Everything has flaws.

Consider the perfection of a Faberge egg

commissioned herself by Czarina Alexandra

the definition of beauty perfection

now

get and microscope and go deep

scour it for flaws

defects

now

back away

and all you can see are the flaws.

Flaws everywhere

concentrate of them and you will become debilitated

and you will debilitate

your own ability

to see anything but.

Actively work at searching for beauty

and you will also find it everywhere in everything

and in doing so

find your more perfect world.

I have been told that I am extremely blunt when it comes to conversing with people to the point that I can hurt people's feelings. This trait of mine does put me in a position where I have to apologize for my words at times. However, it also makes people come up to me and open up to me for honest advice and opinions because they know I won't sugarcoat anything and will say it as it is, so I guess being blunt does have a redeeming quality to it. Its just that personally I have suffered a lot of criticism (not the constructive kind) so I have turned into a critic myself. I'm very hard on myself which makes me hard on others as well. I also feel as if I don't have as much empathy as I used to because my heart has hardened quite a bit over the years due to considerable amounts of trauma so whenever I'm kind to somebody or good to somebody I feel surprised by myself like oh, I didn't know I was capable of that. So yeah. This is my biggest flaw I guess. Once realization hits and I feel like I've really hurt somebody because they become silent all of a sudden, it really makes me think twice about behaving that way so I make a conscious effort not to be blunt when talking to them the next time around and to take their feelings into account.