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jaylee77
Married mother of two (adult children), substance abuse counselor, lover of reading and writing and inspiration.
I smile for everyone to see.
I keep moving forward each day but...
I don’t know where I am going.
I feel like it is nowhere but I’m going so fast.
I’m spinning most days. So fast.
In and out of work.
In and out of home.
I smile.
They don’t see my anxiety.
I’m trembling inside.
They don’t see my depression.
I’m so despondent, so sad.
I need my purpose. I can’t find it.
I’ve looked. And I’ve looked. And I’ve looked.
I am so tired. Everything inside me hurts.
But I smile.