Pure Love, the sweetest of souls, sweetest of Angels, Big Mighty Warriors, Strong, Protection & Strength. I am a Christian, Love of God. Surrounding me at all times. He’s up high very high. I love God’s word, His Beautiful magical creation. there’s no depth to how beautiful. I’m so thankful. We all are. Thank you God your way is my only way, God thank you for loving me every step of the way.
the first thing i did on prose was read
i joined looking for writing contests, but couldn't figure out what would suit me the best at first
i read a lot of entries and just started following my favorites
i remember posting a response to a challenge, and the deciding that i didn't want anyone to see it and deleted it
i went into only answering challenges that had nothing to do with my feelings and i felt really empty after a while
i deleted most of the things i had written and logged out, saying that i wouldn't get on here anymore
that did not go as planned, but i'm gald that it didn't
i went through a rough period of time and decided writing was the only thing that really helped me feel okay, valid
i got back on prose and posted some of the things i had written and really just being on here, surrounded by so much talent and positivity has made me feel much better and more comfortable about my feelings and what i write
i promised myself that i would never delete anything i posted again and i think i made the right choice honestly
i'm sorry for the heartache
i'm sorry for never knowing
that what i had until you were gone
i'm sorry for the messes that i made
i'm sorry for embarrassing you
in front of all your friends
i'm sorry for the awkward moments
i'm sorry for the times i pulled away
when you tried to hold my hand
i'm sorry for the unpredicatbility
i'm sorry for all the times i would disappear
without a moments' notice
i'm sorry for everything
i'm sorry that if i could take it back
i'm sorry for loving you so unconditionally
i did it again
why do i always have to go and try to fix things that aren't broken?
i messed up
because i can't be okay with letting things play out
i hurt him
i know i did because i could see it
and it hurt me too
but at least that was my own fault
i wanna tell him
that i didn't mean it
and ask if we can forget that it even happened
but it feels too late for that
if i explain it to him
maybe he'll understand
but that means putting a piece of myself out there
for him to see
and think about
and be scared off by
because who thinks about these kinds of things all the time?
what to do
i have the choice
i can do whatever i feel is right
but i don't know if i want to fix things just to go and mess it all up again
The Best Fruits to Eat Every Day
It’s one of the simplest dietary guidelines you’ll ever hear: eat more fruits and vegetables. And yet, it’s one of the hardest to follow. Not only are fruits and vegetables expensive, but it’s easy to get bored eating the same produce day after day. Today, we’re sharing the best fruits to eat every day. It doesn’t matter if you eat them alone or in combination with other foods, these fruits will make you feel great.
Ah, sweet grapes. These little beauties are not only delicious, but they are also packed with nutritional goodness. Grapes are a good source of antioxidants, vitamin C and minerals like potassium. What's more, they are low in calories and easy to eat on the go. Enjoy them as part of a healthy breakfast, a quick snack or part of a fruit salad.
While watermelon is technically a fruit, it is a special type of fruit that is mostly composed of water. This makes it the perfect fruit to eat on a hot day – it will help you stay hydrated! But that's not all. Watermelon is also a great source of antioxidants, which can help protect your body from harmful free radicals. These antioxidants also play a role in preventing cancer and reducing the signs of aging. So, next time you are looking for a refreshing snack, reach for a slice of watermelon!
Strawberries are a great way to start your day. They're a good source of fiber and vitamin C, and they're low in calories. Plus, their sweet flavor is a great way to wake up your taste buds. Eat them on their own, add them to your breakfast cereal or oatmeal, or blend them into a smoothie. Tip: try freezing them and adding them to your morning smoothie for a frosty treat.
Start your day off right with some grapefruit! This delicious citrus fruit is not only tasty but it's also packed with nutrients that are great for your skin and overall health. Grapefruit is a good source of vitamin C, which is important for collagen production and wound healing. It's also a natural source of lycopene, a powerful antioxidant that helps protect your skin from sun damage. So why not add grapefruit to your daily breakfast routine? It's a great way to get your day started off on the right foot.
Oranges are a great source of fiber, vitamin C, and folate. They're also relatively low in calories, making them a perfect snack or addition to breakfast. Vitamin C is important for skin health, collagen production, and immune function, while folate is essential for pregnant women and helps prevent birth defects. Oranges are also a good source of potassium, which can help lower blood pressure.
No matter your skin type, you can find fruit to improve it. Berries, which are rich in antioxidants and vitamin C, will nourish the skin for a more radiant appearance. Citrus fruits deliver vitamin C as well as potassium, another nutrient that helps hydrate the skin's surface cells so they function better. Peaches and plums offer healthy amounts of beta-carotene for improved immunity and faster wound healing. If you're concerned about dark spots or loss of firmness due to age or UV exposure, look for figs in your grocery store; these antioxidant powerhouses contain an enzyme called ficin that will help brighten up uneven pigmentation with regular consumption.
The March of Suspenders
step in step
row on row
red on white
beat on beat
The march of suspenders
haunts my cell
leading on to hell
the struggles of self love
all i really want out of love
is to be able to love myself
to get past all the criticism
and just be happy that i'm me
but i don't know how
because when i try
it just makes me point out my flaws
even more than before
and it gets dark
when i wake up the next morning
i automatically remember everything
the night before
like my mind is saying
these flaws are part of you
but you also have positive qualities
because why else would have any friends
and why would they stick around
and why would they care so much
about little old me
and what i do
and how i feel
so maybe i can learn
to love myself
with the help of some good
that i can talk to
whenever i need to
have you ever felt like the world was just too much to deal with
probably everyone has, at least once
but sometimes, like today
i just can't deal with all the negativity
and the complexities that arise
as i try to survive
this life that's been created for me
this life that i've tried so hard to keep about me
but that gets lonely
so i let people in
just to let them go
and i can't decide whether
i'd be better off
without ever loving anyone
or losing the people i love the most
so if you want, let me know which seems like the better option, because sometimes, it really is hard to tell.
One of Those Things...
The keys on your keyboard that click with each stroke...
That piano you oftentimes graze...
Your steering wheel, trousers, and cellular phone...
The side of your curious face...
Your fork, your spoon, your cup of tea,
Your papers and pencils and such...
Oh, but if I could be one of those things
Your hands ever gracefully touch...
i will write and rewrite this over and over again until it’s exactly as painful as you made me feel. i may never even finish the piece. Here
I’d forgotten you existed!
The very one that shattered me at one time.
I think back, or forward really just with memories, and I remember how incredibly cruel you were… how violently you broke me.
I would wait, wait. On edge. On edges of beds that you would drunkenly push me onto. On edges of passenger seats because you locked the car doors so I couldn’t get out. Edges of cliffs you made me want to jump off of. I would wait. Wait for any moment that you might look me in the eye with ones that weren’t evil. I waited for your mouth to say something that didn’t indicate my death was encouraged. I waited for the man I thought you were to show up.
I remember how incredibly cruel you were. I wondered if you even wondered what it would be like to be kind. I remember I prayed at night that you would say to me “I don’t want you to die”. But you left me to it! You did.
I didn’t die though.
But not fully.
It’s a big thing—almost dying and actually dying.
It’s not close like light blue and sky blue.
It’s different hues on the scale.
There's the almost dying and coming back to life, me.
There's the almost dying and stay dead inside, you.
I smile at what I know I'd hear about you, if I ever remembered to waste my time asking about scum. I know nothing will have changed. Kind under pressure. Evil under cover. Having mommy save your ass. Having daddy save your cash.
But your brother. He's real. He's different than you - he said, and i quote, "He never deserved you."
I’d forgotten you’d even existed! Ever!
Maybe, if you’re lucky, you’ll get to see how much better my very own existence is ever since you blessed me with your absence.