10,000 Raindrops
So I'm not sure where this is going
and before I was okay with unknowing
but we've gone a bit further than I ever could have imagined
I've never walked this trail in my heart.
O it hurts a little badly
and I am here alone feeling sadly
won't you look at me and take my sorrow away?
Am I yours or should I not be -
is it so hard to tell me?
I want to stop writing such words
wrought from my confusion
this stupid abyss of confusion
the rain is pouring outside tonight, this morning
I can't even tell the day nor the time
I've been sitting or standing
in this black hole of wonderings
how can you see me in this cave?
O simply tell me
you love me.
A Heart’s Illusion
These are words I am going to burn, metaphorically, of course how can I be so literal after all it's too serious to be literal and a fire wouldn't go unnoticed here. My inconspicuous feelings would then be exposed and I would be cold without my walls to keep me from the temperamental temperature changes of your heart...or is it your mind that dances off-tune that I can't figure out what song it is - oh how you challenge me to silence but I also welcome it for it has become a stable companion. I can always rely on silence to be silent - ever unchanging and so, so still...much unlike the night sky which only holds false promises of it.
I continue to walk without you but I wish you could know how much I truly want you to come with me but there seems to be only room for one on this road oh won't you still follow after me chase me and tell me to come home to you but you are not home you are a vacation that I never want to leave that makes me want to forget about going home and staying with you.
Where are you right now amidst the expanse of this cruel sky that separates us which star are you hiding behind or are you even hiding did you already leave this universe?
Devil of Desire
I'm dripping
wet
from the heat of my
desire
my chest can
hardly
contain this
fire,
I can barely breathe.
The air,
where is it?
The ground,
is it up?
I think I'm falling down.
My body aches for yours
in a longing that's breaking;
I need you
and I need to
feel you deeply.
But break my doors
and come inside
Rob me of everything
With your love.
He Americana
I was born a chimera.
Female, physically, but an utter freak of nature inside. Science could not have told you that, though. Only I knew it.
When you're male and female and neither biologically, life is far more extraordinary. And, incredibly ethereal.
I am three persons in one body; this is my story of how they love and hate.