Blood In, Blood Out
I enjoy folks
Who use words like :
Paradigm and empirical
They sound like they have it all together
Not me though
A rotting vegetable eating meat sack
Just yesterday for example
I discovered the veins, my veins
Had broken through this crazy concrete skin
And went reaching out in all directions
To bond with anything other than their host
Or so it seemed
That made me feel a bit sad
Am I really so hard to live with?
That my insides were longing to externalize
A betrayal like none other
I tried not to take it personally
I deliberately became calm and centered Adopting a philosophical and whimsical approach
I spoke in thought to my evacuating innards
Carefully explaining to the traitors
that without me......
They were nothing......nothing
I pried a pulmonary vein from a chair leg
And carefully folded it back inside my chest cavity
Nana nana boo boo
I looked about and drank in the bloody horrific scene.....
I resembled a grotesque emaciated octopus
Or that alien from Alien 2
Brutal and hardcore....
I've dealt with rejection all my life
But nothing can ever prepare you
.........for something of this magnitude
I've had the pin pulled on me by the best
Generally what happens is :
They walk away shaking their heads
and blaming our association on either a momentary lapse of reason or alcohol consumption
I never worried that much
I was never big on attachment anyway
See.....I was an only child
I was pretty much poisoned, early on by my own company
I wasn't always this detached though...
The catalyst was the day my imaginary friend ripped my heart out.
'Its not you, its me' said Randell
I closed down that day
And never saw him again
I haven't moved from this sofa in like 22 hours
I physically can't......
My veins have anchored themselves
To a variety of heavy objects
I am pinned down and held to ransom
By my own body
A body I thought I knew well
A body I trusted.....
I hate to moan though
We all have our problems in life
This just took me by surprise is all
And I really need a change of underwear
I'll bounce back
I always do.......
Albeit anemic and pissed off
And I will extract revenge
Most probably through intravenous drug use