Delicious and deadly

Corroded with craving

Each illustrious lie

Renders morality fading.

Drowning in desire,

I dream of your plague.

You're revoking affection

To teach me to beg.

The Devil incarnate

This love a taboo

I'm selling my soul

Crawling back to you...

Worms in your bones, throbbing in starvation

        you opened my veins to let crimson blood flow

wounds too deep, healing incomplete

        tunnel light love retreats as I crawl on all fours

bloody wrists leave a trail of crimson chills

        Scraped hands and knees, oh please, oh please

elevate me from the pounding rain of my tears

        replace my bones before they rot in the ground

bandage my wounds from your continuing abuse

        I’m crawling back to you like a moth to light, but

I realize I’ve drowned in your seas too many times

        worms in your bones, throbbing in starvation.

The way you hurt me and please me and make me beg.

Your hand holding me down as your tongue slides up my leg.

Your hand around my throat and your teeth against my flesh.

You will make me scream and make me cry, have me begging you for more.

You'll have me on the desk and up the wall, slamming me against the door.

You'll watch me strip, lick my lips, and crawl to you across the floor. 

You do me hard. Do me rough. And I watch as you walk away.

I shout and I yell, but we both know tomorrow is another day.

But when you stay away for long, you know it makes me blue.

You come back to my door, and I again come crawling back to you...

On my hands and knees,

  staring up at you.

Sitting still while you blindfold me,

  pausing so I can kiss your fingertips.

A ball-gag placed,

  dampening my cries.

A soft paddling on my rosy cheeks,

  flush with the print of your hands.

You walk away, lounge on the bed.

"Come," you say.

And I find myself crawling back to you,

towards your deep, rich voice,

  the better to bask in your sweet sweet

     pain.

I should never have fallen in love

It should never have happened

I should never have felt his touch

I should have stayed in my shell

Never sharing or speaking

About my secret hell

I could have used my brain not my heart

I should have never let him in

Or let him tear my world apart

When we parted it should have been so

I should n´t have come crawling back to you

So many times I told you to go

I could have stayed behind my wall of stone

I should n´t have allowed you in

For I know I was made to be alone

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Crawling back to you

I never know why

I gravitate towards your body

Even though it brings me hell

You’ve always been the worst guy

But I love you even so

I guess I like the misery

I want to beg for more

It's not about self-esteem

I have none

I gave it up

When I stormed out the door

And left you

Alone

And hurting

Without so much as an

"I'm sorry"

For what I did

It's not about self-respect

I have none

I gave it up

When I opened my mouth

And accused you

Of such terrible things

Without evidence

Because I was insecure

And it hurt

Me

To think they might

Be true

It was selfish

Of me

For I know that you are not

That kind of man

I see it now

As I should have

Then

And I am crawling back

To you

On my hands and knees

Not asking for

Forgiveness

Of my transgressions

Only understanding

Is it too much

To even hope for that?

#crawlingback #poetry