Agape please don't dissipate

From a heart so worn out

Tired of loving fervently

But fervently rejected

Agape please don't leave my music

For when it plays inside my heart

Those lyrics are its language

The things I couldn't say

Agape please don't leave my side

For if i stop believing,

I would start to crumble

Like the old tomb I am

Agape please always guard his path

For when I used to love him

You always reminded me of light

The light inside those eyes

Showing off an eternal dusk

The dusk that is now burning my heart...

DA 2018

#love #spirituality #poetry #prose #sadness

Why is it that I want someone

I don't own?

Is it because I'm in love

with their soul and not with

Their facade?

Why is it that I want something

Real, yet everything I've owned

Are dreams and love songs?

Is it because I'm in love with

Their eyes and smiles?

Why is it that everything

I love falls in other hands

And I'm left empty handed

While others grow happy

With someone I used to

Take care of?

Why is it that I'm yearning

A love that never comes

Staining my poetry

With bitterness and saltiness?

What I want... I'd like to say is you

Yet you had been taken away

From my embrace

Where I use to hold you

Hanging like a vivid emerald

On my chest

A flame burning on my coal

A golden home in the middle

Of the cold whiteness

A poem lit by the early sunrays

Waking up the birds

What I want... I'd say is you

Yet nobody has ever wanted me

For I'm only looking

Through your window

Smiling next to another candle...

the wind blows... I quench... everything is shadow...

DA 2018

#poetry #love #spirituality #freeverse

Among a thousand and one lifetimes

My soul would yearn

That of which once in a lifetime

Found along the way

Among a thousand and one lifetimes

My soul would feel

That it still misses you

From the farthest of Destiny

Among a thousand and one lifetimes

My soul would dream

That if you ever pass away first

Within another person Id find you

That if it's me the one passing away first,

I'd search like crazy

to find you again

and reflect myself into your eyes

Among a thousand and one lifetimes

This that I carry inside

Nobody could erase it

Not even Destiny himself

It is an eternal monument

It's a name on the shore

Whose existence, even if the sea destroys it,

It would still being my sweetest Samsara

And when among a thousand and one lifetimes

My soul has finally reached you

I would like you to remember, whoever you might be,

How much I loved your eyes

So I can finally go to rest in peace

DA 2017

You went into the desert

and left a dead ten year old tortoise there

I wonder if there was some mystery behind it

And I wonder if you cried

I wonder if your tears

revived the dead sands of time

or if you were thinking about your life.

I wonder if that tortoise was a witness

Of the nights I was honored

to get a little closer to you.

I wonder if the sun awoke you

From some kind of slumber.

I wonder if your car was for a moment

a horse running through the sand and wind

So you could take a friend

To its last good bye.

You went into the dessert

And shed so many layers

Are you still being you

Or is it just the sand that got into your heart?

I wonder if you wonder

I wonder about you.

I'm thinking about thinking about you

You're just like a whirlwind of dust and heat

I can see you running to the dessert

trying to find some old ruins

of who you used to be,

Ozymandias glorious and powerful.

But now only your feet remain

How is it that you are you

Someone so mysterious

Someone so strong but little as a grain of sand

I wonder if you wrote your name

The reflection of mine

In the sand of time

I wonder if your old friend

Was the last witness to account I cherished you

So blindly, so fondly

For the very first time

I wonder if you'll ever find another

Reason to keep smiling

I wonder if the sun illuminated

Your tiger's eyes

I wonder if your eyes were as vivid as they use to be

I wonder if you wondered about me

While you see our names carried away

In the sands of a lonely desert

Where you took a friend to sleep.

DA 2017

I stopped believing in stars after I saw that they also have wishes. They wish to be seen only because of their brilliance. They want every eye in the universe to look up at them, and they never return back the favor. I stopped believing in astrology. Then you came. Two magnificent bright stars embedded on a porcelain face. Two tiger's eyes that look at me and burn me. Two gemstones that make every wish there is in the universe burn within me. Then you came.... Made me wish....

DA 2017

You taught me how do dance 

At the verge of my destruction

You taught me how to laugh

At the beach of deepest sadness

You taught me how to think 

At the edge of certain madness

You taught me how to silence

At the brink of deafening screaming

You taught me life lessons 

"Never let happiness depend

On Something or a Thing"

You taught me how to spare

The rewards of my life

You taught me how to fly

With little weed and smiles 

You taught me how to feel 

Someone close to me

You taught me how to yearn

The smell of someone on my bed

You taught me how to see 

Someone in my mind

You taught me how to paint 

Two beautiful eyes on a memory 

You taught me how not to miss

Where I am coming from 

...But the things you never taught me...

You never taught me how

not to love you

You never said I love you

when your feelings faltered you 

And now I live a life 

Where there is nothing 

Stopping me from thinking 

About you

Ain't nothing about this life

Teaching me a damn thing 

About how not to love someone 

That doesn't love me back 

DA 2017

The light is faint 

I can see your mischievous eyes

Laying on my bed

The sheets trace you, turin figure

Heavenly figure 

White as paper 

I dare to write the more fine verses 

With my mouth until I run out of ink 

You offered yourself as the most humble 

Sacrifice, I must, for it is in this lonely hour

That lovers seal the pact of eternity 

It is at this lonely hour when ghosts and stars 

Witness the scene where love is conceived 

Even though this might be casual 

Even though it might be only me 

Dripping my love all over within your fissures

Let the night cover our skins 

Let the heat temper our frozen hearts 

As I devour every last breath you give to me 

When I attack your neck 

Every mantra you posses now belongs to me 

Wrap me in your warm embrace 

As the past, present, and future unfold 

Let me know what lays deep within 

The pages covering your body

Let me write down with flagrant ink 

How much I desire you and 

How much you're not mine 

Let me enjoy at least the most precious 

Person you are 

Let me caress you one more time 

For this is only me 

Do you feel it as well?

DA 2016

Let me make this clear:

I know you don't believe

In this kind of love

I know you're about to leave, but...

I know that you don't accept it

Not in the sense that you deny it 

You simply don't believe it 

That a forbidden love could ever flourish 

Let me make this clear.

You are the most ravishing circumstance 

I've encountered in the middle 

Of the desert of this life of mine 

I simply refuse to let you go 

But my respect for you is bigger than my pride

Bigger than my selfishness 

But never bigger than my love for you 

I always thought that destiny loved to sew

And whenever its threads get tangled

Circumstances, destiny, tends to happen 

But, I, naïvely believed in that 

I was mistaken.

Just as someone such as destiny 

Is doing some hobby 

He tends to make mistakes 

He decides to untie the bad knots 

And start again

It might be something insignificant for him 

But for us, mere poetical mortals, is dreadful pain.

Let me tell you

That I am uncertain if this was a mistake

Committed by destiny, but for the time being

The time I spent looking at your tiger's eyes 

The time I spent smiling at your smile 

The time I spent caressing your body 

The time I got lost within the gray murmurs

Of your soul 

That, my beloved friend, was not a mistake 

You were the fire that ignited my dead heart 

You were the only light I could see in the 

Middle of my darkness

You were for a moment mine

I believe that we are never tied to someone 

Just as the red thread legend assures us

That thread is full of knots and dead ends 

Or walls from which such thread goes through cracks 

I assure you, my dear, if you ever leave...

I don't know... Will I follow you just to be near you?

You will not be mine, that is for sure

But it is you...

The one who lately has been giving life to many poems

When the touch of someone remains 

As the trace of my hands on the sands of the beach

Of your skin, it is something impossible to get rid of 

No wave, no wind, or time would eradicate such caress

Let me tell you as well:

That, even though life ain't that easy, you, specially you,

deserve the best to happen to you. You have given it all 

And deserve to feel just as good as you have made others feel.

Just assure me one thing...

Never stop being my friend. 

No matter how far you are 

A piece of my heart goes with you...

DA 2016

You guide me to the restroom

So you can put your smoky mask on

Flaming tiger's eyes leer at me 

I can't help but notice there are no prettier gemstones.

As a surgeon, you begin to clean 

The crystal boat on your command 

You begin to sing with air and fire 

Reaching the chakras in my throat. 

You blow the truth onto my face

And I can see the green and purple fumes 

I can see your cherry lips

Speaking of ancient times and pleasure 

As if you were the sun 

I begin to tremble and laugh 

Because you're now the moon 

Giving me life advice. 

The fiery black hair on your head

Poisonous spikes I like to caress 

When your head on my lap lays down

And your body wanders new galaxies. 

That ever lasting smile of yours 

Is always sealed when you're on that boat 

Floating in the middle of a starry sky

It is only me and you 

Accompanied by a strange kind of humor 

A humor where I get to be me 

And laugh with transparency 

Because I tend to laugh always before walls. 

Then, all of a sudden, I reach the sand of your beaches 

And I write my name over and over and over on the sand

Until the sea turns into foam 

I can smell the salty water dripping on the shore. 

Then, all of a sudden; all that I see, 

Are those tiger's eyes hiding

Behind the fumes of your mouth and mine 

Until you close your lips

Bring with you that crystal boat 

Cause that is when I can be me or at least 

I can be more me and you can be more you 

I love it when you put your smoky mask on. 

Blow me for I am smoke and misery 

Turn me into a cloud, so I no longer feel heavy

Make my essence disappear into thin air

Give me on more time. 

I love to float on your starry night sky

We begin to swirl like galaxies 

In the middle of the universal darkness of your room

And the storm begins: 

It is now the fumes and I

You turned into my darkness 

I turned into your light

We are fused like ying and yang

Gray murmurs fill up the room

And in the middle I can see your tiger eyes 

Leering at me, wanting me more, dazzling me more 

I can't help but to worship you like my only god

I dare to burn my hand when I caress your chest 

I dare to burn my heart at once cause I've never loved 

With such intensity, never I've been forced 

I dare turn into ashes even when you are no more than air 

Carry me over with every blow you give 

Take me every time through the sands of your body 

Take my hand and lead me to the rest-room

Hold my head within your hands and enchant me with those tiger eyes

Blow me one more time like smoke and viniq wine

Make my world go round like galaxies and stars 

Fill my room with gray mantras 

Illuminate my life with fiery stones I love to call tiger's eyes

DA 2016

What can someone do

When words won't come out

When they are all brewing inside

But won't manifest on paper

What can someone do 

When all the ink running through veins 

And under skin it starts to ache 

When everything in life becomes dull

If there is an escape to this sentiment I'm feeling 

Why does it seem that no one cares about it 

I'm surrounded by many

But still feel like a shadow 

Where is he? Where is she?

They've stolen everything that kept me awake

Now I only dream on how to get a hold of both of them 

Now I'm only a dreamer trying to escape reality 

I am.

I'm trying to escape the pain

That caresses brought 

I'm trying to escape the nightmare they call love

How come everyone sees love red and pink

When in reality it is all dark and violet

It destroys lives

It makes chests hurt

It shuts poets mouths 

When it is unrequited 

When it is forbidden 

When it is only on one side of the river 

Now I ask myself 

What can someone do 

When words won't come out 

To say all they want to say 

They just remain quiet 

Yet they burn their cage 

Yet they mean nothing 

Because they were not said 

To those they were meant to 

They will never be said 

They will remain shut 

Hermetic 

Mere conglomerates of sentiments 

Forming a weak barrier around 

A heart who used to love flagrantly 

I just don't know what can someone do...

DA 2016