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young moon muse

catipult

launches

eccentric energy upwards

mars manic mania

super

moon

orbit

Our

Collective void Occiputs

spinning by ...

gravity heaves

US down

lunacy leaves

madame medusa cries

black

hole

sun

pic source: earthsky.org

dedication to chris cornell

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Written by brieannekt in portal Stream of Consciousness
young moon muse
catipult
launches
eccentric energy upwards
mars manic mania
super
moon
orbit
Our
Collective void Occiputs
spinning by ...
gravity heaves
US down
lunacy leaves
madame medusa cries
black
hole
sun


pic source: earthsky.org
dedication to chris cornell
#adventure  #poetry  #spirituality  #culture  #lyrics 
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upgrade patch

A parasite is crawling into my mind, eating away my creativity.

Original thoughts are now devoid.

I've become sick from a dis-ease called atrophy, death of spirit; due to this parasite.

I called the exterminator to kill "it."

he said it costs money to "kill these lil' buggers."

Money it is then!

Please and thank you!

I regressed back to my natural untainted musings.

Now, that it's been plucked out of my psyche.

I've got my grit back ready to take over the creative realm with ease.

Be brave. Be bold. Take these worlds of words and shape your own mould.

Some other writer's told me they have to call the "bug doctor" once a year.

I said, "As long as there is no glitch in my musings," I'll keep on trekking down writer's valley.

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A parasite is crawling into my mind, eating away my creativity.
Original thoughts are now devoid.
I've become sick from a dis-ease called atrophy, death of spirit; due to this parasite.
I called the exterminator to kill "it."
he said it costs money to "kill these lil' buggers."
Money it is then!
Please and thank you!
I regressed back to my natural untainted musings.
Now, that it's been plucked out of my psyche.
I've got my grit back ready to take over the creative realm with ease.
Be brave. Be bold. Take these worlds of words and shape your own mould.
Some other writer's told me they have to call the "bug doctor" once a year.
I said, "As long as there is no glitch in my musings," I'll keep on trekking down writer's valley.
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Written by brieannekt in portal Tanka

seasonalbliss

surfing the high tide

ice cream truck melody melts

splashes of lemonade

leak from sun kissed berry lips

falling in seasonal love

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seasonalbliss
surfing the high tide
ice cream truck melody melts
splashes of lemonade
leak from sun kissed berry lips
falling in seasonal love


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Written by brieannekt in portal Poetry & Free Verse

E -go

Cotton candy hair

Soft soul matter, ego flair

Regresses back to lair

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E -go
Cotton candy hair
Soft soul matter, ego flair
Regresses back to lair
#poetry  #culture 
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Death by Default in Detroit

This wasn't just another typical Generation X rockstar suicide. No flowery poem for this guy. Chris was delivering a message that I could hear just 4o miles away from where he hanged himself. The echo was strong in the depressed Detroit suburbs. Becoming sober late in age is not a cakewalk. Once an addict for the latter portion of your life, one is considered always an addict. "Sobriety and addiction really are a life or death matter, " Chris once said.  An addict will seek anything from heroin to alcohol to as a coping mechanism and once those pacifiers are taken away, being sober doesn't feel that great. One has to go through the anger stage of why they started at a young age in the first place and then accept that they may still be in a 19-year-old mentality because the substances stunted their emotional development.  They have to face PTSD, bipolar disorder, or whatever mental affliction they were born with. A chemical imbalance is not always cured by receiving a pat on the back or not for being sober. It's a constant battle if one doesn't have the right tools to cope. 

The root of the problem should be identified in order for one to continue this path of life and addiction is just like any other disease. Music is a major trigger for inducing drug habits, but only few can go back and listen to music without the intoxicant in the other hand. Relationships are hard to forge and sometimes feel contrived after years of feeling good and connecting with other's high. One becomes reticent and standoffish because of shame and not knowing what relationships are authentic or not. Some walk the sobriety lane all by themselves and stick to a regimen. However, Chris had to fill "Chris Cornell" from Soundgarden's shoes as an older sober man and the spark and energy wasn't there. The drugs had masked his severe depression. He had to be a performer and wear a mask that could not be loosened up by substances, and the pain was unbearable. Chris once said in order to become sober, "You have to really want to be sober" Perhaps he was just sober for his kids and his wife?

May is Mental Health Awareness Month and I think Chris' actions spoke volumes to all of us generation x's that are walking around aimlessly sober. Is substance so bad if it grounds you? What do you do if you have no support group? I'm talking about those of us that are 35 and up of course. We forget how to connect to the world around us. Some of us are lucky and have serendipitously found healing modalities in the holistic arena. However, without a support group or people knowing what you're struggling with, you're bound to think thoughts of not wanting to be here without chemicals.

Personally, I decided to be sober at the age of 33 because by default I had to. I was newly pregnant. It has been the hardest part of my life: learning to relax without an elixir.  Regressing back to my 17-year-old adolescent self and having flashbacks of why I used in the first place is no fun while you're raising a toddler by yourself, without support, or extended family. People walk away because they have their own lives and affiliations. They don't care, nor do they understand the cravings and the nostalgia to feel good again. We don't know what and who is authentic or not. We're still teenagers, maybe in our early twenties emotionally. 

Chris didn't pass out of this world for selfish reasons. He ran out of coping options. Default Sobriety. Default Suicide. Generation X may have the highest suicide rate out of all the generations. We were born into Grunge and then we learned how to be "happy" on synthetic drugs. We are very apathetic compared to the millennials and I can't just sit here and not say anything because SOBRIETY is a big deal to some people and a life or death matter to all of us addicts. Thank you for spelling that out Chris. Your life matters. Your music matters. Your statement matters. 

I've been sober for 4 years now so that would make me 21 in mainstream years. Add 4 to 17, the year I began using everything on the Erowid spectrum and you still have a child in there.  Again, the theme here is becoming sober after 15-20 years of continuous dependency. It's not a prize we wear. It is the most unbearable reality if you don't have a set of tools and we are still those generation X kids growing up, maturing into the best version of ourselves.  Chris had a lot of emotions to experience and impulses to defeat and death may have won the battle, but 52 is a pretty good lifespan for an addict/musician.

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Death by Default in Detroit
This wasn't just another typical Generation X rockstar suicide. No flowery poem for this guy. Chris was delivering a message that I could hear just 4o miles away from where he hanged himself. The echo was strong in the depressed Detroit suburbs. Becoming sober late in age is not a cakewalk. Once an addict for the latter portion of your life, one is considered always an addict. "Sobriety and addiction really are a life or death matter, " Chris once said.  An addict will seek anything from heroin to alcohol to as a coping mechanism and once those pacifiers are taken away, being sober doesn't feel that great. One has to go through the anger stage of why they started at a young age in the first place and then accept that they may still be in a 19-year-old mentality because the substances stunted their emotional development.  They have to face PTSD, bipolar disorder, or whatever mental affliction they were born with. A chemical imbalance is not always cured by receiving a pat on the back or not for being sober. It's a constant battle if one doesn't have the right tools to cope. 
The root of the problem should be identified in order for one to continue this path of life and addiction is just like any other disease. Music is a major trigger for inducing drug habits, but only few can go back and listen to music without the intoxicant in the other hand. Relationships are hard to forge and sometimes feel contrived after years of feeling good and connecting with other's high. One becomes reticent and standoffish because of shame and not knowing what relationships are authentic or not. Some walk the sobriety lane all by themselves and stick to a regimen. However, Chris had to fill "Chris Cornell" from Soundgarden's shoes as an older sober man and the spark and energy wasn't there. The drugs had masked his severe depression. He had to be a performer and wear a mask that could not be loosened up by substances, and the pain was unbearable. Chris once said in order to become sober, "You have to really want to be sober" Perhaps he was just sober for his kids and his wife?
May is Mental Health Awareness Month and I think Chris' actions spoke volumes to all of us generation x's that are walking around aimlessly sober. Is substance so bad if it grounds you? What do you do if you have no support group? I'm talking about those of us that are 35 and up of course. We forget how to connect to the world around us. Some of us are lucky and have serendipitously found healing modalities in the holistic arena. However, without a support group or people knowing what you're struggling with, you're bound to think thoughts of not wanting to be here without chemicals.
Personally, I decided to be sober at the age of 33 because by default I had to. I was newly pregnant. It has been the hardest part of my life: learning to relax without an elixir.  Regressing back to my 17-year-old adolescent self and having flashbacks of why I used in the first place is no fun while you're raising a toddler by yourself, without support, or extended family. People walk away because they have their own lives and affiliations. They don't care, nor do they understand the cravings and the nostalgia to feel good again. We don't know what and who is authentic or not. We're still teenagers, maybe in our early twenties emotionally. 
Chris didn't pass out of this world for selfish reasons. He ran out of coping options. Default Sobriety. Default Suicide. Generation X may have the highest suicide rate out of all the generations. We were born into Grunge and then we learned how to be "happy" on synthetic drugs. We are very apathetic compared to the millennials and I can't just sit here and not say anything because SOBRIETY is a big deal to some people and a life or death matter to all of us addicts. Thank you for spelling that out Chris. Your life matters. Your music matters. Your statement matters. 
I've been sober for 4 years now so that would make me 21 in mainstream years. Add 4 to 17, the year I began using everything on the Erowid spectrum and you still have a child in there.  Again, the theme here is becoming sober after 15-20 years of continuous dependency. It's not a prize we wear. It is the most unbearable reality if you don't have a set of tools and we are still those generation X kids growing up, maturing into the best version of ourselves.  Chris had a lot of emotions to experience and impulses to defeat and death may have won the battle, but 52 is a pretty good lifespan for an addict/musician.
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Written by brieannekt in portal Micropoetry

PlayofPleiades

Ripple effects of pain and suffering.

Reflecting back to us hope on the white crests of small waves.

Rifts in our hearts revealed to us in water cavities.

Riding the current takes practice.

Reveling in the nature of water, we knelt down and offered ourselves....

Reverently to Halcyon, the deity of the sea and a star cluster.

Receiving Redemption.

Realizing we're not locked in the prison of our egos anymore.

Resembling each other, we're cowering over in tears of joy.

Restitution: We found ourselves in each other.

Together, as one ray of light.

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PlayofPleiades
Ripple effects of pain and suffering.
Reflecting back to us hope on the white crests of small waves.
Rifts in our hearts revealed to us in water cavities.
Riding the current takes practice.
Reveling in the nature of water, we knelt down and offered ourselves....
Reverently to Halcyon, the deity of the sea and a star cluster.
Receiving Redemption.
Realizing we're not locked in the prison of our egos anymore.
Resembling each other, we're cowering over in tears of joy.
Restitution: We found ourselves in each other.
Together, as one ray of light.

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beso

Primordial instincts.

Heart sinks into nature's berth, bleeding reassurances.

Deluged in delusion.

Alas!

His words succinct.

Love doesn't speak in utterances, but soft palpitation whispers that are distinct.

With one single kiss, he resuscitated her.

The birth of a kiss anew.

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Written by brieannekt in portal Stream of Consciousness
beso
Primordial instincts.
Heart sinks into nature's berth, bleeding reassurances.
Deluged in delusion.
Alas!
His words succinct.
Love doesn't speak in utterances, but soft palpitation whispers that are distinct.
With one single kiss, he resuscitated her.
The birth of a kiss anew.



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If feelings were substances, what would they be?
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Hate is solid matter because hate is blockage that prevents one from feeling love.

Love is steam rising because it's a substance that changes form. Tears of joy misty with condensation. Water when loves fluid and ice when loves about to burst and gets too comfy in it's hard state. Since it's an ethereal feeling, it's ever changing.

The six poisons: jealousy, anger, greed, desire, delusion and sloth mask as:

Anger: a stingbug. Once killed it cracks and you can hear it dying leaving a pungent smell behind.

Jealousy: a skink: slimy and fast moving. You can't catch until it's too late and it will consume you trying to find it once it habitates inside your house (mind).

Desire is a Flower, because who doesn't like a pretty tulip, rose or Hyacinth?; but their fragrance is potent and they die quickly.

Greed is a parasite. Parasites take everything from one energetically with no empathy.

Delusion is a chemically based cleansing agent. It thinks it's cleaning but it's causing toxicity, and its really polluting the earth.

Sloth is honey. It's sticky and sweet and causes the body to move slow once ingested. It causes weight gain and is slow moving.

Pooh Bear is the cutest example of a sloth lover.

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Hate is solid matter because hate is blockage that prevents one from feeling love.
Love is steam rising because it's a substance that changes form. Tears of joy misty with condensation. Water when loves fluid and ice when loves about to burst and gets too comfy in it's hard state. Since it's an ethereal feeling, it's ever changing.
The six poisons: jealousy, anger, greed, desire, delusion and sloth mask as:
Anger: a stingbug. Once killed it cracks and you can hear it dying leaving a pungent smell behind.
Jealousy: a skink: slimy and fast moving. You can't catch until it's too late and it will consume you trying to find it once it habitates inside your house (mind).
Desire is a Flower, because who doesn't like a pretty tulip, rose or Hyacinth?; but their fragrance is potent and they die quickly.
Greed is a parasite. Parasites take everything from one energetically with no empathy.
Delusion is a chemically based cleansing agent. It thinks it's cleaning but it's causing toxicity, and its really polluting the earth.
Sloth is honey. It's sticky and sweet and causes the body to move slow once ingested. It causes weight gain and is slow moving.
Pooh Bear is the cutest example of a sloth lover.
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Written by brieannekt in portal Poetry & Free Verse

Er

mauve

mother

mistress

of

another

love

sleeps

while

lust

creeps

In

deep

she

weeps

softly

hearts

aligned

between

the

lines.

Caressing

words

Undressing

minds

Yoking

at rest.

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Written by brieannekt in portal Poetry & Free Verse
Er
mauve
mother
mistress
of
another
love
sleeps
while
lust
creeps
In
deep
she
weeps
softly
hearts
aligned
between
the
lines.
Caressing
words
Undressing
minds
Yoking
at rest.
#romance  #poetry  #mystery 
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DailyDoseDass

Be Here Now by Ram Dass

Confirmed the journey of matter blossoming into spirit. I read this after my son was born. This was the first time I had been sober for an entire year since age 17. He confirmed that ingesting copious amounts of psychedelics and leaving the ornament of an "ego" is ok. Richard Alpert was a pioneer in advocating the therapeautic use of psilocybin. Dass and Timothy Leary tried the first psychedelic prison experiment which I also believe in. Why not help prisoners instead of looking down upon them and pushing them further behind the bars? Shouldn't they learn to expand their consciousness outside of confinement? Furthermore, and subsequently later he advocated dropping the use of substance in place of meditating. I did not realize I had walked the same path as him.

Dass's book Be Here Now affirmed that the path of yoga I had chosen was right. His cosmic cellular breakdown of the human psyche in poetic form rang true in my head, heart and soul. I began to chant "Ram" as part of my meditation practice. In September of 2014, I found a now obsolete app entitled Ku, a creative social network and began recording my own yogic musings.

Subconsciously, he influenced my first publication PurgeAtory which included a similar framework: artwork, poetry and meditation experiences. His epigraph was included in my book and I became friends with his assistant that coordinates the Love, Serve Remember Foundation. These people were my tribe. Part of Be Here Now is the epigraph of PurgeAtory, You can Purge Your Karma

I do not have a loving relationship with my mother. Once I found out Ram Dass' birthday was on April 6, the same day as my birth mother's, the connection became deeper. I've written him a couple letters since reading the bookz

Every day, I seek a daily dose of Dass. It's a sober dose, but it's potent.

Happy Mother's Day

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DailyDoseDass
Be Here Now by Ram Dass
Confirmed the journey of matter blossoming into spirit. I read this after my son was born. This was the first time I had been sober for an entire year since age 17. He confirmed that ingesting copious amounts of psychedelics and leaving the ornament of an "ego" is ok. Richard Alpert was a pioneer in advocating the therapeautic use of psilocybin. Dass and Timothy Leary tried the first psychedelic prison experiment which I also believe in. Why not help prisoners instead of looking down upon them and pushing them further behind the bars? Shouldn't they learn to expand their consciousness outside of confinement? Furthermore, and subsequently later he advocated dropping the use of substance in place of meditating. I did not realize I had walked the same path as him.

Dass's book Be Here Now affirmed that the path of yoga I had chosen was right. His cosmic cellular breakdown of the human psyche in poetic form rang true in my head, heart and soul. I began to chant "Ram" as part of my meditation practice. In September of 2014, I found a now obsolete app entitled Ku, a creative social network and began recording my own yogic musings.
Subconsciously, he influenced my first publication PurgeAtory which included a similar framework: artwork, poetry and meditation experiences. His epigraph was included in my book and I became friends with his assistant that coordinates the Love, Serve Remember Foundation. These people were my tribe. Part of Be Here Now is the epigraph of PurgeAtory, You can Purge Your Karma
I do not have a loving relationship with my mother. Once I found out Ram Dass' birthday was on April 6, the same day as my birth mother's, the connection became deeper. I've written him a couple letters since reading the bookz
Every day, I seek a daily dose of Dass. It's a sober dose, but it's potent.
Happy Mother's Day

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