I am looking forward to certainty; never again doubting, worrying, and wavering between unbelief and faith.

I cried myself asleep. Then I cried myself awake. I had a liquid lunch of warm salty tears. All I wanted was you. As the sunset and the darkness covered my room, I felt bitterness sinking into my chest. I yelled at you and then I cried some more.

Life is a cycle of death and resurrection;

Things die so other things can live.

@Raksti

Last March I went on my first date in four years. Instead of him sitting across from me, he put our chairs together, put his arm around me, and rested his hand on my leg. I told him affection and PDA give me anxiety. That was our only date.

It has been five years since I disappeared. I could not remember how to show up for myself. I do not want to live as a vacant soul. I want to re-emerge.

I am my father’s estranged daughter and my mother’s favorite, albeit broken little glass animal.

I was seated in the balcony, a million miles from the stage and you were a tower, even from there, but here we are together.

@Mara_C

Months of silence, then he invited me to his show. He showed up with her.

He gasped desperately.

We watched.

We all held our breath in familiar horror.

We wept.