Death, the end, over, darkness. It comes for the vessal you have occupied since the beginning. Thoughts, emotions, feelings, your looks, your smell, the sound of your voice, the feel of your touch; all put into one place, locked behind someone else's memories.

Only a name remains if you once used it. The one put on paper now lays etched into the stone that weighs you down; addressing your final resting place.

Mysterious, calculating, unforgiving, unannounced, interrupting your agenda, your day, your dreams, your future. Nondiscriminating, all are welcome, all are invited to stay.

Surprised, but why? Warned since day one, tomorrow's a maybe. Spontaneous, disliked, feared, yet forgotten; for now, until a time an unknown hand is placed upon your shoulder.

Silence, then sleep, nothing to gain, it just is. No feelings, no emotion, no remorse, never hidden, always entitled, never wrong, blameless, final; This is death.

You know it’s bad when a drug dealer can’t even sell the shit. An epidemic in this world, one where people become waste, a product of the disease, decomposed by the toxins which in turn were once pure; them too now erased by the plague surrounding humanity, to find a solution for a cure may be to wipe out mankind.

To eradicate the destruction caused by ones own hate. For this is the end. Can you not see it, can you not see your surroundings, where only the beauty remains where those who find power and wealth to be above all, their way, and the decaying earth you stand in gradually has been left to rot.

Can you not see what man has taken away from God, the creation given to us all, taken away by greed, ruled by Satan’s Advocates, no longer among the heavens in the sky but burning, consumed by the flames of Hell below.

This is what we became, what man allowed to be blind too, what would go in the next chapter of the Book; if one were ever to be written. With a story of life and of good and of evil, and of an existence that could not be pure, tempted by the desires that have plagued mankind since the beginning, as a tear rolls down our Father’s cheek.

Slowly, we have let the corruption in to where there’s no where left, only the ashes of an unappreciated gift, one meant to be shared, to be flourished with love and peace, to be equally divided, not to be overindulged by one. The Devil himself.

Losing the battle, broken Warriors only remain, is there just one left with faith enough to come back strong, to draw back the enemy, to spread the word of goodness and salvation, to be grateful, to survive, to be the writer of the next chapter; if there were to be one.

Will this be the last of existence, we lose, Satan was real and his seed has been spread, annihilating everything and everyone, soon destroying his Brother.

Nothing, darkness...and that’s the end, nothing left.

I jump, closing my eyes, it will go away, not now, I’m in control, open my eyes, try not to blink. I stand up, I ask for strength, why is it so hard, dont be stupid, I walk away, If I don’t look it isnt real, Its all in how I think.

Blaming on someone else, my fear isnt caused by what I think, but how I feel; this doesnt make me weak, it makes me real.

Hold out your hand, it won’t get bit, tell yourself you’ll be alright, as I feel paralyzed, I continue to sit. There it goes again, I continue to be deaf, thinking of excuses to use, my heart pounds in my chest.

One, two, three, four, how many more, just a moment longer and it will be gone; no, it will continue, face the music, sing that song. Goosebumps over my skin, shake them off, keep shutting myself in, tomorrow i can start over, when will this panic end.

Rambling on, my thoughts never stop, throwing onto paper whatever jumps out, unsure of the words, if they make sense or not. Do I care, does it matter, it is what calms me down, where my emotions can be seen, with feeling I write them down.

Take a deep breath, overwhelmed at what I see around me, another disturbance finds it’s way through my door; I want to scream, smiling a little less, I cant take much more.

Then again, one, two, three, continuing, maybe I’ll hurl it across the room, let it bounce off the wall; when will my fear be conquered, when I face it head on, as soon as I answer that dreaded call.

Do I have it in me, I've never had to ask myself this. In a dark ally, yes, I'll not blink, I'll leave a kiss.

I'm a shadow, lost in the crowd, nothing to notice, never too loud. Hanging back in the darkness, keeping too herself, almost forgotten, replaced by someone else.

Her mind is clear, memorizing every scene, replaying in her head the past, the future only she can see. Calmly, patiently, she'll take her time, when its right she'll be ready, She promised a friend of mine.

Never, could she, no one turned her way; only a few seconds, that's all it would take. No hesitation, no feelings of remorse, one move of her finger, it's over, her only recourse.

Gone, never there, not a trace, keeping silent, seen in a different place. Not a blink of an eye, but sealed with a kiss, in the shadows she hid, never noticed, never missed.

Another morning arrives,

Running from the pain;

Another storm is coming,

From the sky it starts to rain.

The silence is near; if only

I could go faster, escape from the

Quietness that deafens my ears.

Standing in the darkness alone,

The rain is pouring, masking my tears.

The thunder roars and the

Lightening strikes, still I hear

The silence as it continues throughout The night.

Take me home, take me back, I’ve been here way too long; I’ve went to battle, I tried my best, I was defeated, now let me rest.

To my comrades I salute you, you served me well, to the ones who defeated me, “Go To Hell.” I leave with laughter, not with shame, life’s a bitch, so live well through the sweat and pain.

I wandered through these plains feeling lost, cast out to become a man; searching for the secret, riding down the road, going down a highway I couldn’t understand.

Then finding a family, one I never knew I had, all of us with different blood, yet love was unconditional through the good times and the bad.

I was on my way to figuring it out, then I stumbled, I fell down, I had my doubts. When I wasnt looking Satan passed through my door, after that it was over, I couldn’t hold on, I couldn’t hide from my demons anymore.

Dont hold your breath, come up for air, the answer Is within you, open your eyes, do not forget me, remember me when I was still there.

I found the love I was looking for, It was just a different kind, my family, my friends, I finally know now, it’s a battle but its worth the climb.

Give yourself credit, your worth being loved, I took the hard road, I tested my fate, I know now, it’s never too late, so never give up.

Goodbye, I’ll tell you one last time, hello and goodnight as I protect the streets, this is my final ride. Freedom however comes with a price, so when tomorrow arrives and all is quiet, know I paid with my life.

R.I.P. my dear friend,

You’ll always be loved and never forgotten!

As I watch you on these final days, I realize where I get my strength, your beauty as you look around, and the peace you show with grace.

Winter’s chill is hanging low, frigid breeze deep within your bones; quietly laying there, can’t we turn back time, can’t we go back home?

I promised you the Spring, let’s hold on so we can meet, just a little while longer, then they’ll be warm green grass beneath your feet.

The sunlight will be bright, its warmth will melt away the cold; this wasn’t suppose to happen, not yet, you weren’t suppose to grow old.

Listening to the crowd, echos chasing close behind, silent as we sit, memories dancing through our minds.

Watching from near by, my strength I give to you; seeing you grow weaker, yet your beauty keeps shining through.

Gently, I hold your delicate hand in mine, not wanting to let it go; watching as the hours pass, wishing this time would move slow.

You promise you will see me when the Springtime comes my way; for now we must be patient and cherish these moments we share today.

Soon the time will come when sweet scents feel the air, the peonies will be in bloom, and the windchimes will be blowing, spreading music everywhere.

So when you look up and there’s this person you no longer know, I want to promise you that you can trust her, she is kind, her word is good, a women like her mother, your hand she will gently hold.

Then the silence comes, the sun above is bright, a bridge you’ll walk upon, as Angels guide you to the light.

You made it to the Spring and now you can go home; at peace you’ll be in Heaven, and your heart will be watching over us, so we’ll never feel alone.

I love you mom...xxxooo

Do I know who you really are, I search your eyes for the truth; do you mean the words you say, or are you wasting away my youth?

Can I believe your heart beat, would you die for me, are the tears you cry, ones I can only see; would your blood flow red for me?

Do you pretend when your with me, do you act differently around everyone else; which one of you is real, would you show me your true self?

Can I believe your heart beat, would it stop for mine; will you shed the cloak you wear, adorn your armor when it’s time?

Throw yourself upon your sword, show death your face; would you show honesty if it would save me from disgrace?

Do you want to be with me, or am I only a place for you to stay; I look down to watch you sleep, wondering who you’ll be today? A knight, a king, or your evil twin, it’s been so many years, when did this battle begin?

Will you slay the dragon that hovers over my tower, protect me from the flames, take away it’s power? Will you fight for my kingdom, protect my castle walls, keep me out of danger, catch me when I fall?

Do I know who you really are, will you vow to show me in my youth; or will I forever wonder, never to know the truth?

I WILL NEVER LOOK BACK

What we had I will remember only in my dreams;

Where we shared ourselves, loved ourselves, loved each other.

This is where I can have the peace I need to move on,

To not feel resentment, to forgive.

I WILL NEVER LOOK BACK

I will never be a victim;

I can thank you,

For if not for you I may not have found my way back to who I am.

I can forgive you for your insecurities, your shame;

I will not hold you responsible,

Not when there is another to blame.

I WILL NEVER LOOK BACK

My power is now my own,

My anger slowly fades away;

The pain I have delicately put in a place I cannot see,

Maybe tomorrow, but not today.

Giving it comfort, soothing it to sleep;

Now I must leave it,

It’s time for me to move on, it’s time for me to be.

I WILL NEVER LOOK BACK

In my heart, you also I have put away in a safe place;

Hoping someday you’ll forgive yourself,

Hoping in time you will be able to look yourself in the face.

I will only remember you if I feel I need protection;

Learning what I needed too, becoming who I am.

Giving myself value, so what happened will never happen again.

I WILL NEVER LOOK BACK

Able to stand tall on both my feet, Never falling, never allowing defeat.

I will shed one last tear for you, under my breath I’ll say one

last

“I love you,” I will blow you a kiss;

I will remember you the way I thought you to be,

The one you wanted me to see.

I will only remember you one last time,

Smile, and then;

I WILL NEVER LOOK BACK

Hello there, don’t I know you, you seem like your vaguely familiar; right, I remember meeting you, I believe it was in late December.

Im trying to put my finger on it, Im embarrassed I forgot your name; if you’ll give me one more minute, I’m sure it will come to me, I’m so ashamed.

Searching in your face, your look I’ve seen before; give me one more clue, this time I’ll know for sure.

Damn my mind can’t place you, but this feeling is so real; when I figure it out you’ll be the first one that I tell.

Well goodbye for now, I hope we meet again; until then I wish you well, and I hope we’ll soon be good friends.

As I walked away, it finally came to me, that person I could not remember is my blood, a part of my own family.

How could I have forgot, then I remembered our family feud, feeling now a sadness, it was never because of me or you.

In time I’ll give you a call to see how things have been; let’s try not to lose touch this time because of someone else’s sins.