When are you going to learn not to let your emotions overtake you? When? Soon. Surely. We thought this years ago.
But be yourself. Express yourself. Be honest in what you feel when you're asked.
When will you learn?
Not too brash.
Be perfectly honest.
You've said too much.
It's never too much.
That's more than enough.
Get up. Be tough!
You're out of line.
Forge new ways. Feel.
In honor of my truest self, I bring you a stream of my consciousness. Flawed as it is in many aspects, some would consider it rude or excessive or not nearly enough.
Well, I say, if you be one year over twenty at the least...
sneaking alcohol into concerts with you
feeling bad about being late for another date
your lips on mine
it might be trite
but every one is like a glass of wine
your arms, your face, your hair
even your scowl
the boiling in your blood when things get hot
the composure in your silence when things get too heavy
The look in your eye when I'm talking and the strength in your voice when you speak
I miss what we might've been
sick, twisted, dream world of mine
Nothing's perfect, that's for sure
like they say
I know my future's making promises
No, no, no
I said that right
I miss the hopes I had for us
but that was never us
Your thoughts were louder than mine
I couldn't hear myself think
Same with you
You could hear me, too
We could hear each other
But not ourselves
Said some things we can't take back
Both felt attacked
And now there's just no looking back
It's been about 12 hours that I've been sticking to the diet I started a month ago
And already, I'm thinking of writing love songs
The soft buns and the things on them
They way they melt in my mouth is pleasing
I won't binge and purge on this day
I won't have the shake
Or the fries
Or the burger
The night is young, though
So maybe I will after all
The phone rings
I silence it
A few minutes later, it rings again
I silence it again, unapologetically
And a few hours later
It rings again
seemingly without end
And I make a mental note
That tomorrow, I won't change my mind
But I'll change my number for the first time in years
I'm tired of this nonsense
The unending ring
From a caller I know
without caller ID
I weighed myself 2 days ago and nothing had changed
I got upset and overate and weighed myself again yesterday
I’d gone down
It’s always like that with me now
I weighed myself again today and the scale said I’d gone up 10 lbs
I stepped off, stepped back on and this time, it said only 5
I stepped off and I wrote it off and drank my protein shake
I weighed myself again and I’d gone down by 1
I’m not sure now anymore
But there’s one thing I know: I once thought that I looked gross, but I looked pretty good
I've found peace within myself
In spite of myself
Don't stroll so freely in an open field
The earth is beautiful
The sun is warm
But all this beauty can be gone
Before you've had the chance to explore it all
If a branch snaps
They will kill us just for fun
They will kill us just to feed
While we feed on only greens
Who will stop them?
I don't know
That's just the way a deer's life goes
You'll never know that I checked my messages knowing I didn't have anything from you
That I checked if you were online every half hour, every quarter, almost every minute and I thought of saying something, but I didn't.
Some would call that stalking
Others call it hurting
But I mean you no harm and I'll keep my distance
I'm just tempted to be near you, but I can't
The only thing that makes life worth living is my child's smile
Nothing else is so powerful and overwhelmingly worth it