I'm praying to the goddess that you're doing just fine

Wishing you the best with all of my might

Even though you did me wrong that drunken night

I still care bout you now you've gone from my sight

When you were here, you were my little devil

Giving me hell kept my mind kind of levelled

The pain you left me in sometimes felt like heaven

And others it left me so dishevelled

I kind of craved the cruelty cuz it eased my inner pain

You threw at me the names and my demons it had slayed

They lived inside of me holding me in chains

Controlled the way I thought, creating a pretty perfect slave

Sometimes the bad in you would make me feel insane

But it scared the depression, it almost went away

Little did I know the ache was hiding in another place

Thinking of you as first aid, but you were just a different kind of pain

Psychological violence inflicted on my soul

Creating the cracks you put in me but I wanna feel whole

Picking up the ragged cards that you doled

I can't take this kind of love anymore

As I said before, I wish you all the best

I really hope your demons are the ones slayed next

I couldn't continue loving you when I learned bout self respect

But I guess everything just makes sense when you're dead

Some days I feel like a damn god.

Confident, outspoken and funny

Living life so hard

I feel like every single person is a great friend

Life is fucking great

This happiness will never end

For at least a week

I feel like I could rule the world

Every person loves me

Theys, guys and girls

I know I deserve greatness

And I should do whatever I want

I don't think about consequences

I don't consider the future harms

I'm living life to the fullest

And I give the best advice

Deciding to change my hair again

To match my beautiful eyes

Feeling kinda risky

Because a gamble could be fun

Making massive choices on a flip of a coin

The decision making done

I don't listen to your problems well

Even though I try

Because your words are not sticking

Mixed music playing loud in my mind

Dangerous social butterfly

I make friends of those I meet

But around day 8

Everything changed

And I'm drowning in defeat

I must have annoyed everyone

Gotten on their nerves

I'm going to be completely alone

And it's everything I deserve

I regret so many choices

Guilt swarms in my head

All the actions I made

All the wrong words I said

I hate the way I look

How could anybody like me

I'm boring, ugly and miserable

If I weren't here they'd be free

Tears fill my eyes often

I'm constantly worn and sad

It takes me a while to realise

I'm really not that bad

At some point my calm hits and I stop feeling so cynical

After all, it's just the chemicals.

No means no, but not to him

"He's my husband" this is just the beginning

Telling him I'm not in the mood and my heads a mess

Pulling away as he grasps at my chest

My heart is tightening and my gut feels the weight

Im pushing at him again, and "Come on, I'm being romantic" he says

He continues the touching, his hands down my shorts

I try to close my thighs but it just hurts

My tears are in my throat

His breath on my ear and I'm beginning to choke

He pulls down my pants and I stop using my words

Because its fucking absurd how much that doesn't work

The relationship that ties us makes you see me as a possession

But to me it makes me hate you more, I wish you would walk out of the door, I never want to see you anymore, if you died I'm sure... I still wouldn't regret this confession.

Candles, meditation, Crystals as well

I'm doing all I can to find the right spell

I'm stuck in a land that feels like limbo

I try to find the right words and feel like a bimbo

Hurting and angry

because I sometimes feel happy

When he jokes with me and tells me pretty things

I've managed to open the door but I can't pull it off the hinge

So I find myself calling out for help

Angel guides, spirits way up high or even The Goddess herself

I can't find my way

My awful escape

I don't think I can do this by myself.

I want to call you babygirl and princess,

Help you keep on track and pick out the perfect dress. 

I could take you under my wing, and teach you how to fly. 

Show you some new things and wipe the tears that escaped your eyes.

If you would let me, I would take care of you in every single way. 

Make you feel tall again and strong enough to brave the day. 

I'd also want some good loving, just because it's fun. 

I'd want to see you sweat and pant when we're nowhere near done. 

I think you'd look pretty with my collar, wrapped around your throat. 

And I imagine that beautiful smile, as you laugh at my awful jokes. 

So why not become my kitten, 

When I promise I'll treat you well. 

You'll be my sunshine and my heaven, and a tiny bit of hell.

Today I'll live for you.

Live for me too.

We'll live a life so great.

Each day we will breathe our greatness towards others.

We'll live for them too.

And they will live for us.

I know who I am

And who I'm supposed to be

Life is loved

And it's easy to breathe

I feel like happiness looks good on me

Full of self love and vitality

I find peace in the chaos around me

I used to shout blindly,

But now I can see

The Crystal's are my peace

The people, my harmony

One thought to the next,

Separates us from the rest.

Why would you want to be like everybody else?

Pick out those unique thoughts and take them from the shelf.

Share them with the universe.

Shout them out loud.

Be the real you,

And be god damn proud

Today is the day in which you will begin to love yourself. Loving yourself from within will make everything in your life so much smoother. Calmer, happier.

So, what's one thing you love about yourself?

You can tell me if you want, but the most important thing is that you tell yourself.

Love yourself.

I'll love you too.