Understand 

... I am not used to happy endings.

And they are a thing you love.

To think you and I could be a reality 

Is equivalent to a miracle to me.

My parents weren't forever 

And I know what it's like 

To be the one to watch happy endings

From afar.

But...

I believe in you. 

In forever. 

You have made it so.

I think I'm glad 

That that red ribbon aisle

Was stretched between us.

Seeing you run to me

Like your life depended on it...

Tossing your coat aside for the whole world to see

Out of breath

And amber eyes shining

It would have been all I could do 

To not throw myself into your

Outstretched

Strong

Loving 

Arms

And you would take me

Engulf me in your 

Blue plaid embrace

And spin me around and around

And I would cry

And tremble

Because I have never had 

The honor

Of being held by you.

But the red ribbon

Cut the screenwritten scene

Short and awkward 

As I reached for you 

And pulled back 

Because 

Why would I think 

I could now have the luxury

To embrace 

You

Under any circumstance?

Regardless, it was

Flawless

In our own way

And by driving all night 

Like This

You have officially shown me

What I mean to you.

And it is all too much.

I am in tears,

Even if not in your presence.

I am moved by your persistent 

Love for me.

I should have told you

First.

Please believe

I wanted to call you 

And let you be the first to know...

But it's complicated at home,

And I'm afraid to tell you 

My side 

If things

For fear I might be misled

By my own 

Thoughts.

Your leather coat

Too big on my skin and bone

But it was safe, it was warm 

And it smelled like you

Today I told you my truth

My everything

My biggest quirk

My shameful secrets

And you love me...

Still.

You said, "Where would we be 

If all we did was look for the

Flaws

In each other?"

You looked me square in the eyes

With such a warm intensity

To your gaze 

And you told me,

"You are NEVER going to lose me."

My stomach turned over and my heart ripped at the broken seams,

Tugging hot tears from behind my eyes.

I looked away so you wouldn't see. 

You came all this way...for me.

I Think...

I think you really love me.

Speechless

Wordless thoughts

Floating through and around my

Mind

But none come

And none leave

I stare, my eyes slowly

Unfocusing

Through the front window

Where I would see

Anyone who comes home

To disrupt my

Haven.

Not certain what comes next

And I vaguely realize

In a strange, detached way

Why it is that you can't stand to fly;

I like knowing, too

What walls lay ahead of my vulnerable forehead in the

Dark.

Because not knowing

Has bruised me too many times.

I understand.

Applebees

French onion soup

Mild buffalo wings

You just across the way

Your sheepish smile

When I knew nothing of you yet

Except that you might be

Possibly

Winning my heart

A picture can paint a thousand words,

But not everyone can read.

But if a word could paint a thousand pictures,

Pray tell where we'd be!

Eyes on You 

Till there's no truth

That holds more foundation than Yours.

Right on cue

The edge of my youth 

Knocking on old double doors.

It is time

According to life

That I find my way through muddy doubt.

Make it rhyme

Empty of strife - 

Of all things I'd do without.

Who are we 

That the One who 

Fabricated life from

Thin air 

Would look our way

And love us

With a love unto death?

Who are we,

The blasphemers,

The lukewarm,

The outcasts,

The strangers - 

That He would make us 

His own?

Water is thicker than blood

This once 

Because this love defies man's 

Theories 

And false truths. 

This love is boundless,

And I am awestruck 

Forevermore

At its beauty.