my first Christmas with you

the big hopes and things I wanted to do with you…

the matching pjs the cuddles the cookies the excitement of giving you the gift I picked out back in October for you…

the screaming the yelling

the tears running down my face as each ornament fell from the tree

our tree…

the one we picked out together

for Christmas

our first Christmas

our last Christmas…

How far do you go for the one you love

do you continue to sit and take it or is enough finally enough

do you keep going

bruise after bruise or do you pack all your things and move

do you keep going

even after the gun was shot

for me I could not…

Dear Prosers

Oh, how I hate to say goodbye even though I know it is only for a little time.

I've come to a new season in my life and I will be taking a little break from Prose, I will continue my writing and will come back to post it soon.

I wish you all well and hope you all continue to grow in your writing and grow into who you are. love yall. happy writing.

love, Jenevieve

p.s if your into watching vlogs on youtube ill have one coming in about a year(theofficalJenevieve) if all goes well!

(DISCLAIMER: I am in no way a racist, in real life. this post was written for this challenge but I don't share these same ideas or thoughts as a person.)

They call me a racist

But I can’t deny it you see

I hate everyone that doesn’t have the same color skin as me

They will never be good enough

Because obviously white is supreme

I can’t contain this hatred and you can’t believe

The things I say when someone of another color walks past me

They think they deserve to be equal to you and me

But that idea is beyond ludicrous

Don’t you agree?

My name is Jenevieve Alex Hardison

but who I am as a person is a complex thing lol.

I’m an 18 yr old girl that’s 5″1′ with wavy brown hair and green eyes.

imma just dive in, like I do off the cliffs of California, never ever looking before I leap.

I’m an Adrenaline Junkie to put it simply...if it’s dangerous, dumb, or you say “don’t do it” I’m going to do it if I haven’t already. it’s not that I want to die all the time but I’m not scared of dying. My friends say I have depression and I guess they’re not wrong but we all have monsters... don’t we?

I’m into Boxing, Camping, Cliff Diving, Music(i do covers and originals), Mtn.Biking(some of my fav. trails are at Fire Mtn. in Cherokee, NC).

My soul longs for adventure and my veins are filled with Wanderlust and...Ambien.

I live off-grid in a dry cabin, so naturally, as you may imagine I don’t share a lot of the views most girls my age do. which leads me to my next topic...

I’m not an above-average violent person or I don’t think so... but I will have to say talk is cheap and if you wanna run your mouth at me you better be ready to back it up because if you don’t watch it your gonna have a left hook at your face followed by a right-handed jab and an armbar.

I’m Studying Medical Sonography (AAS) and will graduate in three more years as a certified medical sonographer with a bachelor’s degree in science.

I love The Office, Parks, and Rec., Brooklynn Nine-Nine just to name a few shows, and FYI I was watching the Office waaayyyy before it was cool so don’t put me in the new Office loving group with all the other fakes. (also anything MARVEL)

My favorite drink(s) are Kombucha, Tequilla, Coffee, and Milk.

I don’t know what else to say without revealing too much about myself so um..yeA

My weapon

Well I have so many

I don’t know what to choose

My bare hands are best to use when I want to feel what I’m doing to you

Talk is cheap, at least to me so I won’t use words to hurt you

My knife is next its pretty neat

It can slice through anything

A pile of Flesh all sliced up

That’s all you’ll seem to be

Here comes my ax is great you see

It’ll chop you in half

As if you were a tree

And there you’ll be laying on the ground still as can be

I still can’t decide on a weapon you see

Maybe ill just use all three...

My Serotonin

Levels are too low

Or maybe there to high

I can’t remember now

All I know is I can go

From cloud nine

To 6 feet under

In 3 seconds

I fall short of perfection

Everyday

I’ll never be enough

Maybe I should end it all now

I know the pills in the back

Of the medicine cabinet

That I couldn’t bring myself

To flush

I know the 9mm on my nightstand

Fully loaded

Ready for when I may

Need it

Miss.Hardison

The doctor pulls me

Out of the inside of my head

And calls my attention back to her

Too bad, she can’t

Save me

From the monsters in

me

I follow you through the dark

to the inside of my heart

to the depths of your soul

to the place, we'll call home