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Judge me

The true meaning of friendship

I know my deeds , I ll stand firmly what I did , though it ruined my friendship , even many other relationship got ruined up just because my soul took some but tough decisions which have made me the culprit , but my soul was feeling the turbulence happening inside me , one side was my friend who mean a lot to me , and another side was his cheating with two souls. He was manipulating and using their emotions physically playing with them .It broke me and shattered me In and out, some would blame for ruining up my relationship of friendship , some would even critize me for spilling up the facts which were meant to be secret , but were lethal for some souls which was affecting them , I would be a coward if I would have not taken that step , my decision have ended the evils of someone , my decision may have broken many hearts but they are thankful to me that it saved their lives which could have become a huge disaster , the deceptions and deceiving acts of someone close to me towards some one who is unknown to me unfamiliar shocked me from inside The pain what they went though because of someone is unimaginable , uncountable , yet I can sense the pain . I know the toughness and integrity for taking such a bold decision have disturbed many lives around me , but if I would have kept myself beside the silence of atrocity it would have ruined many lives in a more severe manner .

I don't know what I did was right

I don't know how they ll judge me

I don't know whether they ll understand me

I don't know whether they ll ask me

What I did for some would be backstabbing

But my soul knows that if I would have kept silent I would have ruined many lives ,

Friendship doesn't means to back and support for bad deeds , because support someone bad deeds is making you even the same culprit

One side is some one who is going through pains and on the other hand my relationship of friendship is being ruined up .Many are pointing out on my character that I have a personal interest with that girl impress and make her into my aspects

I am in a dilemma whether I did the right thing going a giant my friend and took the right side of that girl

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Judge me
The true meaning of friendship
I know my deeds , I ll stand firmly what I did , though it ruined my friendship , even many other relationship got ruined up just because my soul took some but tough decisions which have made me the culprit , but my soul was feeling the turbulence happening inside me , one side was my friend who mean a lot to me , and another side was his cheating with two souls. He was manipulating and using their emotions physically playing with them .It broke me and shattered me In and out, some would blame for ruining up my relationship of friendship , some would even critize me for spilling up the facts which were meant to be secret , but were lethal for some souls which was affecting them , I would be a coward if I would have not taken that step , my decision have ended the evils of someone , my decision may have broken many hearts but they are thankful to me that it saved their lives which could have become a huge disaster , the deceptions and deceiving acts of someone close to me towards some one who is unknown to me unfamiliar shocked me from inside The pain what they went though because of someone is unimaginable , uncountable , yet I can sense the pain . I know the toughness and integrity for taking such a bold decision have disturbed many lives around me , but if I would have kept myself beside the silence of atrocity it would have ruined many lives in a more severe manner .
I don't know what I did was right
I don't know how they ll judge me
I don't know whether they ll understand me
I don't know whether they ll ask me
What I did for some would be backstabbing
But my soul knows that if I would have kept silent I would have ruined many lives ,
Friendship doesn't means to back and support for bad deeds , because support someone bad deeds is making you even the same culprit
One side is some one who is going through pains and on the other hand my relationship of friendship is being ruined up .Many are pointing out on my character that I have a personal interest with that girl impress and make her into my aspects

I am in a dilemma whether I did the right thing going a giant my friend and took the right side of that girl

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Depression

Depression

Crying and creeping thoughts was what I kept on piling up , life was becoming more odd a punishment rather than a boon

I lost on my instances

I gave up on many stances

The pain of failures is dwelling inside

The hope is transformed into agony

The desire for happiness is murdered at every instances

You call it loneliness

I call it depression

The desire is burning out

The passion is turning down

The emotions are dying

The agony is killing me softly

The pain is creeping deeply inside

I am depressed ,

I am sad ,

I am weak

Yet my feelings are strong

I lost my battle to be happy

My soul companion was Sadness and pain

My emotions went into grave of pain and silence

This is what I call

DEPRESSION

I ll fight , I ll fall , but I ll conquer and defeat it with my grits

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Depression
Depression
Crying and creeping thoughts was what I kept on piling up , life was becoming more odd a punishment rather than a boon
I lost on my instances
I gave up on many stances
The pain of failures is dwelling inside
The hope is transformed into agony
The desire for happiness is murdered at every instances
You call it loneliness
I call it depression
The desire is burning out
The passion is turning down
The emotions are dying
The agony is killing me softly
The pain is creeping deeply inside
I am depressed ,
I am sad ,
I am weak
Yet my feelings are strong
I lost my battle to be happy
My soul companion was Sadness and pain
My emotions went into grave of pain and silence
This is what I call
DEPRESSION
I ll fight , I ll fall , but I ll conquer and defeat it with my grits
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I am not Villain

I am not a Villain , but I have Grey shades

Don't judge me , you ll regret

Don't force me , you won't be able to control me

Don't hurt me , I am strong enough to revert back

Don't fool me , I am not what you can construct me

I may be a villain

My deeds may be evil for you

But I am not what you think

I am beyond your imagination

You can't shackle me in your emotions

I have been through those

I have been hurted by them

I have been cheated by you

So what if I am not your hero

I am a villian and I bravely accept my traits

My ending could be sad

But my living is what I believe in

You call my deeds black

I call my emotions transparent

So what you call me sinner

I ll continue to keep doing my deeds

I am not black no white I poses the grey shade

My attire is my belief

My pain is my struggle

My happiness is my sadness

You can't conquer me

You might win over me

You might defeat my soul

Yet I ll bleed with my soul traits

I won't be artificial

I won't be manuplative

So what if I lost my soul of goodness

So what if I transformed into bad

I am not evil , but I am not even an Angel

My traits are not destructive

May be I am a villain for many

May be my deeds are evil for others

But my intentions are pure

My feelings would surely be cured

I ll villain for my pain

I ll be a villain for my failures

Hero is what I tried

Villain was what I become

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I am not Villain
I am not a Villain , but I have Grey shades

Don't judge me , you ll regret
Don't force me , you won't be able to control me
Don't hurt me , I am strong enough to revert back
Don't fool me , I am not what you can construct me
I may be a villain
My deeds may be evil for you
But I am not what you think
I am beyond your imagination
You can't shackle me in your emotions
I have been through those
I have been hurted by them
I have been cheated by you
So what if I am not your hero
I am a villian and I bravely accept my traits
My ending could be sad
But my living is what I believe in
You call my deeds black
I call my emotions transparent
So what you call me sinner
I ll continue to keep doing my deeds
I am not black no white I poses the grey shade
My attire is my belief
My pain is my struggle
My happiness is my sadness
You can't conquer me
You might win over me
You might defeat my soul
Yet I ll bleed with my soul traits
I won't be artificial
I won't be manuplative
So what if I lost my soul of goodness
So what if I transformed into bad
I am not evil , but I am not even an Angel
My traits are not destructive
May be I am a villain for many
May be my deeds are evil for others
But my intentions are pure
My feelings would surely be cured
I ll villain for my pain
I ll be a villain for my failures
Hero is what I tried
Villain was what I become
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My cigarette love

I lighted the cigarette of my pain ,

The smile on was there on my face but the pain could be felt inside my soul .

I puffed my sorrows and tapped my happiness like the unwanted ash

The more I inhaled the smoke the more sorrow became visible

I become the slave of that smoke

The craving for happiness kept on burning inside my soul

But the ashes keep on ruining my passion for survival

I took many drags of failures

I inhaled many puffs of disrespect

My pain was burning and turning into ashes , the burden on my soul to sacrifice the pain of failing was swelling up and dwelling inside

Sympathy was felt like a curse

Dejection was fondle my my emotions

The only thing was alive inside me was burning desire to prove myself

I knew my tests

I knew my Traits

The only smoke was seen was my burning desire

The pain inside my soul was similar to addiction to cigarette

The more I craved for happiness and success

The more I was deprived and awarded with pain and failures

So what if I am a failure

So what if I couldn't prove my instincts

The hope will keep on burning

The burden of failures i ll keep on tapping like ash from a lighten cigarette

I made it my soul companions

My feelings of failures were tested

My emotions of craving happiness was deprived

My soul was empty

My heart went shallow

The only echo which crafted inside my soul

Burn your failures into ashes

Tap your negativity out and turn it into your happiness

So what if I ll fail to overcome

I ll light again one more cigarette of emotions to burn my failures

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My cigarette love
I lighted the cigarette of my pain ,
The smile on was there on my face but the pain could be felt inside my soul .
I puffed my sorrows and tapped my happiness like the unwanted ash
The more I inhaled the smoke the more sorrow became visible
I become the slave of that smoke
The craving for happiness kept on burning inside my soul
But the ashes keep on ruining my passion for survival
I took many drags of failures
I inhaled many puffs of disrespect
My pain was burning and turning into ashes , the burden on my soul to sacrifice the pain of failing was swelling up and dwelling inside
Sympathy was felt like a curse
Dejection was fondle my my emotions
The only thing was alive inside me was burning desire to prove myself
I knew my tests
I knew my Traits
The only smoke was seen was my burning desire
The pain inside my soul was similar to addiction to cigarette
The more I craved for happiness and success
The more I was deprived and awarded with pain and failures
So what if I am a failure
So what if I couldn't prove my instincts
The hope will keep on burning
The burden of failures i ll keep on tapping like ash from a lighten cigarette
I made it my soul companions
My feelings of failures were tested
My emotions of craving happiness was deprived
My soul was empty
My heart went shallow
The only echo which crafted inside my soul
Burn your failures into ashes
Tap your negativity out and turn it into your happiness
So what if I ll fail to overcome
I ll light again one more cigarette of emotions to burn my failures
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My emotions

Today I was heartbroken , don't know how to express my pain , the pain I was dealing within myself felt so small , when I saw someone being hurted purposely and intentionally ,Her emotions were crushed,She was given scars ,Her soul was dent again and again .The love she spread the emotions she cared for him

Her positivity was overturned

She was made Emotionless

Yet she cared ,Yet she felt inside that it will change him, make him love her , crave for her

Her love was soulful.His hunger was her soul ,Her tears were painful

He ignored her soul ,He used her soul

She sacrificed her pleasure , just to give him pleasure

He kept on raping her feelings

She kept on collecting scars on her soul ,He cheated her,She forgive him

He disgraced her,She was loyal , he was cheating on her soul

She kept allowing him to play with her feelings , he kept on hurting piercerly with pains and egos ,She was a desire for everyone ,She became a slave for someone ,He kept using her

She kept believing him

He never felt pity ,Atlast she left her soul ,Cried in love which she was deprived ,Her belief in love was vanished Her soul was tarnished

But she didn't changed what he tried changing in herShe is loving , believe in spreading love,Love was her treasure which made her happy in spreading onto others ,Love was her craving desire,Pain was dwelling attire

Atlast she become numb yet she could feel the pain of others

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My emotions
Today I was heartbroken , don't know how to express my pain , the pain I was dealing within myself felt so small , when I saw someone being hurted purposely and intentionally ,Her emotions were crushed,She was given scars ,Her soul was dent again and again .The love she spread the emotions she cared for him
Her positivity was overturned
She was made Emotionless
Yet she cared ,Yet she felt inside that it will change him, make him love her , crave for her
Her love was soulful.His hunger was her soul ,Her tears were painful
He ignored her soul ,He used her soul
She sacrificed her pleasure , just to give him pleasure
He kept on raping her feelings
She kept on collecting scars on her soul ,He cheated her,She forgive him
He disgraced her,She was loyal , he was cheating on her soul
She kept allowing him to play with her feelings , he kept on hurting piercerly with pains and egos ,She was a desire for everyone ,She became a slave for someone ,He kept using her
She kept believing him
He never felt pity ,Atlast she left her soul ,Cried in love which she was deprived ,Her belief in love was vanished Her soul was tarnished
But she didn't changed what he tried changing in herShe is loving , believe in spreading love,Love was her treasure which made her happy in spreading onto others ,Love was her craving desire,Pain was dwelling attire
Atlast she become numb yet she could feel the pain of others


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Her story

She had an untold secret story in her heart , which she always dreamt of living it ,

She kept on desiring to share it with emotions and feelings , all she expected was care and love

Her love for the man she loved was kept on dwelling , she fought against the virtues

She scribbled all her desires on her faith and emotions

Some feelings and emotions were met some for vanished

But her desire to dream and flourish never ended

She potrait her feelings

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Her story
She had an untold secret story in her heart , which she always dreamt of living it ,
She kept on desiring to share it with emotions and feelings , all she expected was care and love
Her love for the man she loved was kept on dwelling , she fought against the virtues
She scribbled all her desires on her faith and emotions
Some feelings and emotions were met some for vanished
But her desire to dream and flourish never ended
She potrait her feelings
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Season of love

She was his sight in his only vision

She's was her dream which he dreamt of

His soul was passionate

Her emotions were aware

He was attractive

She was stupendous

Both had a flair

Destiny was agiant them

Love was their only strength

She was his confidence

He was her belief

Both were blended into each other's emotions which created Elixir of passion and feelings

There dreams were apart

Yet they constructed their desire together

Their passion were different

Yet they became companion on their soulful journey

Some passion she shared

Some emotions he expressed

Some dreams he shared

Some wishes she dwelled

Togetherness was their strength

She was his sparkle of his eyes

He was her vision for dreams

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Season of love
She was his sight in his only vision
She's was her dream which he dreamt of
His soul was passionate
Her emotions were aware
He was attractive
She was stupendous
Both had a flair
Destiny was agiant them
Love was their only strength
She was his confidence
He was her belief
Both were blended into each other's emotions which created Elixir of passion and feelings
There dreams were apart
Yet they constructed their desire together
Their passion were different
Yet they became companion on their soulful journey
Some passion she shared
Some emotions he expressed
Some dreams he shared
Some wishes she dwelled
Togetherness was their strength
She was his sparkle of his eyes
He was her vision for dreams
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My canvas of her

Your whispering words , I can still hear

Your unsaid emotions I can still feel

Your sadness behind your smile I can still sense in my eyes

Your dreams which you sacrificed

I can still make them fulfill with my passion

But your silence gives me pain

Your ignorance makes me crave

Your hate is which I ll revert into love

I ll revive you

I ll make you alive inside yourself

You are my canvas

I'll fill you with colors

I ll paint you with happiness

I ll draw you with enjoyment

I ll be your your painter

You ll be my art

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My canvas of her
Your whispering words , I can still hear
Your unsaid emotions I can still feel
Your sadness behind your smile I can still sense in my eyes
Your dreams which you sacrificed
I can still make them fulfill with my passion
But your silence gives me pain
Your ignorance makes me crave
Your hate is which I ll revert into love
I ll revive you
I ll make you alive inside yourself
You are my canvas
I'll fill you with colors
I ll paint you with happiness
I ll draw you with enjoyment
I ll be your your painter
You ll be my art

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I ll be Myself .......

I am in no mood to get judged by you all,

Whether you judge me right , or wrong

It doesn't matter , I crafted myself like this I ll be what I want not what you all want me to become

Curse me or respect me , love me or hate me , stand for me or against me

I ll mark it with my deeds and my words

You crushed me

You hurted me

You killed me

That your belief

That your perception

I gained a new persona

I gained my aroma

The pain you gave I transformed it into my pleasure

Your jealousy became my strength

Your can hate me

You can abuse me

You can cheat me

I ll live by my words

I ll mark myself with my deeds

That my grit that my belief

It's me and let me be myself

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I ll be Myself .......
I am in no mood to get judged by you all,
Whether you judge me right , or wrong
It doesn't matter , I crafted myself like this I ll be what I want not what you all want me to become
Curse me or respect me , love me or hate me , stand for me or against me
I ll mark it with my deeds and my words
You crushed me
You hurted me
You killed me
That your belief
That your perception
I gained a new persona
I gained my aroma
The pain you gave I transformed it into my pleasure
Your jealousy became my strength
Your can hate me
You can abuse me
You can cheat me

I ll live by my words
I ll mark myself with my deeds
That my grit that my belief
It's me and let me be myself
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Dont disgrace her

His filthy words never dented my soul

His marks in my soul never made me sad , because I knew and I know and will continue to know that I can't change his mentality

If i imprison my soul to his deeds he ll use me

I ll unshackle myself and my soul from his deeds he ll blame me and deface my morality and my character

I am what I am

I ll what I ll want to

Not what you want me to

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Dont disgrace her
His filthy words never dented my soul
His marks in my soul never made me sad , because I knew and I know and will continue to know that I can't change his mentality
If i imprison my soul to his deeds he ll use me
I ll unshackle myself and my soul from his deeds he ll blame me and deface my morality and my character
I am what I am
I ll what I ll want to
Not what you want me to
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