I am filled with rage from the people I love that could care less about my wants and needs. I want to release this fire so I can succeed.
Being focused on you has never got me through you just added weight on me with this wedding ring the vows we took had to be in vine.
The you I had is not there now the new you just throws his weigh around and makes me fill like I am not worth a thing.
You know what I call this marriage I call it the devils feast
Get out and go I can’t take this no more. Depression has me at odds. We’re living in times that are halted no moves forward don’t step backwards into memories of lost freedom.
Covid has had us trapped for a couple of seasons. Get out even if you don’t have depression this could bring it about there loss all around and changes that are out of our control.
Get out go to a park or throw around a ball in your back yard in the sun. Get out start a new goal put forth work to turn your house into a home. Get out and roam don’t let covid depression take a hold.
Setup to fail
Untrusted untrained but placed on a scale next to you. Not given the chance to be great because there was a scheme or you could say more of a plot in place.
Status quo had to be kept so you pushed me over but what you didn’t know is I am never down for long.
I am about to right this wrong and claim my spot. I don’t even want it but I will take it because you counted me out.
Two drinks in and one foot out there’s nothing but temptation in my house filled with sadness but currently guided by hope addiction is no joke
As quick as I am okay that all can change our minds are not wired to look at drinks and other addictive things the same
Depression and unexpected ties when life goes wrong puts me in a unexpected place of trying to heal my pain
God is currently working with me so that I can see my worth and that giving into addiction will cause nothing but unbelievable hurt
A Darker Me
A darker me I been quite happy as you can see no I am slipping back into a darker me and that is no good for anyone just wait and see
Underhanded and respect demanded at any cost a darker me is a complete lost I am meant to be sweet and kind and pay hate no mind
But that can all change under handed people has caused me not to look at people the same and before I let you push me to the edge you will be that one at the ledge
Setup to fail
Untrusted untrained but placed on a scale next to you not given the chance to be great because there was a scheme or you could say more of a plot in place
Status quo had to be kept so you pushed me over what you didn’t know is I am never down for long I am about to right this wrong and claim my spot I don’t even want it but I will take it because you counted me
Don’t put off plans
We put off plans and say it’s all in god’s hands and we will do it tomorrow. Today is are day to sit and play we will get it done tomorrow.
But as the day goes on are thoughts for tomorrow goes wrong and intentions to complete are goals get put off longer than expected.
So loved ones feel rejected and dreams are no longer protected because tomorrow gets further away day by day. We have lose of are goals and the task at hand because tomorrow is now filled with today’s plans. So do what you can and don’t wait for tomorrow.
A Day Alone
A day alone is what I need a day for who a day for me a day we’re the world isn’t perched on my back obligations and my family ties can be set to the side
My days always seem to run together and overload and that’s when addiction takes ahold at that’s when my future days start to implode
Please grab some days for yourself I am you I know why you love to give help but trust you can’t help if you don’t take care of yourself
Judgements of my PEN
It’s for me and some might be for you my poetry helps to get me threw but Understand your looks and judgements can never stop what I do a lifetime of pain poured threw a pen
God has placed my purpose in front of me indebted to your hate I will always be sit back and watch your energy and my talent redefine me and shape my work into what it is meant to be
I love mine until I see yours then my mind is filled with thoughts of more more Then I start to treat my possessions like there not worth the floor it was built upon
Not thinking if I gain what you got I would lose everything I have even the people that’s a blessing in my life even the man that calls me his wife
Never look to someone else’s success as light Your path was mapped out for your own successes To chase someone else’s life would be a mess so follow your own map to success