I was never meant to be an independent entity
I should have only ever stayed an idea in someone’s head
There’s no way I could ever be functional
So what’s the point in keeping my head
Above water?
Kneeling
You got mad when we did it violently-
So we did it peacefully
But that's still too loud for you,
Because you want it silent.
Unnatural Impossibility
There has never been
nor
will ever be
silence.
Our world filled
birds, bugs, distant murmuring motors
night sky echo unseen airplanes above
trees swish in the breeze
frogs calling out to mates
people reading labels into phones
unable to select green beans
without consultation
music everywhere.
Even alone
with
noise cancelling headphones
our heartbeats
break through.
Silence is an unnatural
impossibility.
Am I Evil?
Forty days
I can die a martyr, or let the world crumble because of my selfishness. This whole ploy was doomed from the beginning. I play the bad guy, he plays the conqueror. I guess you can't pretend to be someone for a long time and retain your identity.
I die, or the world does.
Is it evil to not want to die? Is it evil to deny life to millions so you can keep your's? Is it murder to refuse death? My father kills one, or I kill thousands. I have to die to keep this lie alive.
What had my life become?
Sinking Heart
I sink in the ocean
Carried by its weight
Hardened by your words
It's exhausting to remain reliable
With a mind like a freeway
And a heart like a brick
Is It a Surprise
You left
Beating to the
Rest of us
Lonely Euphoria
Cashmere kiss
Sandpaper speech
Infatuated infidelity
Unintended consequence
I pour all of myself
shapeless into your mold
a love that hardens
Guilty Heartache
An empty cell
Echoing memories
Love fossilized