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There's no happily ever after
No silence filled with laughter
No pain without the dagger
No void that doesn't get blacker
There's just the tears filled with fears
And the screams no one hears
So you draw on a smile
Even though you feel vile
You walk the walk
You talk the talk
But when you look in the mirror
It couldn't be clearer
The sadness inside
That you've denied
Painted in your eyes
There's no surprise
But no one else can see
All that you may be
So you wipe your tears
Disguise your fears
Illuminate your teeth
And hide all that lies beneath
I need sleep lol
there’s no happily ever after
No silence filled with laughter
No bed filled with bodies
Unless death is the next chapter
No books with filled pages
Only rings around the eyes
No engagement
From staying up late
Writing is the only way to escape
Your pen your only friend
To help you sentence your sins
And arrest your heart
After you committed
But now your silence is laughter
Because you finally reached the last
Chapter
Now and Maybe After
There’s no sworn happy ever after,
No promised silence filled with laughter
No guarantee of paradise
Of snake eyes when you roll the dice...
It sucks.
It’s sad
It’s scary, too
But you can’t ruin Now.
You can’t ruin You.
See-
There IS a happy here, right Now
whatever moments’ love allows
Forget next century, decade, year
Remember feelings, Now, right here
Those anxious “if”s? They just don’t matter
You’re happy Now
and Maybe After.
The Darkness to Light
There’s no happy ever after
No silence filled with laughter
Tears don’t dull the pain
Crave sunshine, but only get rain
Only darkness but crave the light
Seems like forever night
Don’t use the rope
There is always a glimmer of hope
Don’t let the darkness leave its mark
Search deep down for that still dim spark
Hold onto that glimmer
Let it shimmer
Don’t let your storms be the norms
Let the suns rays
Brighten your days
Sometimes the darkest storms, makes the brightest rainbows.
Still looking
There’s no happy ever after
No silence filled with laughter
Just us naked in front of someone
Who we met for the first time
There’s no happy ever after
No silence filled with laughter
I told you this line
Over a million times
And look what had happened
Look where we are
Looking at the scars
Of somebody else
We examine their body
Thinking he’s that somebody
We looked for in each other
But now in the others.
They change and they change
No one’s staying for long
And they keep rotating
’Till the end of times.
Painful relief
There’s no happy ever after. No silence filled with laughter.
There is only the broken pieces, dragged from your skin an placed before you.
Its your choice.
Shall you destroy them? Or make your own thorn crown?
Words and tears and insane laughter had spilled from your mouth like vomit,
but now those emotions had grown ashen.
Or had they run away?
Your inner child is still wounded,
you EGO shattered,
your ID feral,
love lanuage dead,
and true meaning cryptic by your actions and reactions.
There is only an empty ruin of what could have been a wonderful--
You here, are here.
Nothing more, nothing less.
And yet you smile.
For now, you can build again.
And maybe you can use the shards as pigments to paint with your fingertips.
#ajrfanz