Same annual event

different companies

both of us are still involved then

Same coffee shop, same drinks and treats

I was ready to tell stories I long to tell you

I got the coffee from the counter and turn and found

any of the ones I used to be with.

They used to be like sisters

Like besties, no secrets at all

Criminals who cover one another

Movie buddies crying together because of a silly movie

Then rivals for a position that isn't worthy of all the pain

Now acquaintances who are never in the same place even when together.

-SaneWriter,2/18/22

Today I heard them play the song again

An old familiar strain from way back when

Every note and every line

It's always been a favorite song of mine

It used to haunt me so some years ago

Reminds me of the boy I used to know

And although the melody lives on

The memories and the boy are all but gone

And while the song still brings that certain glow

And the words still sing of love I know

It isn't why the way it was before

The promises we made seem easier then

As if we knew our love would never end

But seasons change and time erases the tears

As swiftly as the rivers disappear

So while the song still brings that certain glow

And the words still sing of love I know

It isn't why the way it was before

I remember the boy

But I don't remember the feelings anymore

-Joey Albert

For a long time

I wanted to hold on to you, to this feeling

Like a grudge

I never have to forgive nor forget

And

I did.

For a long time too

I wanted to let go of you

But

Then long before today,

I realized, I don't have to

Because It was only I who's persistent on holding.

Today.

After a very long time

I got the courage to release my hold, to open my hand that's holding on to you.

I learned you are not a grudge

Nor a balm to sooth my heart

And

Finally....

Today I have decided to let myself be free from the bondage I created and anchored to you.

♡SaneWriter

November 28, 2021

How often is a chance that someone you like will like you back?

Probably one in hundred times or thousand, milliom times?

I don't know.

As for me, the one I liked never liked me back the way I liked them.

For years I've been pinning on him, he never saw me the way I see him.

I dunno how others can donthis thing but as for me...

I

FINALLY

Stopped.

The one who made my youth so colorful and lively is still here.

The one who can get a smile from my lips is still here.

He is still here, he stayed

Everything is still the same for him

I just walked out of his life.

I don't know if he will and had noticed my absence.

But

I have finally broken the invisible chain that bound me to him.

Dec.2, 2021

It's been years since the last time I cared about you and the decisions you make

No

It's been years ago when your post affected me much

Two years

I telleveryone I do not care anymore, and I was confident your decision that broke me before will not come to pass.

But here I am again writing about you again, for you chose to break your heartbreaking decision to me through a post.

It feels like my heart dropped from my chest

You never fail to surprise me

Unspeakable?

No. Not really.

Here's the things I want to tell you (everyone)

I am afraid I will be an old maid.

Everyone seems to think I'll be one but I rebuke them no I won't be one in Jesus Name.

When my mom turned 60 everything changed. During the midnight of her birthday it felt like we both entered another time line and I felt it. Nothong's the same anymore...

I am afraid to live alone... the house is too big to be left in...

I liked him like I never liked anyone before.

There are days all I wanna do is to stare at him, speak with him, want him but who am I really? I am no match to him. Probably I am just a colleague to him a co leader in an organization.... but I like him I wanna be close to him and know him more... perhaps know him more

1. You sure you're gonna be okay?

2. Take care of yourself

3. This is my last one if u want it you can have it.

4. You can connect to my netflix account.

5. Yeah my spotify too.

6. Anything you want