Shaykie

4 reads

to deep in

and that was when she knew she was

screwed; the minute he could make her love

and hate him at the same time.

12 reads

never have

the wind blows gently, sending shivers down my spine...

drifting my thoughts to how one touch from you did the same...

to a time when your name was deeply engraved onto my beating heart; whispering "mine"

but at las to you it was all but a foolish game.

yet, still i cannot control the need to feel your embrace

the same way mankind cannot control the hoarse ocean.

i think of what it would feel like to have close to mine your face, our breath engulfing every little bit of space...

but you belong to her, you always have. thinking you could feel for me what i do you, what a silly notion?

so i keep each memory locked away behind a firewall in my mind.

ensuring the treasured by me alone

hoping that is you, in someone else, i would find.

yet, it not you, and i feel grief rush down to my bones...

i can only wish that one day you know what i felt with you.

but at the same time i hope that never happens too

Shaykie

9 reads

Takes one to know one

My mother always told me he was a narcissist, while explaining to me what the term meant.

Until I did my own research

only to realise she was describing herself, without even knowing

Shaykie

7 reads

Lessons never meant to be taught

She was his first, he's favourite and he showed it proudly. The way he showed pride in his first car.

Up until he replaced her with another. Oblivious, the fact that he was teaching her from a young age

that it was fine for her to be

treated like an option, and not a priority.

Like a ragged, old doll that could be replaced when a new one arrived.

Up until she found a man that did

all this, and her father could not stand to understand her logic...

The same logic he had planted in her developing mind.

Shaykie

8 reads

Be careful

And then she became the woman he unconsciously molded, at the end, he could not handle the nuclear weapon he had created

Shaykie

4 reads

Confusion

She confused; Possessiveness with Protectiveness. Not understanding the

difference between a knight in shining armour and the collector of precious ornaments

Shaykie

10 reads

And that is when

It was the day that you said; ‘sorry’

and she said;

“Don’t be. It's my fault, I allowed you to do this to me”.

It was as clear as crystal, that she had stopped thinking of you and what your emotions would be, and started placing herself first.

Shaykie

3 reads

Empty promises

You told her, you loved her unconditionally, yet you gave her ultimations.

You said you needed her, yet you pushed her away when all she wanted to do was show you she cares.

You promised to soak up her tears with your perfumed shirt, as she laid her head on your chest, yet you're the reason for her silent cries when her head hits the pillow.

You promised her forever, but how could you, when you barely believe the words that dripped from your very own lips?

Shaykie

13 reads

when fantasy is better

She escapes her reality by reading.

Turning fiction pieces

into her new reality, the ability to

live millions of lives

other than her own, one filled

with challenges, heartache

and sorrow. And when she

is not reading,

music allows her to create her

own perfect reality within

her already complex mind.

Shaykie

4 reads

mind of its own

Telling myself to speak my mind

when I'm upset

about something,

is like giving me the

key to a vehicle

and telling me to drive.....

There’s one certainty we

will crash, but I don't know if we will

survive the impact.