Never been enough for the woman that I’m holding

Not even the Queen of hearts I’m betting that she knows me

For what I am, a mirage of a dam

Gonna burst any second & flow hard

Show up and go shark

Let loose the tiger in residential parks

She’s not proud of my lose it all

I’m trying to change rearranging parts

Rusted, superglued in place

Never thought I’d make it to the race

Starved my horse left my barn in disrepair

Always shaded from the glare, aviator stare

I know baby it’s hard to tell I care

All my fucks get tucked into my gun

That’s a boy that’s been on the run

Now the man in me is testing fate for fun

Trust is not my crutch hard to lean on anyone

Got guts & blood like anyone why am I so tough

Sometime you know I wish I could give up

Never who I was, too much getting up moving on

Perfects motions watch me roll this blunt

Then kick & shove all the ones I love

Whiskey river blood, brain overheats without the flood

Never been enough for ones I’m holding

Not even the borg queen wants a chance at molding

Never known for my patience

Yet I’ve been around waiting

For you to call me baby

All these lines that I’m tracing

Bring back around your hands

In mine, intertwined: on the lam

Been fine now I need to stand

Anywhere other than where I am

Give water walking a try

Been a shark, pirate might fly

Your flag for a awhile or die

For a chance to see you smile

Not known for growing up

Pain, liquor, fuck this cup

Can feel like two folks at once

Kill the other if you’re the one

It’s been an attrition

On my innocence

Since that first breath

Not the same since

Eventually clicked

Fuck it, keep moving

A hippie shark grooving

Never give up/in/fluids

It’s been a long trek

No going back, inject

Fuel to my fire, reflect

On all I’ve seen, inspect

Every memory religiously

Even if you’ve forgotten me

Floating on a deep blue sea

Walk on it eventually

Doubt for me is a dragon

Anxiety fire about to happen

Kills the knight that I captured

That’s the first chapter

It’s been a page turner

Bridge burner, under dog certain

I was gonna over come it all

Too much blood in my water fall

If I go too young it’s my call

Devil probably answer drunk

Say welcome can you run

Hell for me you’re like a son

Naw, I’m done doing shit for anyone

Get at me, show me what you mean

I’ve been in my zone, on my schemes

No one really knows the real me

Though I try, peeling scars aside

Do you like what you see

Crooked smile, agile

Outlaw tendencies

Heart’s taken so many shots

Barely beats, it’s running hot

Any day could untie my knot

Still cowboy up; yeehaw

Easy to feel invincible

When you do all the drugs

Still get the sober feels

Why I’m thirty five flipping cups

Single as fuck, kinda ill

Sick of this skin I’m in, too real

Beat it all, barely lived

Easy to feel invincible

Don’t take silence for weakness

Life is too short for blinking

Up and down I’m sinking

Pirate in me still sailing

You can hear my skeletons

From miles out as demons trumpet

My sins loud, my orders, still run it

Feathers numbered, I fall again

Gathered up for the spin

Didn’t die young enough, a villain

At least I’m not my parents

Easy to feel invincible

When you do all the drugs

Still get the sober feels

Why I’m thirty five flipping cups

Single as fuck, kinda ill

Sick of this skin I’m in, too real

Beat it all, barely lived

Easy to feel invincible

Wear a knife in my own house

For my crowd, who to trust now

Declared war on my doubt

Never running unless it’s this town

No backdown in my spines route

Flashing grins unexpectedly

Cashing in on betting I’d lose my seams

Know I seem invincible

When I do all these drugs

Still get sober feels

Why I’m thirty five screaming fuck

Single as fuck, kinda ill

Sick of this skin I’m in, too real

Beat it all, barely lived

Easy to feel invincible

She’s my main bitch

Stain, itch

Plain to see though

Complicated pain

Bone deep aching

Slain before I’m waking

Every dream I have’s amazing

Though it dies as it’s fading

So I’m waking baking

Fun or medication?

Drugs are lubrication

Keep me going;, flowing, racing

Woulda killed myself without em

Keep the plug on speed dial

Collect new scars add em to the file

It’s been awhile

Since I meant a smile

Don’t need a choir

Sing a song that’s wild

You got anymore

Drugs, drink love?

Watch me hit the floor

Come back more in style

It’s been awhile

Since I meant a smile

Can I get a amen for all my sins

Blend right in with a burning bridge

Guess fire is my gift

Or my gift is fire lifted

I get confused, depressed & used

Been different since middle school

Skipped the rest now I’m the dude

Sipping whiskey with the crew

Not a strain we haven’t blew

Been blue, a little outta tune

Hanging on the wall collecting dust

Getting fucked up is a must

Blooming from the mud

Keep the plug on speed dial

Collect new scars add em to the file

It’s been awhile

Since I meant a smile

Don’t need a choir

Sing a song that’s wild

You got anymore

Drugs, drink love?

Watch me hit the floor

Come back more in style

It’s been awhile

Since I meant a smile

It’s hard to stumble in my Air Maxes

Just wanna chill and smoke kush

With the folks I would kill; die for

Bad news screws with your relaxing

That’s what the fuck weed’s for

Got enough I need more

A Sarlacc pit, I’m a nerd

Divided from the herd, misunderstood

Wouldn’t have made the cut in Noahs flood

I’m trying to make up for lost time with my mom

Do no wrong to the loyal

Foil evil where I can

Kick the devil with my Air Maxes

If that bubble burst there’ll be hell to pay

I’m the one that has to slay

Everyday till sleep’s my grave

Couldn’t half ass it if I tried even though I’m high

Thank God for marijuana and not much else

Feeling like the dust that never settles

Wish I knew swear there are no answers

Think I’m too scared to dance in my Air Maxes

Might scuff and fuck up my whole day

I’m more down for Netflix; relaxing

Need new sneaks fuck paying taxes

Out on the sneak in a new pair of Air Maxes

Can’t talk shit about this color way it’s the freshest

You couldn’t fit em I’m betting

Please don’t stain em with bloodletting

Lost my way somewhere in the nineties

Came back in some ol school Nikes

High & drunk is likely

Wish I could stay sober

Now that I’m older hope it ends quickly

Bury me in my Air Maxes

At least I die gifted

Hope I end up where my grandma shifted

If I could be a scientist

An alien or bakers kid

Anything other than what I am

Guess that's why I'm chameleon

Wearing camo, gun on hip

Sipping deep, smoking lit

Shark hungry, shoulda bit

Been restraints, I quit

Now my demons run it

Skeletons get scripts

Call this my ghost ship

I miss tangible things

Been numb so long I feel

Nothing when I bleed

Use to let it rush through veins

Now drugs occupy space

I kiss snakes kick angels

Flip cups and clear angles

Watch my back with snipers

Vipers from out the jungle

Time and space is a juggle

I'm magic to you muggles

Tragic when I fumble

Not the usual, close to the pull

Ripe ride in my soul, I'm full

Hungry sharks get to rule

Momma raised alotta things

Not a fool, covered in pain

Words my paint, Picasso ways

Tried my best to explain away

Ghost are still all I trace

Habits have me by the face

Punching teeth to my brain

Love me anyway

Brothers are memories to me

Red flags my forte

Tried my best to die young, close to forty

No best plans laid I pick up pieces

Rearange till picture perfect

Starting to realize I didn't have to be so hard

On myself, life is enough of hell, I'm starved

Bent, broken; carved right into my arms

Everything I love about me is my art

That's a start, gotta climb to higher rungs

Bells been rung still standing strong

Nothing wrong with being wrong

Falling down, just no giving up your sword

Word to the ghost that haunt my core

Demons married my angels, wings tangled

Halo use to sit high now dangles

Faded though I look dangerous

Searching for truth through hatred

I'll be better tomorrow I bet

Been around the bend, back again

Threw my regrets at a blenders head

Too ready for my coffins threads

Old enough to know I'm still a young kid

Kicking rocks and belching sins

This trip around the sun is a flirt

Keeps me ten toes down and turnt

Up and down till I'm out and burnt

Scatter my ashes with wild ferns

Yes I'm blessed and that is my curse

Depression taking what I earn

Flipping pages through my comic haven

Ripping dabs and misbehaving

If I go before I wake please don't shake me

Had what I had, I grabbed it

Magic & my heart went rabbit

Hungry since young now ravaged

My zombie soul turned rabid

Guess I'm weird for sure a beard

Clear I'm much too high to steer

My consciousness got me here

Checked in, flipped fingers, beers

Now back to my demons

Had my seasons, gave me reasons

To give up and keep on bleeding

Fuck that, keep on rock & rolling

Pleading, calling; trapping, holding

Sirens got me in paranoia

Came so far to still skirt edges

Counting blessings next breathe helpless

Never give in, I'm alien & yelling

Phone home into the ether gelling

With fire just a phoenix rising

Had what I had, I grabbed it

Magic & my heart went rabbit

Hungry since young now ravaged

My zombie soul turned rabid