I trusted you...

to never hurt me again 

i gave you a second chance...

but again you stabbed me in the back..

left me bleeding, reaching for you to come back

again I trusted you 

let you in 

let you take over me...

and you have destroyed me

you have stabbed me again and again;over and over and I for one will never forget

you have broke my heart; shattered it and stepped on to it

I have realized that you will not every be worth it...

I will not every trust you again...

I gave you so much and all you gave me was...

nothing

You will always be in my head ;I will always think of you...

not because I want to but it is because I can't remove the scars...

This dream... recurring; reminding me of what I truly want ; not what actually happen. Starting off on a sunny day at school with the one I have always dreamed to be with... the one I can tell anything to and wont judge me, the one who I can share kisses, laughs, and cry's. That is my recurring dream that will always remind me that maybe just maybe one day I can have the one that loves me for who I am. 

I couldn't wait for him to come home, I haven't seen him for a whole year and today was the day he comes home. I was waiting at the window for him. I couldn't wait to see how he looked and I could't wait to hear his sweet smooth voice. Finally I see a car pull up and I open the door but I don't see him instead I see two older men in uniform he says he is deeply sorry and hands me a envelope... I blankly stare at him not knowing if this was a dream....My happy day turned into a miserable life.

I am sorry for what has come upon.... I leave you this letter because you know me the best.I have loved you for as long as I set my eyes upon yours and that is why I leave you with this letter. You where the only thing left on my mind when I had my last moments... I couldn't bare to tell anyone what was going on; I couldn't bare to see your faces so I made the decision  to cry and hold on to the memories I have. Please find someone new find someone who will love you just as much as I did.Don't cry to much at my passing because every tear you lose I will be losing one to right next to you... I will always be next to you so don't think you are alone... when you need someone to talk to talk away to me because I will hear every word... I love you so much and you will always be in my heart... Goodbye love,  I will see you on the other side once  your time is right.... 

The true home is where you feel...

safe, loved, and comfortable

You will always know where your true home is... 

you can always talk about anything, everyone will love you for who you are, and you can always be yourself...

a true home might be your only place where you don't have to hide for who you are

A true home holds the closest people to you...

don't ever forget you true home because nothing will ever replace it's memories of what it holds...

You aren't going to be here forever

You are leaving to achieve your dreams 

and I will be here waiting for my dream to come true

I will be without you for a few months and my dreams will feel like they wont come true

but I have to keep saying they will come true 

my dreams involve you...

you must come back 

that is my one and only dream 

So all I need from you is to keep your promise and come back...

You are the only one that knows when you are ready to come out. I will say that know matter what other people think you know who you are. Who ever you are; straight, bi, gay, or lesbian you are human. If other people don't accept who you are then you don't need them in your life. You are human no matter who you are or who you like. If you ever need to talk I am here just pm me.:)

I am sorry it ended like this. I was hurting a lot from people that didn't care about me so if your reading this don't cry because you are the one that kept me from doing this for so long. Don't cry because no one else will. I always told you everything but now you are free from my worries and I am free from the pain. Don't hold back on anything because I wont be there I want you to do what you like. When you tell other people they will laugh they wont take you seriously and you have to be OK because they will soon realize they caused it. You did nothing to hurt me you where always there for me so don't cry I love you.

Where we destined to meet?When I met you we clicked we talked laughed and I thought you where the one to get rid of the sad moments...Things changed I wasn't so sure if we should have met you left me for another girl. I should have known better but I didn't. So I guess we weren't destined to meet but don't come running back to me because you will never get me back.

Scars....

They hurt you

They make your anger go away

the anger you have at the world 

you bleed,

cry,

scream,

ask for help 

no one comes to help 

until there is someone 

reaches down to pick you up 

to help you

get you better

then

drops you leaves you sitting,

bleeding more

crying more,

screaming more 

all you want is ONE person to care for you and not ever to leave you