Under the Afghan
I can't afford to pay electricity
for the light at the end of the tunnel.
Stumbling in the dark,
I find that my glass
is not half empty,
it's bone dry.
However,
the storm in my head never stops
with no sign of Noah anywhere.
Maybe I'm a unicorn.
The afghan that once
kept me warm at night
now suffocates me.
I can't remember how
fresh air feels in my lungs.
All I can do now is
hope that the sunlight
reaches the shadows of the tunnel,
and I can see enough
to climb out of the covers,
and make my escape.
depression time
today
depression is writing
a story
a story of Humpty Dumpty
because it's a stupid thing to do
I can make the characters
do stupid things
and it doesn't matter
because everything is stupid
today
depression is being angry
at the sun
being so hot
because it makes people happy
and I'm not
not long ago
depression was being angry
at the rain
for being wet
because it made people miserable
like me
and I wanted to be different
tomorrow
maybe the depression
will go away
for a while
and I won't need
to make Humpty Dumpty
have sex with Princess Charming
or I won't care
what the weather is like
because I'll feel better.
Whore Of A Heart
So what is depression?
Wish I could say
It's a meter attached with
Aggression
No choice you pay everyday
Sometimes you can
Just wake up
Fucked right from the start
And sometimes it can
Put a heavy strain
On Your heart
You can suddenly cry or
Laugh like a maniac
Or my personal
Favorite the no warning
Panic attack
Sometimes shit can leave
You on the floor
Crying never
Wanting any more
It’s a Rollercoaster
Most of the time
Psychological
Psychical
Mental
Pitiful
It’s only there
To make
You fuckin
Hate
Your soul
It's a power you
Cannot control
Mind and heart
Usually taking the wheel
And its not very often
That you can make a deal
Daniel
J
Dabney
06-17-16
And my fucked up mind
The Abyss
Hovering just above the grade
I feel myself precariously at the edge
Teetering for a brief time
Before the cliff's berm gives way
Losing my footing on life
Backpedaling feverishly
Slipping into the abyss
The darkness swallows me whole
For a time I have no desire
To even look for the light
Almost at home here
In this pitch black of emotion
Not knowing if I'll ever surface
If I'll ever join reality again
Relentlessly overthinking
My actions and those of others
Pushing through the black veil
I've hidden behind for days
I crawl from the depths
To wallow through those that lie ahead
Hoping to find a place of peace
Wondering if I'll get there
Or if the claws of menacing bleakness
Will pull me back into nothingness