Farewell My Mother
The person who raised me
on collard greens and bay leaves.
And the notion that ginger ale cures everything.
The woman who has shaped my future and is my inspiration.
My mother, Latonia Evans, is an achiever of not one but two Master's degrees.
My mother showed me that a person's disability does not define them
My mother taught me to give everything and more
My mother taught me that education is important
My mother taught me to be a mother to all
My mother taught me to be the shoulder to lean on and the helping hand to hold others up.
My mother taught me discipline, perseverance, and kindness.
She taught me it never hurts to show kindness to others, even if they are not kind to you.
She taught me that the world becomes more beautiful with each act of kindness.
She taught me, how to embrace who I am.
And I'm so glad I listened.
I don't want to become just another number on a screen
My aunt doesn't understand my concerns, as she's doing 93
I've been there
and I've done that
five close calls
So sure, I drive all slow
not to enjoy the scenery
but to ensure that I'm here for another tomorrow
I could be number 597
keep your seatbelt on
learn your lesson
every time you're in an accident
you straighten up
and fly right
but the next Sunday
You're applying your makeup
and not watching out for the headlights
You became another number on that screen
a number that many people don't look at
because if they don't acknowledge it
It doesn't exist
it won't happen to them
but then your world is flipped upside down
crashed into the ravine
of off 18th
applying your makeup
for your final scene
I fell too hard,
and too fast
I fell from a place so high
A place you showed me
Our own little world
It hurt like hell
I'm burning up as I return to the earth
Tossing and turning
It was inevitable
it could have been hours or more,
But the anticipation
Knowing everything was going to change
I don't know whose fault it was
or who pushed who
But not knowing somehow makes it hurt more
Because maybe it was me who caused this collision
Maybe I caused the tremors in the ground
and the coldness in the wind
The tilting of our axis
and the rising of our seas
Maybe it was me.
Tears on a Melody
Casting seeds on stony grounds
Wondering why they won't grow
as she wandered in the wildflowers
a child and a companion of strings and wood
sit and sing on the doorsteps of a house that is no longer there
Tears fall on the melody
And the bittersweet sound of longing drips thick like honey
Steel strings cut sharp and precise
But I haven't stopped breathing yet
My child, look me in my misty eyes
and keep telling those sweet little lies
and this heartache weights a ton
just call me when this hurting is done
keep singing those sweet lullabies
That your mother used to play
I'll be waiting outside in the hearse
Straining to hear another verse
That was the color of his hair.
The wind pushed it around, ruffling it with light touches.
His cheeks held just a hint of pink, the cold being responsible.
Together we stood on the cobblestone bridge, looking over and beyond.
The grey sky, the fog, the still water, It's as though nature is waiting for one to speak.
And for nature, the wait is short.
Adam turned towards me.
And it was as if I was brought back to the first day we met.
He had that same smile when I bumped into him on the street.
But somehow, it was even more beautiful now.
" I feel as though I barely know you," Adam said while moving closer to me.
"What are you talking about? You've known me for years." I say, giving him my most dramatic eye roll.
Giving one just a dramatic he sighs, "I know that it's just-" He hesitates, searching for his words. But huffs in frustration.
" I'm an open book. Just written in a cryptic dead language that has no rhythm." I say with a slight shrug of my shoulders.
"Eunoia," he murmured while turning towards the road.
"What?" I called out as I followed him. "What does that mean?"
"It means a pure, well-balanced mind and spirit," Adam smiled. "That is how I see you."
Kicking a small stone into the beckoning greens of the unknown, a small smile of my own appears. "Eh, let's agree to disagree, my friend."
Adam stops and bends down; curious, I lean over his shoulder to see him pick a flower. Turning towards me, he takes my hands in his and ever so gently places the flower in my hand. "This iris symbolizes faith and trust." He says, looking into my eyes. "I give you this; my faith and trust in hopes that you can do the same."
I never knew that it was possible to fall for someone even harder, but at that moment, I felt as though I was weightless. Turning my head away, I focused on the dirt road in front of me. "I'm madly in love with you, Adam. But it's whatever." My steps quickened, and the redness of my cheeks could not be mistaken for the cold.
"I'm madly in love with you too." He chuckled as he made his way to catch up with me. His cold fingers wrapped around mine.
We didn't know that the sun was collapsing
'Til the seas rose and the buildings came crashing
No one knows where we go when the earth starts shaking
But I know I wanna love you 'til we're food for the worms to eat
'Til our fingers decompose
Keep my hand in yours
That's all I do
I worry that you're all I have to lose
That all my fears are facts of life
Every scenario of all the bad
An escape plan for when things go wrong
A negative whisper in my ear
For all the things people don't say
And every time I take a step into the light
Cold hands embrace me and drag me back
Shielding me from sight
So around in circles, I go
A road unknown ahead
But I'm always stuck here
My head tells me it's best not to follow
And I know it's right
but I desperately want to feel the light
Above all else
"You really got to learn when to quit, my little Starlight." He chuckles while shaking his head.
“You would tell a star to dim?” I say frowning.
Under The Waves, I Drown Restless
She watched her reflection
I watched her fall apart
She got sicker, she never breathed
The air like me
And we ran,
before we walked,
before we crawled,
before we lay
Swam before she learned,
before she'd even seen the waves
I want the best and nothing less,
I led her out so far,
I took her deep
And let the water have its way
Maybe I'm waking up today
The dark room inside my head,
is developing images I'd rather forget
And every night I look out my window,
Afraid she might return for more
'Don't come back for me'
I had her hands
And everything was good
She could float just like I could
On our backs
And everything was gold
Should’ve never let her go
I knew she couldn’t float on her own
Now I can hardly breathe
And one more kiss
Could take her life
She's back inside my dreams
Broken bones and empty screams
Sleepless nights in burning sheets
Let the moonlight, keep me from the darkness
Well, soon I'll sleep beneath the ocean,
With lost souls, wandering in and out of love
But I can't stop, wondering how long it will be
Till I stop wandering...
Till I stop wondering,
If she was ever here at all
And they wear me out
All the demons underneath the tide
And she sinks like stone
all the weight of these dreams of mine
And I wish her well
I can't save someone too far to find
But it's wearing me out
all the weight of these dreams of mine
And it's stormy in the sea tonight
She'll always be the lost one
I'll teach myself to swim again, and live in my head
And make sense of all my thoughts
And if I never reach the land or live again
I'll drift until I'm dead,
and until then,
She'll be the lost one
Do You Remember Autumn?
I feel the slightest brush of your hand against mine
my fingers yearning for your touch
just a moment would be enough
It'll give me a high that's just so divine
But my hand moves through empty space
The fall wind,
and the leaves falling with grace
Both teasing me with the memory of your warm embrace