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So we come to the strange conclusion that in madness lies sanity.
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Beautiful Still

Brown.

That was the color of his hair.

The wind pushed it around, ruffling it with light touches.

His cheeks held just a hint of pink, the cold being responsible.

Together we stood on the cobblestone bridge, looking over and beyond.

The grey sky, the fog, the still water, It's as though nature is waiting for one to speak.

And for nature, the wait is short.

Adam turned towards me.

And it was as if I was brought back to the first day we met.

He had that same smile when I bumped into him on the street.

But somehow, it was even more beautiful now.

" I feel as though I barely know you," Adam said while moving closer to you.

"What are you talking about? You've known me for years." I say, giving him my most dramatic eye roll.

Giving one just a dramatic he sighs, "I know that it's just-" He hesitates, searching for his words. But huffs in frustration.

" I'm an open book. Just written in a cryptic dead language that has no rhythm." I say with a slight shrug of my shoulders.

"Eunoia," he murmured while turning towards the road.

"What?" I called out as I followed him. "What does that mean?"

"It means a pure, well-balanced mind and spirit," Adam smiled. "That is how I see you."

Kicking a small stone into the beckoning greens of the unknown, a small smile of my own appears. "Eh, let's agree to disagree, my friend."

Adam stops and bends down; curious, I lean over his shoulder to see him pick a flower. Turning towards me, he takes my hands in his and ever so gently places the flower in my hand. "This iris symbolizes faith and trust." He says, looking into my eyes. "I give you this; my faith and trust in hopes that you can do the same."

I never knew that it was possible to fall for someone even harder, but at that moment, I felt as though I was weightless. Turning my head away, I focused on the dirt road in front of me. "I'm madly in love with you, Adam. But it's whatever." My steps quickened, and the redness of my cheeks could not be mistaken for the cold.

"I'm madly in love with you too." He chuckled as he made his way to catch up with me. His cold fingers wrapped around mine.

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Where do we go when the earth starts shaking?
Literal or metaphorical.
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ajrfanz in Stream of Consciousness
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We didn't know that the sun was collapsing

'Til the seas rose and the buildings came crashing

No one knows where we go when the earth starts shaking

But I know I wanna love you 'til we're food for the worms to eat

'Til our fingers decompose

Keep my hand in yours

forever more

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Write about those things that obstruct you in your life. Any format.
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ajrfanz in Stream of Consciousness
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Worrying

Worrying

That's all I do

I worry that you're all I have to lose

That all my fears are facts of life

Every scenario of all the bad

An escape plan for when things go wrong

A negative whisper in my ear

For all the things people don't say

And every time I take a step into the light

Cold hands embrace me and drag me back

Shielding me from sight

So around in circles, I go

A road unknown ahead

But I'm always stuck here

My head tells me it's best not to follow

And I know it's right

but I desperately want to feel the light

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Your Ghost & I
Chapter 22 of 22
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Above all else

"You really got to learn when to quit, my little Starlight." He chuckles while shaking his head.

“You would tell a star to dim?” I say frowning.

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ajrfanz
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Under The Waves, I Drown Restless

She watched her reflection

I watched her fall apart

She got sicker, she never breathed

The air like me

And we ran,

before we walked,

before we crawled,

before we lay

Swam before she learned,

before she'd even seen the waves

I want the best and nothing less,

I led her out so far,

I took her deep

And let the water have its way

Maybe I'm waking up today

The dark room inside my head,

is developing images I'd rather forget

And every night I look out my window,

Afraid she might return for more

'Don't come back for me'

I had her hands

And everything was good

She could float just like I could

On our backs

And everything was gold

Should’ve never let her go

I knew she couldn’t float on her own

Now I can hardly breathe

And one more kiss

Could take her life

She's back inside my dreams

Broken bones and empty screams

Sleepless nights in burning sheets

Let the moonlight, keep me from the darkness

Well, soon I'll sleep beneath the ocean,

With lost souls, wandering in and out of love

But I can't stop, wondering how long it will be

Till I stop wandering...

Till I stop wondering,

If she was ever here at all

And they wear me out

All the demons underneath the tide

And she sinks like stone

all the weight of these dreams of mine

And I wish her well

I can't save someone too far to find

But it's wearing me out

all the weight of these dreams of mine

And it's stormy in the sea tonight

She'll always be the lost one

I'll teach myself to swim again, and live in my head

And make sense of all my thoughts

And if I never reach the land or live again

I'll drift until I'm dead,

and until then,

She'll be the lost one

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Your Ghost & I
Chapter 21 of 22
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Do You Remember Autumn?

I feel the slightest brush of your hand against mine

my fingers yearning for your touch

just a moment would be enough

It'll give me a high that's just so divine

But my hand moves through empty space

The fall wind,

and the leaves falling with grace

Both teasing me with the memory of your warm embrace

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Your Ghost & I
Chapter 20 of 22
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I cherish our hellos

and I'll mourn our goodbyes

because this may be the last

I'll see you in this lifetime

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ajrfanz
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I swallow my doubts away and watch them grow old

Just the ache of knowing everything was going to change

As you filled me with dreams I couldn't hold

I got so close to love with you, my dear, it's strange

And now this house feels like a grave

Every stain I've made on your heart

You can't tell me you didn't take part

But every time it's my fault somehow

I guess I'll see you at the funeral

I haven't cried in a while

and this house begins to shake

I haven't cried in a while

You told me "Baby that's love"

Maybe now's a good time

Every moment's just a memory away

and I'm tired of waiting for the walls to cave

I haven't cried in a while

Maybe now's a good time

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ajrfanz
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Dawn

Every fearful step,

I get closer to dawn.

It's like I saw morning for the first time,

and she welcomes me like a friend.

Watching the days turn into decades,

It's hard to remember that...

Every moment's just a memory away.

'I was hearing those demons sing my name

I was hearing those angels sing the same

I was hearing the good lord prophesy

I was hearing the devil harmonize'

"Matthew...It's time to go back inside."

'Where the lost don't sleep.'

"Come on back to bed, it's cold out."

'Where my lover lies.'

'Where the hurt don't weep, They just colonize'

"I know you're sad Matthew, it's going to be ok."

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ajrfanz
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I Know You

"It's like...you're a ghost," Emily said. "Like there's someone else in your shell of a body."

Taking a deep breath she continues. "I-I fell in love with you. Not this person you have become." Tears were falling down Emily's face. "I- It's like I don't even know you anymore." She whispered.

Looking at Emily's tear-streaked face, Cain replied.

"Who said you ever knew me?"

That was Emily's breaking point. Cain could act like he didn't care about anything all he wants. But after 7 years of friendship, Emily knew him like the back of her hand. Emily just didn't know who this imposter was. Because it wasn't Cain.

"I know you," Emily said. " I know you. Right now you look like yourself, but you're somebody else only it isn't on the surface. Emily scoffs annoyed and frustrated. "Y-Yeah you may talk like yourself but right now I hear someone else." Her voice started breaking, as she took small steps toward Cain. " I know you, Cain. I know you're weak on the surface, and that you speak when you're nervous. I know you can't stand the space in your bed." Emily's voice was rising now, gaining more confidence with every small step. " You shake in the darkness and break like an artist. I know all your big plans are small the next day." A few more steps and she would be right in front of him. " I know you hide your secrets, and that you disguise your weakness. You sleep in the moment Cain, but you dream like a poet." Emily was face to face with him, mere inches from his face. "So don't you dare tell me I don't know you. Because just like now you shut me out, out of habit." Emily's hands come up to cup his face. "Don't lose yourself inside your busy head," Emily whispered.

"Why do you try to save me?" Cain said. The walls he built slowly crumbled. "Do you see something I can't?" he said a little bit softer.

"I see everything you are, and more," Emily said. She slowly pulled him into an embrace.

Cain could only hope that maybe he would change, into who she thinks he is.

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