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Tough~Love

Your love is tough

Still in my heart

Your eyes

...

Your voice

...

In my thoughts

My thoughts fighting

My tears hiding

For your love still

In my heart

Still in my heart

Happiness fading

Sorrow feeding

Love beating

So hard...so hard

Your love is tough

Burning my heart

Your love is tough

.....Screaming.....

In my heart

So hard...so hard

Your love is tough 

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Tough~Love
Your love is tough
Still in my heart

Your eyes
...
Your voice
...
In my thoughts

My thoughts fighting
My tears hiding
For your love still
In my heart

Still in my heart

Happiness fading
Sorrow feeding
Love beating

So hard...so hard

Your love is tough
Burning my heart
Your love is tough
.....Screaming.....
In my heart

So hard...so hard

Your love is tough 
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2016-2017 Trip

It's 12/312016

And I'm on the flight 

Waiting...to fly 

Into the skies

Waiting...for vision 

From the heights 

Mixed up feelings 

Of departure and meeting

Like sadness and happiness 

But in this case it's all mixed up 

Mess and nervousness

Looking forward to seeing my family One more time after a long journey 

Of fights and loneliness

Egypt is my home-country

As of the day I was born

I call it the bitter-sweet

Like loving the moon 

Which I did

The moon that's in the blue skies

And way too high from my reach

Materials are matter

However, love to family

And home is unconditional love

And complicated

As many matters in the life 

I looking forward to meeting

My mother

I know she looking forward

To this day more than I do

Looking forward to seeing my lovely sisters the brightness of my life

looking forward to seeing my nephews, nieces, cousins and friends 

I wonder how is it feels like 

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2016-2017 Trip
It's 12/312016
And I'm on the flight 
Waiting...to fly 
Into the skies
Waiting...for vision 
From the heights 

Mixed up feelings 
Of departure and meeting
Like sadness and happiness 
But in this case it's all mixed up 
Mess and nervousness

Looking forward to seeing my family One more time after a long journey 
Of fights and loneliness

Egypt is my home-country
As of the day I was born
I call it the bitter-sweet
Like loving the moon 
Which I did
The moon that's in the blue skies
And way too high from my reach

Materials are matter
However, love to family
And home is unconditional love
And complicated
As many matters in the life 

I looking forward to meeting
My mother
I know she looking forward
To this day more than I do

Looking forward to seeing my lovely sisters the brightness of my life
looking forward to seeing my nephews, nieces, cousins and friends 

I wonder how is it feels like 
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Hugs And kisses

Reading and writing!!

Hugs and kisses 

<*Muah Muah*>

Cups tossing 

Lots of missing 

Much of  happiness 

Better than drugs 

Thoughts wrecking 

My ink kissing

<*Muah Muah*>

Cups tossing

Hugs and kisses 

<*Muah Muah*>

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Hugs And kisses
Reading and writing!!
Hugs and kisses 
<*Muah Muah*>

Cups tossing 
Lots of missing 
Much of  happiness 
Better than drugs 

Thoughts wrecking 
My ink kissing
<*Muah Muah*>

Cups tossing
Hugs and kisses 
<*Muah Muah*>
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Trust Issues

I thought you were the light

To my darkness ~☆~

I thought you were the hope

To my hopeless ~¤~

I thought you were the future

To my stuck past 》》

I thought you were the strength 

To defeat my weakness \○/

I thought you were my dream

To my nightmare °°○▪○°°

I thought you were the love

I've always dreamed of .•♡•.

I thought you were an angel

To heal my bleeding wounds ،؛،

I thought you were my savior

So I followed..my heart...♡

But...

You made my darkness darker

Confirmed my hopeless 

Stepped-up on my future

Stabbed my weakness 

Made my nightmare reality 

Squeezed my heart to bleed

left me defenseless 

&

Sank me into deep curse

And deeper darkness 

For...

You're just a human like them...

With heartless...selfishness 

Carelessly...

Increased my depression 

&

Put me through more stress

However...

I do not blame you 

I blame myself 

I had trust issues

But now...

I have the issues itself

You taught me to trust

...

...

...

No-more

Thank you!

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Trust Issues
I thought you were the light
To my darkness ~☆~
I thought you were the hope
To my hopeless ~¤~
I thought you were the future
To my stuck past 》》
I thought you were the strength 
To defeat my weakness \○/
I thought you were my dream
To my nightmare °°○▪○°°
I thought you were the love
I've always dreamed of .•♡•.
I thought you were an angel
To heal my bleeding wounds ،؛،
I thought you were my savior
So I followed..my heart...♡

But...

You made my darkness darker
Confirmed my hopeless 
Stepped-up on my future
Stabbed my weakness 
Made my nightmare reality 
Squeezed my heart to bleed
left me defenseless 
&
Sank me into deep curse
And deeper darkness 

For...

You're just a human like them...

With heartless...selfishness 
Carelessly...
Increased my depression 
&
Put me through more stress

However...

I do not blame you 
I blame myself 
I had trust issues
But now...
I have the issues itself

You taught me to trust
...
...
...
No-more



Thank you!
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Deep Sheet (Re-posted)

Powerful pain in emptiness

Residing in blocks of heaviness

Worthless, hopeless...

Such pure suffer not to with I miss

Descriptions, words, thoughts, all this useless

Cheerful crappier than everyday and all

No motivation, no cheerful nor even pushing a wall

It's all useless, senseless, worthless and hopeless

I want to squeeze my head, this piece of shit!

I want to defeat my weakness, i want it dead!

I disagree to agreement that I didn't sign up for

I refuse to accept fake one from the top

Write? fuck off, express yourself-hype? fuck off

Fuck off and fuck wisdom, fuck wisdom and

Before i forget! fuck goodness

Humanity shity lie..made up of sickness...

Madness...helplessness!

I kept up and going, I never let myself drowning!

My fucking thoughts kept going

My heart was not drowning, but where am I going?

To emptiness! to the depths of darkness!

Well...now I'm drowning

Drowning...drying...and now! my heart is dying

My sense of life my thoughts and power!

Trust me friend...not helping even a cold shower

Yes, I can't fucking keep going, now I'm drowning

Just now I can't keep going, my strengths drifting

To nowhere going, nowhere but emptiness...

And fucking depths of darkness

Write and let it out? My friend! trust me!...

It's very well hidden

Guess what? it's not even written

It never was out no matter how much it was written

It's very well hidden

Even when i attend...pretend...fake a smile to fit!

Can't hide it, I tried hard to fit and yet! it hit

Chit, chat, shit. why I even fight to fit?

Tell you what ? humans are shit

Sorry for insulating you-

It's nothing from what I get

Oh! it...did I tell you about it?

Well, it basically not me, but it

It's haunting me but I can't get rid of it

And I don't like it

Do you know that best friend?

Well...that's pretty much what's like to have it

Best friend but crap, cruel and not a glass of

Beer to fool, and selfish as shit. that's about it!

I like me and myself hates it

Good heart and intelligence into abandoned body

Cruel world full of shit

Flesh I ate, blood I drank and to you Jesus pried

It doesn't look like I gained

No pains were taken off of my chest

Maybe the cross wasn't great enough?

No, I don't think so, it's ain't

I think the blood was just paint

Why crying? why everyday cruel like another?

Why fucking science...discoveries...and why even suffers?

NASA, developed this great jet, let's go...

let's go get some samples from Mars to study it...

Learn how to fit with education and grit

Oh yeah, hit me hit..I'm tired of this shit!

Psychology, biology, Astrology..why it always ends with "ology"?!

Science and technology! I owe you an apology

Without you! I could not write this prose

On brighten light screen in teeny tiny pixels

That only Science! can superimpose

After science was discovered the cause

Guh...whatever, this prose taking forever

I have not even thought of it at all...

Never, ever, forever...blah..blah

Anyways, it was some memories and thoughts

That floated and onto my mind hopped

After all, I'll get some sleep and when I get up

Wash my teeth up, shower up and on any bus i hop

Go to work, then school, and as long as myself standing up...

I will never give up!

Let's wrap-up this hose

Because my eyes started to close

So, goodnight all, see you later prose.

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Deep Sheet (Re-posted)
Powerful pain in emptiness
Residing in blocks of heaviness
Worthless, hopeless...
Such pure suffer not to with I miss

Descriptions, words, thoughts, all this useless
Cheerful crappier than everyday and all
No motivation, no cheerful nor even pushing a wall
It's all useless, senseless, worthless and hopeless

I want to squeeze my head, this piece of shit!
I want to defeat my weakness, i want it dead!
I disagree to agreement that I didn't sign up for
I refuse to accept fake one from the top

Write? fuck off, express yourself-hype? fuck off
Fuck off and fuck wisdom, fuck wisdom and
Before i forget! fuck goodness
Humanity shity lie..made up of sickness...
Madness...helplessness!

I kept up and going, I never let myself drowning!
My fucking thoughts kept going
My heart was not drowning, but where am I going?
To emptiness! to the depths of darkness!
Well...now I'm drowning
Drowning...drying...and now! my heart is dying
My sense of life my thoughts and power!
Trust me friend...not helping even a cold shower

Yes, I can't fucking keep going, now I'm drowning
Just now I can't keep going, my strengths drifting
To nowhere going, nowhere but emptiness...
And fucking depths of darkness

Write and let it out? My friend! trust me!...
It's very well hidden
Guess what? it's not even written
It never was out no matter how much it was written
It's very well hidden

Even when i attend...pretend...fake a smile to fit!
Can't hide it, I tried hard to fit and yet! it hit
Chit, chat, shit. why I even fight to fit?
Tell you what ? humans are shit
Sorry for insulating you-
It's nothing from what I get

Oh! it...did I tell you about it?
Well, it basically not me, but it
It's haunting me but I can't get rid of it
And I don't like it
Do you know that best friend?
Well...that's pretty much what's like to have it
Best friend but crap, cruel and not a glass of
Beer to fool, and selfish as shit. that's about it!

I like me and myself hates it
Good heart and intelligence into abandoned body
Cruel world full of shit
Flesh I ate, blood I drank and to you Jesus pried
It doesn't look like I gained
No pains were taken off of my chest
Maybe the cross wasn't great enough?
No, I don't think so, it's ain't
I think the blood was just paint

Why crying? why everyday cruel like another?
Why fucking science...discoveries...and why even suffers?
NASA, developed this great jet, let's go...
let's go get some samples from Mars to study it...
Learn how to fit with education and grit
Oh yeah, hit me hit..I'm tired of this shit!

Psychology, biology, Astrology..why it always ends with "ology"?!
Science and technology! I owe you an apology
Without you! I could not write this prose
On brighten light screen in teeny tiny pixels
That only Science! can superimpose
After science was discovered the cause

Guh...whatever, this prose taking forever
I have not even thought of it at all...
Never, ever, forever...blah..blah

Anyways, it was some memories and thoughts
That floated and onto my mind hopped
After all, I'll get some sleep and when I get up
Wash my teeth up, shower up and on any bus i hop
Go to work, then school, and as long as myself standing up...
I will never give up!

Let's wrap-up this hose
Because my eyes started to close
So, goodnight all, see you later prose.
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Fuck-ish

Fuck-ish? 

why my tongue in glitch..?

~~Refresh~~

Just say it, spill it out...

Loud...

Shout...

Fuck the glitch and ignore the crowd 

Shout...

Be yourself king was or elf

What do you feel? Love->♡? 

Tough-love sweet//bitter-

Rough?...

Say it...speak it...

don't think about it! 

Listen.......it says it all

Do you hear that?...

Your heart hunger and growl...says it all

Shout...

Just write it freely and loud

Nothing...to be afraid about

No crowd to count

Nothing...to be afraid about

love is loud..let it out 

Let it be drawn loud

Let it...

...

Shout.....

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Fuck-ish
Fuck-ish? 
why my tongue in glitch..?

~~Refresh~~

Just say it, spill it out...
Loud...
Shout...

Fuck the glitch and ignore the crowd 

Shout...

Be yourself king was or elf
What do you feel? Love->♡? 
Tough-love sweet//bitter-
Rough?...

Say it...speak it...
don't think about it! 
Listen.......it says it all
Do you hear that?...

Your heart hunger and growl...says it all

Shout...

Just write it freely and loud
Nothing...to be afraid about
No crowd to count
Nothing...to be afraid about
love is loud..let it out 
Let it be drawn loud
Let it...

...

Shout.....


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Stranger

A stranger I lived in the world

A foreigner like my forefathers

A pilgrim in my attitude

In my thoughts and my desires

A Stranger, I have no one to

Unload on him, my thoughts so true

The people do not like my roots

Nor do they understand my end

In craze arise the multitude

In maddening noise without an end

And I remain in solitude

Serenity in my heart felt

A stranger, I can find no home

Nor a corner to rest alone

I cast away the world's pleasures

Ignoring her callings to me

I went, I dragged away my things

Away from their merry-makings

My heart silent, indifferent

To all they think is important

My listening will never yield

To loud and worldly conversing

I wander off all on my own

So happy to be in the vast

With my timbrel and my cymbal

And melodies of praise I sing

And now comes the holy moment

In which I Retreat with my King

I roam about as a spirit

Invisible to on-lookers

The world alien I am to it

A foreigner like my forefathers

My existence is a triumph

No wealth, power to disturb me

No house is here to delay me

Nor any friend or family

And with me are sweet verses

And great proverbs to console me

The Bible here my only lamp

And nothing else to concern me

I do not know of any fear

Nor any bonds that hinder me

No longer does the world rule me

Against me and at times for me

No longer does the world rule me

Against me and at times for me

I say to every enemy

Who only wants to seduce me

Beware that now I am alive

A stranger as were my fathers

-written by Pope Shenouda III

To listen to the song go to  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mnGsPsbAtK0

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Stranger
A stranger I lived in the world
A foreigner like my forefathers
A pilgrim in my attitude
In my thoughts and my desires
A Stranger, I have no one to
Unload on him, my thoughts so true

The people do not like my roots
Nor do they understand my end
In craze arise the multitude
In maddening noise without an end
And I remain in solitude
Serenity in my heart felt
A stranger, I can find no home
Nor a corner to rest alone

I cast away the world's pleasures
Ignoring her callings to me
I went, I dragged away my things
Away from their merry-makings
My heart silent, indifferent
To all they think is important
My listening will never yield
To loud and worldly conversing

I wander off all on my own
So happy to be in the vast
With my timbrel and my cymbal
And melodies of praise I sing
And now comes the holy moment
In which I Retreat with my King
I roam about as a spirit
Invisible to on-lookers
The world alien I am to it
A foreigner like my forefathers

My existence is a triumph
No wealth, power to disturb me
No house is here to delay me
Nor any friend or family
And with me are sweet verses
And great proverbs to console me
The Bible here my only lamp
And nothing else to concern me

I do not know of any fear
Nor any bonds that hinder me
No longer does the world rule me
Against me and at times for me
No longer does the world rule me
Against me and at times for me
I say to every enemy
Who only wants to seduce me
Beware that now I am alive
A stranger as were my fathers


-written by Pope Shenouda III

To listen to the song go to  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mnGsPsbAtK0
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}A}Joke

Can I just die temporarily out of the permanently?

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Can I just die temporarily out of the permanently?
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Give me, please: a micropoem consisting of 10 words, starting with the word "one," and ending with the word "ten." TAG me as well, if you wish! #onetoten
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Algorithm

[0ne; is \ half-of {algorithm} add-> zero-> will\\ be ;ten]

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Give me, please: a micropoem consisting of 10 words, starting with the word "one," and ending with the word "ten." TAG me as well, if you wish! #onetoten
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Algorithm
[0ne; is \ half-of {algorithm} add-> zero-> will\\ be ;ten]
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Asset Definition

Once upon a time...I was passing by the popular club in blue walls I heard someone says---->Define Asset<--

So, here's my definition...

Asset definition divided into two catagories which are 'Physical' and 'Essence'

Physical: =--> ▪▪▪Existence▪▪▪ explanation, anything /literally/ existing that we can "anyhow" devote it to your favor is "Asset" more technically: everything exists can be used in our favor whether we have the knowledge or not yet...because knowledge is already there but we have to find it.

(if you can't make it work for you that means you just don't have the knowledge as of yet)

Example: this blog is one of my assets even though it's not guaranteed to be permanently exist, nothing is permanent, just like the cloth you are wearing or the place you work at.

Essence: =--> the first part is the answer to the second part which is (thoughts/knowledge)

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Asset Definition
Once upon a time...I was passing by the popular club in blue walls I heard someone says---->Define Asset<--

So, here's my definition...

Asset definition divided into two catagories which are 'Physical' and 'Essence'

Physical: =--> ▪▪▪Existence▪▪▪ explanation, anything /literally/ existing that we can "anyhow" devote it to your favor is "Asset" more technically: everything exists can be used in our favor whether we have the knowledge or not yet...because knowledge is already there but we have to find it.
(if you can't make it work for you that means you just don't have the knowledge as of yet)

Example: this blog is one of my assets even though it's not guaranteed to be permanently exist, nothing is permanent, just like the cloth you are wearing or the place you work at.

Essence: =--> the first part is the answer to the second part which is (thoughts/knowledge)
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