No Doubts
One thing that I do not doubt is that Good will always triumph over Evil.
The One Thing
I would like to think that if I was asked the one thing in my life I am sure of, that I would answer with something profound.
Maybe something immediately agreeable, like love or family being the most important thing in life.
Or maybe I would answer something subversive and facetious. An angsty line of “life is random and has no meaning.” But seriously, on that note, can we all agree that life just sucks sometimes? When something truly, truly, terrible happens, isn’t it kind of insulting to be told it’s for some kind of higher purpose? I’d rather it be random. I prefer a universe that is randomly cruel than one that is intentionally so, but that’s just me.
My answer could also be one of those low-key narcissistic, unnecessarily elaborate explanations of my “core values.” I think I read somewhere that we form those early in life. That it becomes really, really hard to change after that. Like, if you’re a selfish asshole by a certain age, you’re probably going to be an asshole for the rest of your life, except you get a little better at hiding it.
Or I can just cop out and say that I can’t be sure. Because, really, being sure is a special kind of dangerous isn’t it? I’m willing to bet that most suicide bombers were pretty damn sure they were going to Valhalla before they pushed that detonate button.
So if there’s one thing I am sure of, it’s that I’m probably not very sure of anything. It’s a cop out, I know, but for today I’m going with it. Tomorrow, I might change my mind anyway.
Fixed Truths
somewhere in the world
night has fallen
the rain is pouring down
and someone has drifted to sleep
without setting up buckets
so the morning will come
and with it...
some regret
Certain of Uncertainty
My comrad through thick and thin,
My partner through all the doubts.
Through all the highs and all the lows,
There's one thing that I'll always know.
When times get rough and things get hard,
Uncertainty dwells in my backyard.
When I'm unsure, when I'm confused,
Uncertainty will be with me.
Through every day and each sleepless night,
Uncertainty will certainly haunt me.
With thoughts and questions swirling relentlessly,
I know my constant companion will be
Uncertainty.
Sure, I Know... I Think.
People often ask me
“Really? How can you be sure?”
I reach down deep for answers
But find nothing to procure.
I don’t know shit.
But that’s no pact; I’d like to find things out.
It’s just so hard to pinpoint fact...
yet,
Reason parries Doubt:
They dance so well together that you know it’s meant to be.
Each regards the other with keen animosity.
But neither wins and neither dies; they duel on and on,
Finding, in their fervor, middle ground to stand upon.
So even as the room looks clean,
My nose will smell a rat.
I’m sure of it:
I don’t know shit.
...But sure as heck know that.
Truth
Bone deep
absolute
basis of
All
I
Am
Built into
Me
from the ground
Up
Faith
Knowledge
I can survive
Anything
I have the
Strength
the
Courage
the
Resilience
To Live through
Anything God
Throws at me.
True. Real. Lasting.
(My best friend)
You are light
I am smitten
You are bright
Love is written
In our fate
Keeps us together
From the first date
Entwined in each other
Calming and all-knowing
A new adventure each day
Enriching and fulfilling
An unbreakable bond here to stay
H.O.P.E
Hoarding objects, past emotions
Hoping old paths entwine
Hours obfuscate personal engravings
Hammered onto planet earth
Holes, oubliettes, pierced entrances
Haunting overtures play eternally
Hold on please, energy
Heals open punctures eventually.
Certainty
who needs certainty
when you can fall into the arms
of your flowing faith in the
pathways, river-running where the
universe flows?
tell me you need me to
teach you meaning, but I'll run
if you want proof, I'll run
into the wilderness where everything
is proof and nothing can
convince you because you
already feel it;
tell me you're open and
unfold like a flower
and fall into the arms of the river-
flowing universe and
maybe I'll believe you and then,
then you'll know...
then you'll know everything
everything
because
who needs certainty?
I will not be shaken.
Testimonies are tuff
It’s hard to say JESUS when it’s true
that I can get away with saying GOD all the time
Growing up GOD was hard to grasp
It’s hard to pray when I don’t know who
I’m asking to intercede on my behalf
The TRINITY was even harder
I always felt on the cusp of getting it
but kept coming up short on who to call LORD
GOOD GOD I remember
Standing there searching the obverse{a} upturned, stepping
- tripping forward into faith because of the look on Goodacre’s face
Trust for me is ROOTED
In what I did see: A dollar struck
by the LIGHT just precisely as I believed
Gladness emboldens me by the same token as the mighty King of Spades{b};
I am sure it was HAPPENSTANCE ~
my LORD’s Presentation face.
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/ n o t a r e
{a} - The obverse or heads-side design of the first “Golden Dollar” by Glenna Goodacre features Sakakawea with her son, Jean Baptiste. The coin was first minted in 2000 with the inscriptions LIBERTY and IN GOD WE TRUST. A set of 5,500 Presentation dollars struck in Philadelphia using an experimental wash, giving these a luminescent, brassy-gold finish which is prone to tarnishing.
{b} - Since the 1500s, the King of Spades in ‘portrait officiel’ depicts King David, prophet-king of Israel. Psalm 16:5-8 | ”5 Lord, you alone are my portion and my cup; you make my lot secure. 6 The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance. 7 I will praise the Lord, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me. 8 I keep my eyes always on the Lord With him at my right hand, I will not be shaken.”