This Is Not A Poem
I admire your
curiosity
Disturbingly, yet beautiful observations
Thoughtfulness
ability to reassess
Your impish smile
The grin you couldn't help but to have
when no-one was supposed to be looking
The excitement in your eyes when you talk about things you love
Your subtleness
Your patience
The intensity I see behind your calm nature
the moments you become absentminded while talking because you're so completely in your mind
The small moments you seem genuinely happy and in the moment
The unsuredness in your eyes
How you can speak without speaking
How you can touch without touching, but wanna touch so bad
How you dumb yourself down thinking no-one sees through it
How it seems you're somehow always in pain, but you find a way to to calm it alone ..because you don't think anyone could possibly understand, and you wouldn't wanna put em through it anyways
How you gently and seemingly innocently test the waters
When you're at a loss for words and you look up with your mouth agape trying to think of something witty to say, but everything escapes you
When your wit does show itself, because it means you're comfortable.
How I actually feel you
Like a mirror, but of all the good things...
how beautiful it is ,yet how sad I can never tell you....
I just hope you are being told, then it might not hurt so bad I can't .
Heather Hughes
Dark As Day
The night has never been
The night has never been The night has never been
as dark as the day.
The who , what's, when's,
and watch what you say.
The sad eyes, and fake smiles
you meet along the way.
The memories,
things done in vain.
The noise that numbs the brain!
Stifled feelings,
unheard fear.
The whispers
that you hear so clear.
Illusions and delusions,
added confusions.
The lies, the mistakes!
Who is real and who berates?
Accusations and condemnations,
the overwhelming revelations.
The panic concealed,
reality revealed.
The hate from the loved,
the push when you're shoved.
The fall when you try to fly,
the rise when you wanna die!
The stone cold you have to play,
when all you do is feel all day!
No the night has never been
As dark as day!
Heather Hughes
Not Tonight
It's ok to be numb
It's ok to be dumb
Never feel
Or make minds reel
It's ok to play
It's ok to lie
Never be real
Never why
It's ok to joke
It's ok to laugh
Never choke
Never ask
It's ok to flee
It's ok to me
Never fight
Never be
It's ok to bad
It's ok to mad
Never good
Never sad
Never be you
It'll never do
Just be fake
Give your soul
what they make
Drown the fire
So you tire
Reignite
Fight
The moths will flock
be the light
Steady wings
Fly without flight
Never never , not tonight!
Heather Hughes
Not Tonight
It's ok to be numb
It's ok to be dumb
Never feel
Or make minds reel
It's ok to play
It's ok to lie
Never be real
Never why
It's ok to joke
It's ok to laugh
Never choke
Never ask
It's ok to flee
It's ok to me
Never fight
Never be
It's ok to bad
It's ok to mad
Never good
Never sad
Never be you
It'll never do
Just be fake
Give your soul
what they make
Drown the fire
So you tire
Reignite
Fight
The moths will flock
be the light
Steady wings
Fly without flight
Never never , not tonight!
Heather Hughes
Not Tonight
It's ok to be numb
It's ok to be dumb
Never feel
Or make minds reel
It's ok to play
It's ok to lie
Never be real
Never why
It's ok to joke
It's ok to laugh
Never choke
Never ask
It's ok to flee
It's ok to me
Never fight
Never be
It's ok to bad
It's ok to mad
Never good
Never sad
Never be you
It'll never do
Just be fake
Give your soul
what they make
Drown the fire
So you tire
Reignite
Fight
The moths will flock
be the light
Steady wings
Fly without flight
Never never , not tonight!
Heather HughesNot Tonight!
It's ok to be numb
It's ok to be dumb
Never feel
Or make minds reel
It's ok to play
It's ok to lie
Never be real
Never why
It's ok to joke
It's ok to laugh
Never choke
Never ask
It's ok to flee
It's ok to me
Never fight
Never be
It's ok to bad
It's ok to mad
Never good
Never sad
Never be you
It'll never do
Just be fake
Give your soul
what they make
Drown the fire
So you tire
Reignite
Fight
The moths will flock
be the light
Steady wings
Fly without flight
Never never , not tonight!
Heather Hughes
Reaching
Not what I seem,
I'm just a superman scene.
Seems I'm flying forward,
but I'm getting pulled back
Kryptonite...every night,
It lights up the black.
Reflection without protection.
Can I see what I what I lack?
Eat me from the inside,
where no one will reach.
There was never a security to breach.
To whom or what should I beseech?
The toxins consume me ,
I wanted consumed.
Not like this!
Hand me a broom!
Cleaning fervently ,
Hopelessness blooms!
Too much for too little!
I'm strong yet brittle!
The debris covers me,
Yet I clearly see!
The one I'm reaching for...
It's me!
Heather Hughes
Reaching
Not what I seem,
I'm just a superman scene.
Seems I'm flying forward,
but I'm getting pulled back
Kryptonite...every night,
It lights up the black.
Reflection without protection.
Can I see what I what I lack?
Eat me from the inside,
where no one will reach.
There was never a security to breach.
To whom or what should I beseech?
The toxins consume me ,
I wanted consumed.
Not like this!
Hand me a broom!
Cleaning fervently ,
Hopelessness blooms!
Too much for too little!
I'm strong yet brittle!
The debris covers me,
Yet I clearly see!
The one I'm reaching for...
It's me!
Heather Hughes
Whisper
My heart screams in pain as it throbs,
The feeling unsilenced by my sobs.
My mind shouts thoughts of love,
Only to be drowned by fear , not enough.
My sould aches to bursting,
Am I the only one thirsting?
Can nobody feel me?
Can nobody see?
A seed without water,
Will nobody bother?
Living without,
Inside this drought.
My salty tears don't do,
I feel I'm screaming,
but it's just a whisper to you.
HRH
Whisper
My heart screams in pain as it throbs,
The feeling unsilenced by my sobs.
My mind shouts thoughts of love,
Only to be drowned by fear , not enough.
My sould aches to bursting,
Am I the only one thirsting?
Can nobody feel me?
Can nobody see?
A seed without water,
Will nobody bother?
Living without,
Inside this drought.
My salty tears don't do,
I feel I'm screaming,
but it's just a whisper to you.
HRH
God?
This path I trod
God! God?
I'm nothing
My knees are dirty lord
What must I do?
Sodom and Gomorrah flow from my eyes
I dare not look, but feel demise.
Where for art thou, too cliche?
Mayday! Mayday!
How loud must I silently scream?
I need you to show me what u MEAN!
So confused, abused and incomprehensive
Just living to live
Can you not feel the brokenness?
It's to big !
Why can't I lie in the grave I dig?
What must I learn from the suffering you give?
God! God?