Okay. So, I just got in an argument with someone about this and I'm gonna rant.

A guy is a guy weather or not he has a d*ck. A guy's d*ck does not make him a guy, It's that he says he's a guy and he believes he is one. Some guys have d*cks and some guys have va*inas. What's between your legs doesnt make you who you are. You figure that out through life. Between your legs is your sex, In your mind is gender. Just because you dont have a d*ck between your legs doesnt mean your less of or not a guy. Same for women. It doesnt matter what she has between her legs. Va*ina or not. She is still a women and she is still valid.

Gender is nothing but a social construct. It's these steriotypes society implaints in us since the moment we are born. You are either a boy or a girl. Blue is for boys, Pink is for girls. Girls do this, Guys do that. Your gender is based on what you were born with between your legs. Guys are masculine, Girls are feminine. Guys play sports, Girls stay pretty. NONE of this is true. A girl can be masculine and a guy can be feminine. A girl can do or be whatever she wants to no matter what society says because she is her own person and society does not control her. A guy can be dor do what ever he wants because he is a singular individual.

Some people even choose to not to associate with any of these social constructs and can identify as non-binary or agender. They are still valid. It still doesnt matter whats between their legs. Some people associate with both and can identify as bigender. Still valid. Still doesnt matter whats in their pants. Some people are born intersex. First, they were born that way. They are still valid. They can still be who they want despite what society says.

NONE of these people are weird. They are valid and beautiful.

NEVER ask someone what is in their pants if you cant tell weather they are a girl or a boy because, First, they may be both or they may be neither. Second, it's extremely rude. Would you go ask any other person what's in their pants? No.

Gender is a social construct. This is not set in stone from the moment you are born. This is determined by what you feel you are.

Sex is what's in your pants. This is placed when you are born and will stay the same unless you get sex reassignment surgery.

"Where's Blake?" Charlie asked, him and I were on the couch watching tv. "I dont know." I was wondering that same question, He had been gone a long while "Can I ask you something? and you be honest?" Charlie wasnt looking at me but I was looking at him "Yeah sure." "Why were your lips swollen? Why are there marks on your neck. Dont say they are bites or because you have allergies because I know that's a lie." His tone was stern. Crap. I was in trouble now. "Were- Are you seeing someone else?" "What? Why would you think that? I am not seeing anyone except you." I felt bad. "You have hicky marks on your neck, You came out of the bathroom with a boner. Your lips are swollen so you've been kissing someone, and it hasnt been me." He tried to keep his voice still but I could tell he was hurt. "I was cornered and helpless and was given the marks before I came here, You of anyone would know that boners can be completely random, I was eating on an orange earlier on the plane." I didnt want to lie to him but I knew I had too.

A few hours later Blake came out. He seemed calm and fine. "Where have you been?" Charlie asked, he seemed to be trying to see if there wre anything on Blake that I had. "Sleeping." "Michael is here." Charlie said hapily "I know. I let him in then went to sleep." He lied. Blake sat on the couch next to us. "3 more days till christmas." Charlie said cheerfully.

We picked up some chick-fill-a for dinner. Me and Charlie were holding hands waiting for our food and I dont know where Blake was. "F*gs!" Someone called out, I knew it was directed at me and Charlie. We got our foods and left, we waited in the car for Blake.

Blake: Where r u guys?

Me: In the car.

Blake: U got the food?

Me: Yea

Blake: K

Blake: Love you

Me: Charlie is trying to figure out what happened this morning

Blake: What?

Blake: We cant tell him

Me: I know.

Blake got back and drove to Charlie's house. We ate our food and Blake went to go take a shower. Charlie and I fell alseep on the couch watching tv. "Wake up you butthead." Charlie nuged me "No. I dont want to." I groaned, I felt Charlie moved out from under me. "Well, It's 2 day's till Christmas, The party is today and I have to get last minute items." I opened my eyes "Okay. I'll be here sleeping." I closed my eyes and drifted back to sleep.

"Hey." I woke up and I was in a bed, Blake's bed. "What are you doing?" I smiled sleepily. He was shirtless from what I saw and he was really hot. "Im giving you a morning wake up call." He smiled "Your giving me more than a morning call." He sat on top of my crotch "Oh I know baby." He smirked "You just cant be stable around me, huh?" I shook my head. "How about I help you with what I caused?" No. I cant. He cant. "Blake," I sighed "You cant. I cant. We cant-we cant do this." I pushed him off of me. "W-what?" he seemed hurt "I'm sorry." I turned away "But baby," He kissed my cheek "I said no Blake. This cant happen anymore." My voice was stiff and I left the room.

I went to Charlie's room and sat on his bed. I texted him

Me: When will u be back?

Charlie: I'm on my way like 5 minutes

Me: I might be busy when you get back if it'll be that quick

Charlie: Wait till I get back please. I'll be quick.

Me: Fine, You have 7 minutes or im going without you

Charlie: Get ready in my room

Me: I'm already on your bed

Charlie: U were gonna?

Me: Maybe. ;)

Me: 6 minutes

Charlie: Im coming

Me: Hurry.

"I'm here." Charlie busted into the room. We finnished in a quick 10 minutes. "I love you." Charlie said kissing my cheek.

At 7:30 the party started, a bunch of old friends were there and it was a fun party, we made gingerbread houses and got drunk off of eggnog. it was a great party. Except for that Martin was there. Martin despised me so much, He was Charlie's ex boyfriend before me. I didnt like Martin either. When Martin left I noticed he took something that looked like keys. That's odd? He came with Joey. Maybe those were Joey's keys. No Joey never has his keys off of him. Then whose were they? I shook the thought and waited for the last of the people to leave. I fell alseep with Charlie in his bed that night.

This evening K-pop idol Kim jong-hyun was pronounced dead at hospital.

The police are currently investigating this as a possible suicide, many believe Jonghyun died of carbon monoxide posioning. He was found unconcious in an appartment in seoul at 6:41 pm and rushed to the hospital for cardiac arrest. Sadly, It was too late and he was pronounced dead at the hospital.

The singer was one of 5 members (Also the leader) of the popular k-pop group shinee. The group had many hit singles in their home of south korea. He had recently showed his support for the LGBTQ+ community on his twitter and got trolled for it.

Jonghyun's sister was reported to have gotten the last of text from the k-pop singer before he took his life. "This is my last farewell." The text read His sister alerted emergency services. Their record company SM entertainment have confirmed his death. Everyone is mourning the lost of an incredible life. Fans showed their support on twitter, People who weren't even fans showed their suport for the group and the fan base.

Rest In peace Jonghyun you will be missed by many. 4/8/1990 - 12/18/2017

http://www.abc.net.au/news/2017-12-19/lead-singer-of-south-korean-boy-band-shinee-dies/9270186

http://www.bbc.com/news/entertainment-arts-42393242

This is all I've heard about this week. Everyone saying to save the internet. But what is net nutrality? I dont know. On the internet it tells me that its all websites treating data the same. But I'm confused. Why is everyone freaking out about this? What's the big deal? I've heard that net nutrality will be removed friday. But no one will tell me what that means. If anyone could clarify this for me and tell me why this is such a big deal it would be appeciated.

OMG OMG OMG OMG.

I love this soundtrack so much.

My friend showed me the song 'sincerly, me' and I liked it a lot so I listened to the rest of the soundtack and it's so good.

Dear evan hansen is about (This is copied from the musical's website) A letter that was never meant to be seen, A lie that was never meant to be told, a life he never dreamed he could have. Evan hansen is about to get one thing he's always wanted: a chance to finally fit in.

The song Sincerly, me is a great song where Evan writes fake emails between him and Connor. It's a great song, my personal fav.

The song dissapear is also a great song. Evan wants to start a group to remember Connor and how no one should feel forgotten or dissapear because they matter. This song hits it hard with me because I've struggled with feelings like this.

The song you will be found is when someone posted Evan's speech and it become very popular and the connor memorial page blew up.

I suggest you go listen to it if you havent yet. Its really good

Michael' P.O.V

The next 3 and a half weeks were uneventful. It was the same, Wake up without Blake, Ride to school with Danny, Come home with Danny, Repeat.

The last day of school was thursday but I didn't want to go to school. I pretended to be sick from Monday to Thursday. "Why do you keep pretending to be sick?" Danny came into the room Thursday. "I am sick." I fake coughed "Okay. Sure. So what's wrong?" "Nothing." Another lie. In reality, I just havent been feeling it lately. I miss Blake a lot. I miss Charlie too. I cant wait till I leave tomorrow. "You excited to head back tomorrow?" I noded excitedly.

The last day of school was thursday but I didn't want to go to school. I pretended to be sick from Monday to Thursday. "Why do you keep pretending to be sick?" Danny came into the room Thursday. "I am sick." I fake coughed "Okay. Sure. So what's wrong?" "Nothing." Another lie. In reality, I just havent been feeling it lately. I miss Blake a lot. I miss Charlie too. I cant wait till I leave tomorrow. "You excited to head back tomorrow?" I noded excitedly.

Danny drove me to the airport and I left and got on the plane, It was a 2 hour flight. Neither Blake nor Charlie knew I was coming.

Once I got to Charlie's house Blake answered the door. "Michael?" He seemed confused "Hi." I smiled "Y-Your here?" I knew it was supose to be a statement but it came out more of a question. "Yea. Where's Charlie?" "He's not here. He went out." "Oh." Why was this so uncomfortable? Where was Charlie? "You can wait here for him if you want." I noded and walked inside. "So, How have you been?" I asked "Good, You?" "Good."

This was panifully awkward and uncomfortble. He moved to sit next to me "I've missed you." He smiled at me. Well, This has taken a turn fast. "I've missed you too." It wasnt a lie I've really missed Blake. What does that mean? "I've missed sleeping in a bed next to yours. I've missed seeing you everyday. I've missed all those chances where I've gotten so close to kissing you. I've missed everything. I missed living at home." "I've missed you at home too. I miss you waking me up everyday and I miss you teasing me it's been lonely at home and boring." I admitted "Oh, You have?" He raised his eyebrow "Maybe." I smiled "Well, Maybe this will satisfy all your needs you've been missing." He smirked and put his lips on mine. I didnt fight it. I kissed back. Is it bad I was enjoying this? "Wait. What if Charlie comes back?" His face was inches away from mine, His breathing heavy and hot. "He wont be back for a while. He went to go buy things for a party." I smiled and went back to kissing Blake.

I heard the door open. Me and Blake were shirtless. I got off of Blake, grabbed my shirt and ran to the bathroom. I saw Blake run in the oposite direction. I put on my shirt and tried to slow down my breathing. Once I was calm there was only 1 problem, I had a boner that I couldnt explain. I walked out and Charlie was looking through the bags he bought. I sneaked behind him, "Hey there." I whispered into his ear. He jumped and turned around "Michael!" He was happy. He hugged me tight "Hi." I hugged him back "When did you get here?" "I just got here. Blake let me in." I sorta lied. "Are you okay?" He asked examining me "Your eyes are puffy and your lips are swollen and your neck..." He trailed off "I'm fine. I was sleeping on the flight and I have alergies. I got bitten by my dog." I lied. "You're lying." He bluently said "I do have alergies and my dog did bite me." I was scared he was gonna find out what had just happened "Okay.." He let go of me "I'm having a christmas party tomorrow. It's gonna be better now that you're here." He smiled