You'd want to keep me

I'd want to be kept

Oh, what a disaster that would be

If I let myself love you, I would only end up with pain

I'd be left with a fist-sized hole in my heart, with your name written all over it

And later you'd regret the trouble you brought me

Because you'd realize that it hurt yourself more than it hurt me

You never meant to do it

And you said you never would

Yet here we are

A disaster plaguing ourselves

Brought about by letting our hearts feel

"I love you"

The silence you spoke after was louder than the words themselves

Yet so much was said in that time

The time which seems to be eternal

The time that holds regrets, pain, and confusion

The time that makes me think I mean nothing to you

I walked away, letting the silence win

Please don't remember this

Is what I told myself

I wished for times of bliss

Of days spent in the sun

But I came upon darkness

Invisible to everyone

Please don't remember this

The lonely nights in tears

Wanting only an end

To all my living fears

Please don't remember this

These memories are far from fond

Maybe if I move on

All the memories will be gone

I am tired.

Of talking

And trying

Worrying

Lying

Praying

Crying

Forgiving

Forgetting

Remembering

Overthinking

Wanting

Needing

Feeling

Breathing

I am tired of the pain

Of living

And losing

Black

Means darkness

Evil

Funerals and deathbeds

Black

Is the color of the night

Where demons lure in eternal shadows

In darkened alleys

Nothing good can come from black

But White

White

Means purity

Goodness

Peace and harmony

White

Is Heaven

Cherubic faces of innocence and joy

Where happiness frolics in fields of daisies

We were brainwashed from a young age

Racism was present since grade school

When you see

black

You think

bad

When you see

white

You think

good

Yet these colors have so much more meaning

Than simply

Black and White