Aria
A song
a melody
a gift of poetry
a shift in complexity
stillness.
From a long blur
to a lifetime of love
you shifted
a world inside of my world
where this world
is different.
The sound of your melody
crying into this new world you see
you‘re different.
Lion of God
in the midst of all the bizarre
Aria you are
the Joy we need.
— KD
Feelings
You and I are
different
our feelings are
measured by a scale
of imaginary numbers
the determining factors
of how deep
or how shallow
our feelings are
while you weep
about something deep
I drown
in a vast ocean of
thoughts and emotions
I can’t unsee
our feelings are distinct
on a scale of
one to ten you feel
whereas I
f e e l
even in my sleep
—KD
Enough
One truly doesn’t know
the reasons why
yet still choose to fight
through the roughest weather
most turbulent days
and scariest nights
enduring pain
pain that shouldn’t be
pain that feels unfeasible
disassociate
thats it
thats the answer
disregard the monster
pretend its not there
then, there is a light
at end of what feels like
an extended tunnel.
“Nothing lasts forever“
becomes the new anthem
it can’t rain for e v e r
right?
unpredictable time frame
when the monster
is holding your hand
tight
Still, the fight is worth it
that light
at the end of the tunnel
is a beaming rainbow
waiting to wrap you in its arms
and put an end to the pain
let go of his hand
enough is enough
right?
—KD
How far I’ve come
To look back and reflect
how far I’ve come
to notice a shift
in the simple things
a clean, warm home.
to think I once couldn’t
and simply wouldn’t
the energy… the care
the motivation… the health
none of it was there
I get a glimpse of that life
it was like fighting for air
the simple air
it was not there…
it felt heavy and thick
it felt impossible
Yet here I am
looking back and reflecting
God was there.
he took me out of there
and brought me here
to ponder on this perspective of
how far I’ve come
i am here
the energy… the care
the motivation… the health
they’re all there
—KD
Losing control
I’m in here somewhere
where chaos is absent
it’s me, the real me
yet when chaos arrives
i leave, emotions take over me
i don’t like this version of me
it’s like fighting to keep sane
yet things get in my way
I have a good streak.
This is good, I’m doing good
anxiety.
here we go again
I’m fine, it’s the real me
yet when chaos arrives
my mind is like fireworks
and not in the beautiful way
but as a scattered mess of flames
i don’t like this version of me
it’s not you, it’s me
thoughts race each other
drowning one another
leaving no room for me
the real me
i still search and fight
to have a good streak
it hurts to hurt you
when I’m not me
—KD
Moon
“Look at the moon mami,
you need to tell your dad
to grab it and give it to you
so you can dance with it”
_Adam
Emotions
sadness, happiness, comfort
confusion, shock, comfort
pain, reassurance, comfort
heaviness in my chest
it’s so hard to hold the tears in
i can’t let you see
he spoke through you
do you know he’s watching over me?
grandpas angel
Now the moon is the nearest thing
dancing in your arms
as I close my eyes I see
you and me
—KD