out of frame
my emotions are in pain
as if someone pulled out my lungs
dragged them across the wooden floor
and put them in icy water
only to leave me with a fever
that I can’t touch
the heat spreading through my skin
yet leaving me numb
powerless
with a whole gaping inside
blood streaming
but body intact
mind working
everything working, are you sure?
the strings that build me
they tangle
they shift
I feel so outside
sensations disturbing my matter
leaving me blind to logic
no sanity to sign on the dotted line
just this thing that I have
something without a name
it prays on me
but it also leaves
it always does
the only words falling out of me
are
it will get better... just not today
...
Creativity?
It’s hard to say what my creative side would be
Although some people say it’s easy to see
But I continue to look, continue to search
Who knows? Maybe I’ll find it in Church
Come Priest, I need to ask you a question
You see, I have this… obsession
My creative side, what can it be?
If only I knew, I’d be a little more happy
I’m sorry boy, but I can’t answer your question
But I’m here if you ever need to use confession
Creativity is something I can not teach
But maybe you’ll find your answer dwelling at the beach
So to the beach I went, and sat on the sand
Ignoring my thoughts, they’re just a wasteland
I don’t know my creative side, oh what could it be?
Maybe I’m just meant to sit here by the sea
And so I sat, with nothing nothing to do
Staring towards the ocean as the wind blew
Maybe that part of me died
Maybe I have no creative side
Upon this conclusion I called it a day
Walked home, had nothing to say
Sat down for dinner, neglected my food
My parents quickly noticed my mood
Cristian, what’s the problem?
You said this day was supposed to be… “awesome”
Instead you come home without a word to say
You look as if you want to fly away
Well, you see it seems I’ve lost a part of me
It’s gone, I don’t know where it is, I’ve lost my creativity
I give up, it’s way too late
These are the cards dealt to me by fate
Cristian, now think! That’s quite absurd!
Your mind is probably just blurred
You can’t ever lose your creativity
You just need to try a new activity
I remembered her words and kept them in mind
How could I have been so blind!
My creative side, oh what can it be?
I guess we’ll have to wait and see