you fall so beautifully
I heard you were lost
Pressed against California costs
Learning what my brother did at twenty-six,
Out in Houston, Texas
where my essence
Is.
Paranoid
So I mold this clay chest,
push ups
and
bar hangs
Stars
fade
and
I play
Words
From the ancients.
All at once:
I was a Mustang
swerving
off the road,
..… a comet …..
only seen through your
peripherals
The whining voice at the brink of exhaustion.
I carve impatience from my baggy
E y e s
Laugh
again and again
Yet I feel that ache
Thumping like sickly love,
mistrust cycling ventricles:
It's never that simple.
Doctors say I'm stressed
Something chasing my bloodline
Exposed veins shine like sacrificial cliffs
Golden rocks with newly blazed moss:
I am bleeding and burning,
Loving
You
sprinting paycheck
after paycheck.
You
Fall
So
Beautifully
From your family tree
Tumbling rapidly in fields of yesterday:
Green eyes undulating like rolling wet film
Flames like sea walls
d i v i d e d
Slowly lashing as i walk impatient
Talk until my lips shut.
December 2012
At the church
Last walk of my light
Vigils lit with tender glows
As if that night we were invited;
A family torn to three
Granted one last chance at humanity.
Without
a
L
I
F
E
L
I
N
E
I find my honest self….
blood scurrying past my face
slowing enveloped
in your sins
Wonder what you were like at 23,
What you fought for before you
Vanished.
I seek life in every breath
Take steps to my origins
Wish to extinguish
Your
Image
.
. . .
.
.
En mis sueños te veo pa
Alli estoy enfrente de la tele
y tú con el cuchillo en la mano
¡Y la sangre!
El día que nunca se va de mi memoria
me despierto con tu cara
En el espejo,
Mideo ardiendo a traves
De mis ojos.
Escucho tu voz pa
Hablando de Morelia,
Y tu infancia.
Mi hermano mayor es tu reflejo
Y yo
Una sombra de tu personaje.
No sé si te volveré a ver
pero sé que nunca olvidaré
los años que tuvimos.
for better or worse.
Thanksgiving Thoughts
Thanksgiving is a big question mark for me. Don't get me wrong; I love turkey and cranberry sauce. the stuffing( cornbread or bread, depending on what part of the U.S. you happen to celebrate in), and most of all, the desserts! All the desserts! I'm not picky at all!
However, when I think about the history of " The First Thanksgiving," I wonder, Is this a tradition I feel proud to carry on? When these thoughts come, I think about why I celebrate Thanksgiving. I am thankful for my family and friends. a roof over my head and food on the table. I believe we are all thankful for many things in our lives; I believe this is why most of us celebrate Thanksgiving. To remember all we are thankful for. To spend time with family and friends. But the biggest reason is all that delicious food!! Just kidding. :)
Gray
I find myself
stuck all day
the sun may shine
but i see gray;
there are no colors
there's barely light
darkness surrounds
although it's not night;
heavy and slow
i drag around
air so heavy
i feel i may drown,
in tears like rain
that blurs and clouds
grayscale watercolor
that cloaks and shrouds,
hides yellows, greens and blues,
holds reds and oranges at bay
no purples, no pinks, no joyful hues,
forever and always, only gray.
Do not misunderstand
do not misunderstand
the meanings at hand
the music was aband-
-ed
do not misunderstand
the love that i give
the hate that i show
thats
not
as real
as you think
do not misunderstand
this has no direction
it has information
do not misunderstand
what people may follow
they fall in the hollow
of
your
words.
Behind the façade
Why is someone mowing at 7am in the morning???
If that dog barks one more time...!!
I'll kill him if he runs late again
That guy looks dangerous...are my car doors locked?
You asked a polite question and here's my ten minute answer.
Sorry. Sorry. No I really am sorry.
Yes I do feel like it's my fault. Yes all the time. Sorry.
Sorry for saying sorry so much. Also my fault.
He has the bluest eyes - how dreamy...
What did that look mean at the dinner party last week? Is she mad at me? Did she take offence when I said green wasn't my colour. She was wearing a green hat. She probably hates me now.
Private number. Why do people use them? I'm not answering it. Leave a damn message.
Please stop spruiking your health smoothies on Facebook Debra. No one cares. Unfollow.
What's my ex from 10 years up to? Is his new partner prettier than me?
Don't overshare, don't overshare, don't overshare. 'Oh yeah I was at the doctor today for a pap smear'.
What does that look mean? Oh god, he doesn't think this is a date does he? Quick make an excuse and leave.
Why did you invite me over for dinner at five if you aren't serving it until nine-thirty. Get your shit together. No-one wants to eat that late. It's a school night.
Ooh let's send everyone a text, even though I haven't heard from them in two years, because I have a deadline. 'What are you up to these days, Titouan?'
Pancakes for dinner - because I had soup for breakfast and I'm a grownup so I can eat what I want.
Both pegs for each piece of clothing on the washing line must be the same colour if possible - it's not segregation, it's pegregation.
Dad jokes and bad puns
The inability to order a pizza other than Margherita without being disappointed
Pyjamas are the most comfortable clothes and I want to wear them all the time.
Don't surprise me. I hate it. I need to be emotionally and psychologically prepared to even see you, let alone be surprised.
Aggressively introverted. Loves parties
Listens to hypnosis on Spotify to try to solve all my problems. Mainly procrastination, lack of confidence, overthinking, negative self-talk.
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