I Just Can’t Stop
Verse 1:
My fragile heart has formed a cage
And all these bars won’t break with age
I fell in love, you captured me
And Now I just can't turn the key
Pre-chorus:
And it seems that you moved on
Feelings change, but mine aren’t gone.
Chorus:
I would give my heart and soul
Just so you could be made whole
And I would crawl down on my knees
To break your chains and find the key.
Yet you leave me in the dark
Picking up the pieces of my heart.
And you leave me out at sea,
Now who will come and rescue me?
Verse 2:
Been fighting demons on my own
To avoid the seeds that I had sown
And reap the sorrow and the pain
To make me feel alive again
Pre-chorus:
And it seems that you moved on
Feelings change, but mine aren’t gone.
Chorus:
I would give my heart and soul
Just so you could be made whole
And I would crawl down on my knees
To break your chains and find the key.
Yet you leave me in the dark
Picking up the pieces of my heart.
And you leave me out at sea,
Now who will come and rescue me?
Bridge:
Because I’m lovin’ you even though it hurts,
Even though I know that it’s gonna get worse
But I just can’t help it
I just can’t help it
I’m fallin’ and fallin’ and I just can’t stop
Unbearable
I cherish your being
hold you to my heart
thoughts of losing you
pounding nails of despair
bruised emotional exhaustion
pondering whether your existence
will carry over into the morrow
life threatening to swallow you
leaving me thirsty and bereft
unfinished and suffocating
my flailed spirit will lose
its passion, a violin missing
its strings of resonance
my love gluing you to my soul
Stay a while before you leave
and I will breathe deeply for you
enfolding you in my heart, forever.
Love
One afternoon, as we roam the streets like flirts,
Beautifully dressed in couple T-shirts,
We shone so bright
Like stars in the middle of the night.
To every young couple,
We were the perfect example ,
The true definition of love,
A couple endorsed from above.
Because what we had was rare,
The wind stopped to stare.
We held hands through out our walk,
Dominating the subject of every talk.
Oh! This could have been here to stay,
If you had not left the day before that day.
Times Gone By
You never asked a thing from me,
except to love you uncondtionally.
You never asked for promises or the moon,
except the truth, and suddenly you were gone far too soon.
Never had a real chance to make your life seem whole,
never had the chance for you to see how far for love I would go.
Never will I know another that graced my life,
one to be willing to have as my best friend and wife.
Now the moments of each precious second realized,
knowing the day you left, a part of me had died.
Thirty years have come and gone,
and still I whisper your name in an unheard song.
Why are we on this earth we often ask,
and the answer drives me to a simple answered task.
Destiny propelled us to clash and claim each others heart,
and each day I wake, smiling, thinking of you, is how I start.
What end to my life there will be matters not,
for one day, your eyes, your smile, I shall again see.
Beyond My Reach
I stand
at
the bank
of
the
river
but
your
love
cannot
swim
from
forever
I sit
at
the edge
of
the
canyon
but
your
love
has
no
bridge
which
to
pass
on
I lie
on
the shore
of
the
ocean
but
your
love
lies
beyond
the
horizon
I fly
’cross
the blue
sky
expanse
but
your
love
lives
farther;
ever-last
I sail
to
the end
of
the
seas
but
your
love’s
past
infinity
I stand
with
the earth
’neath
my
feet
but
your
love
soars
beyond;
heavenly
valentine’s day
if love is such an imperfect thing, doesn’t it
have holes, doesn’t it leak?, I wonder after
being rejected by you & left alone
to my thoughts. memory is an eternal car ride,
memory looks through windows
without seeing trees, memory continues on. my
mother’s words refract off the surfaces
of my thoughts, bounce back to her, she
swallows them. I cannot listen. if these apertures
exist, where does the love go
as it leaves me?
where can I go, now. radio is a funny thing
in that it speaks through my indifference, feels like
the beatles are singing to only me. I press replay, imagine again
looking into your eyes, saying it a million different ways;
maybe it would have gone differently if I had sounded sincere.
maybe I could have said, (if time means anything), nearly two years
it’s been. twenty-three months it’s been, that’s seven hundred days
of building up these walls, so why couldn’t I just
tell you?
my mother is silent, the radio is silent, the cars rush forward
in the same direction, we all have places to be. after you said no
I could see only the hem of your shirt, & then your shoes, & then
a spot on the linoleum floor. and I could see bits of my love,
like particles of dust, leaving my body and spiraling downward. rejection
was too predictable; I had built storm shelters hoping the hurricane
would not come. & when it came, I stood there in disbelief, unable to
shield myself from that deluge. remember, I prepared myself for this, so why
does it hurt?
getting out of the car is the hardest part, but when I do,
my body feels lighter, as if all that had been trapped inside
has been freed. it flies into the sunset like so many doves,
for a moment it leaves, for a moment the colors dull
and the walls crumble. but as I walk back inside, my love
surrounds me again, promises to stay, holds me more firmly
than your arms ever could.
it hurts
There are days
When I wonder if
I should stop
Trying to find you
But with every opportunity
I continue to seek you
And one week apart rips
At my heart
So I continue to soak
In as much time as
I have and I can't
Find it in me to regret
Because everytime we part
Naturally
I am smiling
And I am singing
And my heart
Is ringing
Because I can't get enough
Even if I know
That you belong to
Someone else
It can't stop the
Burning
Hope that I just
Can't kill
Because it still feeds me
My happiness
It hurts
But how could I
Ever give you up
Hurting
I love you
You knew that then
Do you know that now?
I love you
That rings on my head every time I see you
I keep trying to get over you
But every time I see you
I fall in love with you all over again
I love you
I just want to know where you stand
On us
I love you
That’s what bounces in my head
When we say goodbye
I love you
I want to get that off my chest
I want you to know
You already know I care
But I want you to know everything
I love you
I really do
But I’m sure that will be a phrase I take to my grave