damn-fucking bad. The stuff that keep us up at night, with heart-wrenching cries that we shove into our pillows and try to hide.
It has taken me years, and years to come to my conclusions.
It has taken horrible things to make me see; to bring me around to the otherside, and ease my delusions.
I am not ashamed to say that I love myself. I am great, and I am perfect for me, just the way I am. I’m still healing, still growing, and it’s ok to change. We’re not supposed to stay the same. I take each day as it comes, and try to fill myself with as much love as I can, sharing the excess love that I hold for myself with others,
but knowing that love for myself comes first.
Ofcourse, I still have bad days, where it’s hard to see all of the things that are positive for me. I feel waves of hate, and self-loathing, and intrusive thoughts creep in.
I try to let them sit, as I know they will pass. These sour feelings won’t last forever.
I will always make it through.
I have stopped comparing myself to others, because I think that can be the worst part.
We are different. We are made up of the same things, but with so many contrasting combinations. We have lived different lives, and shared different experiances.
Someone once told me, there is no such thing as truth, and this has stuck with me.
We can all be watching something unfold, at the same time, from the same place, but we are all taking something different from it. What I see, will not be what you see. What I take from it, will not be the same as what you take from it. We look for different things, and relate them to our own experiances that we have collected over time.
I think this is wonderfully fascinating, and can make for some of the most beautiful shared moments with others.
I stopped justifying myself at every chance. Feeling the need to explain my reasons fully, for every action I took. It would fall on deaf ears, who had made their minds up anyway, and I would be the only one that hurt.
It dosn't matter what they think, I am definitive in my actions and my choice of words. I am happy in my choices, so I let people take what they want to take, because i can only take for myself.
Self-love isn't just about sinking down into a deep bath and wrapping yourself in balmy, glowing steam; it sure helps, but it is so much more than that.
I take time, to do the things that make me truly happy. I put my boundries up, and check in with myself on a regular basis, to make sure I'm doing what's good and right for me.
I share my feelings with those closest to me, to open the lines of communication, so we can all be more aware of ourselves and eachother.
It is honestly one of the most exquisite journeys. I don't think I'll ever reach a 'destination', because this is the most important part; the growing and changing and how you choose to live your life in any given moment.
Enjoy it, because as far as we know for sure, we only get one life, and it is yours alone, to do what you will. It has been solely, and uniquely hand-crafted for your experiance.
You are special. You are great.
You can be, whoever you want to be.
Love yourself. Be yourself.
The rest will unfold as it's supposed to be.