This is an insult to the hours.

I am not special

I am ruthless

I seek truth like it

hurts me to do less.

My art is more

than mere minutes

I bore into it

I just love to write

to rhyme when they tell me not to

love to find that kernel of proof

that grain of sand they took

with my word. My mind is driven—

not by destiny, but by pride

Skill is more than

talent over time

Photo by Renel Wackett on Unsplash

#talent #pride #life #poetry #wisdom #lifelessons

This piece is just a cut up of my own stuff.

all that I have

caught up in hot dark,

impulsive touches

against his sinful skin.

I am in the middle of

a full horizon

hot spring water,

we lay under thunder.

since you caught me

I am waking up.

it's easy to forget

I am brave.

I am up packing myself,

tucking you in.

I feel like I barely see you enough

and I don't know,

sometimes one must learn

to not look like

plowed.

I can make like

I have found inside out

and full of devotion

and you say

"blurt me out"

like we are rain.

#poetry #geekslutnerdgirl

remember when God was real

and all the angels swirled around us

like Hallelujah,

you wrapped your arms around my soul,

held me, shaken to my core

and whispered Hallelujah

you finally got what you deserved

a beautiful yet broken girl

to maybe fill the emptiness inside ya,

but there was no room

trying to squeeze her in to

a bed shared with somebody else

and crystal meth,

and as the bed screeched out in her nightmares,

all she could remember was

Hallelujah

and how dare you, smash her broken,

be so careless with the heart of love.

you saw her faith and trust destroyed,

you picked it up, brushed it off

only to carry it up higher than before

and let it go, watch it drop

as you bowed your head and said out loud

Hallelujah

but it’s too late for simple words

to save what i guess was to be her fate,

falling towards a destiny

that couldn’t help but reiterate

a cold and a broken Hallelujah.

and so down she goes

trying hard not to give all the way up

on life, on love, on you

as she cries to the Lord above

for saving now

she pleads and then says silently

oh Lord it’s just me today, but however broken in my faith

i still have one more righteous Hallelujah

Hallelujah Hallelujah.

#poetry #geekslutnerdgirl #lovegonewrong #brokenandconfused

i wish i could have said hello,

because goodbye would mean that i spent time with you,

but time had another track to run,

and took a hard leap into a parallel universe,

leaving me without you,

just stillness and an empty womb.

you never got to hear me say how proud i was of you,

or yes i will hang this masterpiece on the refrigerator,

and you never got to hear me cheer you on

as you rotated the pedals on the bicycle with no training wheels for the first time

and you never got to hear me say goodnight sweetheart

or everything is going to be okay

or i love you,

i love you

i love you

because i never even got to say hello in the first place.

#poetry #brokenwomanhood #infertility #desolatewomb #geekslutnerdgirl #miscarriage