I woke up this morning feeling a sense of dread in the pit of my stomach. Today is the day that Jesus, my beloved son, will be crucified. I have been through so much with him, from the day of his birth in that manger in Bethlehem to the day he began his ministry and performed miracles. I have seen him heal the sick, feed the hungry, and give hope to the hopeless.

But now, as I watch him being dragged through the streets, beaten and bloodied, my heart is breaking. How can this be happening to my precious son? I try to keep my eyes on him, to offer him some comfort with my presence, but the crowds are too thick, and the soldiers are pushing us back.

As we make our way to Golgotha, I am overcome with grief and despair. How could anyone do this to such a kind and loving man? I want to scream, to demand that they stop, but I know it will do no good. The wheels have been set in motion, and there is no stopping them now.

Finally, we reach the place where Jesus will be crucified. I can see the crosses that have been prepared, and my heart sinks even further. I watch as they nail him to the wood, and I can feel his pain as if it were my own. I want to reach out to him, to hold him close and take away his suffering, but I know there is nothing I can do.

As the hours tick by, I watch in horror as my son hangs there, gasping for breath, his body wracked with pain. I can hear the insults and taunts of the people around us, but I try to block them out. All I can focus on is Jesus, and the unbearable pain he must be feeling.

Finally, as the sun begins to set, I watch as Jesus takes his last breath. My heart breaks as I realize that he is gone, that I will never see him again in this life. But even as I mourn, I know that his death was not in vain. I know that he died for a greater purpose, to bring salvation to all mankind.

As I leave Golgotha, my heart heavy with grief, I hold onto the hope that one day we will be reunited, that I will see my son again in the kingdom of heaven. Until then, I will hold onto the memories of the kind and loving man he was, and the impact he had on so many lives.

(This is ftom Mary's POV my version of what she's thinking that day... Well today 2000+ years ago)

I never knew you existed

Before you were already there

I thought you were the beast

Hiding inside a face of a real beauty.

Everyone's doting on you

As if you are a precious jewel

Your facade so strong

Like nothing can go wrong.

You and the others filled the house with laughter

I'm missing the days when I'm the only daughter.

But those days were just a fantasy

Coz you existed somewhere fancy.

I thought you came to steal my crown

So I always greeted you with a frown.

I thought you were so interested to it.

That you have traveled across the world for it.

I thought you were the sister who was the beast

Then I realized it was only I who thought of it.

It took me years to realize this

But

You're the sister who is opposite of the beast.

1. YOU ARE LOVED

John 3:16

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

2. YOU HAVE A PURPOSE

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord , thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

3. YOU ARE GIVEN STRENGTH TO PERSEVERE

1 Corinthians 10:13

There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.

4. YOU WILL BE GUIDED

Psalm 32:8

I will instruct thee and teach thee in the way which thou shalt go: I will guide thee with mine eye.

5. YOU ARE NOT ALONE

Deuteronomy 31:6 KJV

Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the Lord thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.

6. YOU WERE CREATED BY HIM AND FOR HIS GLORY

Isaiah 43:7

Even every one that is called by my name: for I have created him for my glory, I have formed him; yea, I have made him.

7. HE WILL TAKE AWAY YOUR WORRIES

1 Peter 5:7

Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.

8. HE WILL COMFORT YOU

2 Corinthians 1:3-4

Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort; Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God.

9. HE WILL CARRY YOUR BURDENS

Psalm 55:22

Cast thy burden upon the Lord , and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.

10. HE WILL FORGIVE

Mark 11:25

And when ye stand praying, forgive, if ye have ought against any: that your Father also which is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses.

11. HE WILL GIVE YOU HOPE

Romans 15:13

Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost.

12. HE WILL DELIVER

Matthew 7:7

Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:

13. HE DWELLS IN YOU

1 Corinthians 3:16-17

Know ye not that ye are the temple of God, and that the Spirit of God dwelleth in you? If any man defile the temple of God, him shall God destroy; for the temple of God is holy, which temple ye are.

I saw him today

In their favourite café 

He's talking with someone 

A girl who is blonde

Then

I saw her

He didn't 

She entered the café 

I knew it's time for revelation

It's the old versus the new 

"Do you still love her?" the lady asked 

I saw him looked at "her"

In his hesitation 

We found the answer. 

You never change, you are the God you say you are

When I'm afraid you calm and still my beating heart.

You stay the same, when hope is just a distant thought,

You take my pain and you lead me to the cross

I look to you, I see the scars upon your hands.

And hold the truth, that when I can't you always can.

And standing here beneath the shadow of the cross.

I'm overwhelmed that I keep finding open arms.

Jesus in your suffering you were reaching, you thought of me

What love is this that you gave your life for me

And made a way for me to know you

And I confess, you're always enough for me

You're all I need

A life with title

Is a life that's isn't little 

Responsibility you should possess greatly. 

One wrong move is what it would need to create thousands of people to be broke. 

To be a queen,  a princess,  an heiress is what I want.  

To build an empire where I am the empress

But when I saw how it changed you

How the light from your eyes died because of it

I do not want it anymore

Of the things others have. 

Be happy with what you have things you don't have they're not meant for you, let it go. 

Do not covet of the achievements of other people around you they did something to have  them.  

Do not covet the crown of the ones you love it's not crown it's responsibility.  

Yearns for that crown that isn't rightfully mine in the first place?

I thought I was the rightful heir then you came in our life and take me from my dream. 

Why do I feel like this when that crown isn't really a crown but responsibility.