’Fill you days with life not your life with days.”

I love this line because my friend Emily lived by this motto. Emily died from terminal cancer and decided not to undergo treatment because she did not want to spend the end of her life cooped up in a hospital. It taught me to remember that life is short and fragile so we need to take advantage of the time that we have now.

A broken promise in the wind

the swiftness of life rolling by

i lost you

i gained you

i loved you

i hated you

i.....i....

you lied to me

you protected me

i did not know as that poison pumped through your veins

i did not know that your body was killing you

i lost my love

i gained awareness of life

i hated the secrets, the deception, the lies the c....c....ca.....can......cance......MONSTER!!

i loved your hope, your tenacity, your bravery, you smile

your never ending smile

even into to arms of death your smile was my peace, my medicine, my motivation, my Life

To emmy:

May angels carry you to sleep

In the river of the deep

As you fly on angels wings

May my heart and memories sing

As I watch you on your way

We will meet again some day

At dawn of my final hour

In this field of hopeful flowers

May we reunite in love

As I leave for you above

I will see you in a while

Hold for me that hopeful smile

Sometimes this very question bothers me and I know it bothers others. The topic is so touchy that no one wants to talk about it. So I humbly thank you for asking this elequent question.

No from what I can tell you I am a black female. Do I feel comfortable wrting stories based on other black feemales? Good question me. NO! People are gonna be mad about the things that they cannot control. Everyone is different and writing a story about a particular race is not easy no matter what your race or nationality you are writing about. People should be allowed to write about who they want to as long as there is no bias against a perticular race or nationality. If someone wants to write a book that has a sterotypically loud black girl and her loud black friends then thats fine. I will admit that there are some really loud black girls, but don’t write that all black girls are loud. Some of them are not, like myself. I think that people from other races and nationalitys can write about each other without there being any problem. Actually I very much encourage it now it it 2019 and 2020 is not to far around the corner. I think that seeing where others are at in terms of their knowledge on other people is very important for future growth. With that in mind when you are reading you should take all aspects that pertain to people with a grain of salt. 9 times out of 10 it is not about beaing racist or offensive. That is where we can educate others when they show ignorance. If its not a crime then do it. But thats only my opinion.

Angels watching over thee

Take ones soul and set it free

If the time for light expires

Man will break with sins desire

Since my love, my Lord is you

May my deepest wish come true

Hold that child to your breast

And soothe her in a peaceful rest

“Perhaps all the dragons in our lives are princesses who are only waiting to see us act, just once, with beauty and courage. Perhaps everything that frightens us is, in its deepest essence, something helpless that wants our love.”

― Rainer Maria Rilke, Letters to a Young Poet

Every trail that we reach in our lives is nothing good nor evil, not bad nor good, not right nor wrong. It is what it is until we reach out and handle it with such beauty and grace that only the feeling of deep raging passion is left. Until we can face each dragon and admit that her beauty compares to that of an angelic princess only then can we get past the beastly appearance so that trial can blossom into hope and love.

That the the lesson of life I have learned.