It was time.
It was time to get over you.
And here I am.
Finally.
Over you, over us, over everything.
I forgive you for breaking my heart, but I will never forget it.
Answers. Answers. Answers.
The only thing I asked for in 3 years...
Why didn't you tell me the truth.
Pain.
Pain you caused.
Pain you never cared of.
It's over.
I'm over.
Finally.
growing up
Once you grow up you start realizing things.
You change.
Things change.
You open a bottle of vine and start laughing because a few years ago you'd say you'd never start drinking.
After you kissed a boy you remember how you used to say that the only boy you'll kiss will be your husband.
When you cry because you feel so lost and empty inside you'd wish you were young again where the only time you cried is when you felt down.
Hey,
Long time no talk right ?
Well I know I let you suffer and I know I lost you a little...well in some cases more than a little. I'm sorry. Forgive me.
Sometimes I totally forget you.
Sometimes for this particular person I don't let you win...I know you are there to protect me and to show my real worth. I really didn't want to neglect you but sometimes...you know sometimes I just feel like you are not needed even tho I always need you.
Please never stop showing me how much I'm really worth otherwise I let myself go and will find myself next to a guy who treats me like a toy and who doesn't show apericiation.
Please never forget me even if I forget you sometimes.
Your Soul
You deserve better
The nightmares haunt her.
His anger is her biggest fear. That's why she
gives her best to make him happy. He doesn't appericiate it. He isn't thankful for anything she does. She sticks with him in his worst and best days. Even tho he doesn't care about her as much as she does.
He is the love of her life.
No other women can love him like she does and no other women will try as hard as she does.
Little voices in her head say
You deserve better.
She doesn't listen to them and continues to love him and to stay with him...even if that means having a nightmare every time he gets angry. And even if that means that the pain in her chest and the emptiness of her heart won't be temporary...
What am I to you
What am I to you I asked
numb
tell me please I say
numb
He stays numb
I know the answer
I am not as important for him as he is for me
He knows that
The answer to the question what he is for me
the answer is easy
He is my love and the definition of it.
He is the all hope I've ever had.
He is my soulmate.
Feelings
Some nights I walk around not knowing where,
do I go left now or right or straight or back I don't know. I just don't . I see everywhere your face at the same time nothing. Blurry. Like my feelings.
Some nights I lay in my bed, try to express my feelings, try so hard armor would be jealous. What he doesn't know is that its not enough, never enough even if I try to give up I can't cuz then it wasn't enough.
Some nights I just stare. Stare at the wall for more than I should for more than I could cuz the wall is showing me your face. The key to my smile. An explosion of feelings of love of...numb. All an illusion the explosion an illusion the feelings are gone...
Years are passing by and we don't talk ... but I will never forget you. The guys will be jealous cuz I never stopped loving you
Dedicated to you
I wish
you wake up one day
asking yourself
where I am.
I wish
you wake up one day
and regret
that you took my heart and destroyed it into little pieces and expect me to fix it while I'm in bed crying and wishing my feelings for you weren't that strong.
I wish
that you treat your next lover
better
than you treated
me