In the new year
In the new year
Let us do what we love
Love who we appreciate
Appreciate what we have
Have luck and opportunity.
Dense
When I think about it now,
it all does makes sense.
You really truly were
just that dense.
Just
All I want for Christmas
is for you to come back.
You’re the only part
of my life
that I lack.
Everything I see
reminds me of you.
I don’t ask for you to love me
but give me a chance to.
Just one word
is all I need to hear.
I can do the rest
just please don’t disappear.
December
As our memories grow farther away,
I only wish to let go of you
this December.
Intentions
I guess some people
are just
were just
never worth it.
It wasn’t kindness
it wasn’t warmth
and it wasn’t love.
It was boredom
it was meaningless
it was evil.
But I’m not sure
if I can say it was fake.
Then…
what was it?
Drunken Truth
Looking back, it was all you. You were the one to decide what we should get off the menu. You were the one to put your head on my thigh. You were the one to kiss my hand. You initiated it all.
So what happened?
Why am I hearing you ask others whether or not I thought it was a date, saying you didn’t think it was when you were the one to take it a step further?
I just wanted to get to know you.
And why did you pretend to be concerned and ask what happened when you saw that I got hurt after weeks of no contact, only to never further the conversation?
Are you trying to hurt me more than you already have?
What are you trying to do? Why are you still presenting yourself to me? What do you want from me? Why are you confusing me?
Am I the fool?
Leave me alone.
Please.
Why don’t I want you to leave me alone.
Maybe
Well
you see
in my mind
I guess it goes a little something
like this.
I just love
wholeheartedly
fully
and I may doubt myself
but I never doubt you.
I’ll always forgive you
I’ll be the one to give in
because I love you
because
it’s you.
But I can’t keep doing this
as hypocritical as I might be
if you keep showing me
you don’t care
and that I’m not worth the risk.
Because I can keep giving
and I can keep hurting
but at some point
I think I might lose myself
and it was hard to realize that.
I can put you first
I always do
but
I don’t ask for much
really.
All I ask
is for your genuity
tell me I’m important to you
show me I’m worth it
love me like no one else.
Hm
maybe that is a lot
maybe I expected too much
in that case
I’m sorry.
I guess I’ve wasted
both your time and mine.
I loved you
maybe you loved me
but I’ll never know.