I can’t make you feel the way I feel for you. But. I can make you feel what life is like without me.
Why did my 23&me lie to me?
Exactly zero percent of my .6% Nigerian and .3% Indigenous People showed up today at the lake.
I am burnt af.
23&lies.
fml.
Evidently.
two weeks ago.
i made tentative (read hollow) plans to go to the gym with my friend.
that shit came home to roost today.
bitch put it in her phone. Tf. Who does that.
reckon I’m going to the gym Tuesday.
fml.
What I want.
I believe you can give to me.
I just know it isn’t going to be immediate.
And well, patience and overthinking are my strong suits.
I want nothing more than to be your rock. Provide comfort and stability during this transition. A safe haven. Judgement free. Secure. And calm.
I want you to be able to trust me and not feel as if you are dumping things or dragging me into a situation that filled with drama.
I‘m a big girl. If that bothered me, it wouldn’t have nearly killed me to let you go.
I would rather wait years for a chance to see us through than waste an hour on people who mean less than nothing.
As terrifying as it is to admit. I feel that love with you, will be the real deal.
I would gladly unwrap the moon from the clouds if it meant I could stare into your eyes forever.
Hold me.
lace your fingers in mine.
intertwine your time.
Hold me.
hard and fast.
whispering to me “you’re mine”
Hold me.
against all odds
and till the end of time.
are there others?
absolutely.
will you find them?
one hundred percent.
will they be me?
good or bad, not on your life.
you will see me in everyone and that glimmer of me will haunt you.
When you close your eyes and pray their souls you keep…
Only to wake and find their soul‘s asleep.
Wringing hands, shattered hearts, a thousand tears…
None will bring back, those lost future years.
hearts that ceased beating
break down beating hearts.
souls that cease keeping
keep soulmates apart.