A quick little fix to turn

The tides that came running

A fire to my soul, igniting

The bits of anger rushing

To soothe a broken soul.

I don’t need a remedy, I say

So whatever you give me

I might puke it out

Or turn away, blindly

But if I feel you’re the one

I can’t say no, no I can’t

Be brave, be yourself

I won’t care what kind

Of a love we're getting

As long as we're forgetting

The lies shoved in us

When we were young

And confused

And bruised

And insane.

Your breath breezing through my ear.

Endlessly, you carressed me like summer,

Whipping through a winding memory

It’s a haze causing a traffic in our hearts

When all the world is a chaos that unfolds,

You are the only peace, a sanctuary I hold

It may be nonsense, all this poetry

But it is a malady, a purpose I behold

Because when love entered my heart

All it wants to do is to express and caress

Each lingering and tight emotion

Binding us together, a soul longing

I knew there will come a time

That you and I will intertwine and

Two of us be holding hands and

Come together for forever and

God did me good when

He gave me someone

As good as you.

It’s instinct, if you obey

The thirst of your soul

And the cries of your heart

I’m amazed at how deep

Our love endures time

And the one eternity

We all are working for

Seems to be at a halt

When you and I collide

Because it's where we were

Before we got in this dimension

Sometimes I blame myself

For letting you go before

And now we're joined together

There's nothing to stop us

It's all going to be alright now

I'm going to be yours now

And the rest of me

Will always be happy

Joyous and

Free.

I purged the demons in my head

And I know they’ll keep coming

I’ve ran into ghosts of my past

Only to find I’m not alone

The rapid movements made

By this human body and mind

Kept me awake in the moment

But somehow I’m not alive

I grabbed fuel for my body

And found no energy left

I’m running on solid fuel

I'm not the same anymore

My mind kept running,

My body kept doing

My veins are full grown

And my ribs kept a heart

On solid standing

I'm not fainting

I'm pulsating

Keeping

Sane.

#freeverse #grief #deathnote

As I open up a new chapter,

Another page becomes history.

Memories once seeped consciously

Drifts away unconsciously.

My baby, she reached six months

And lived inside my belly

I fought my way through

Cold nights, working

And sunsets simmering.

I didn't notice his cord

Was coiling and coiling

I kept feeling nothing

Except silence and death

But I just thought that

He was sleeping,

Now I'm crying

I'm just dying

Slowly.

I, a hopeless romantic, crawled deep

And found that I’m still lost

As painful as the loss of a pet

Is this heartache I’m suffering since

You left, with a warning, but foggy

I’m not ready, please call the doctor

’Cos this pain is killing me now

It’s taking over my heart and soul

My heart kept skipping beats

Trying hard not to breathe and see

Because the truth is killing me

And if you won’t come knocking

I’ll be here crying, suffocating

In this black hole you left me

Yearning, wanting and hoping

That’s what’s killing me: hope

One thing that’s keeping me alive

But now, I’m slowly losing it

Memories of blissful nights

Occupy me, when you said

You’d never find somebody else

When you knew I’m all you need

I said to myself I’ll marry you

And have kids with you

But too much fantasy

Just kills my heart.

I want to follow, obey

Even if it's not me to

Crawl deep into you.

I'd like some order

And some peace, please

So I can be at ease.

I want to be true

Even if I'm so blue

It's neccessary, it is.

I'd like to know now

How are you and

If you're feeling me

Maybe I'm the one

Who's left longing

You wouldn't want

Somebody like me

Entirely.

I can cry hard as a kid may

And spill my heart to you now

Tell me something I don't know

There's too much I hate to show

How could you let me run around

And not tell me how you feel

And the rest is still covered

The rest is still unsaid...

I'm coiled, like a sleeping serpent

Be careful, once I awaken, I'll be

Tempted to bite into whatever

As long as it serves me well

I don't care if you're not there

I might as well do my thing

Instead of following  you around

Like a dog throwing weight around

Like it's supposed to get me

To wherever I need to

I know I'm not supposed to

Be wherever you are

It's not what I wanted

But I know I'm breaking

When we're apart

I just can't let you

Be the reason.

You, a guy way too old for me

I'd never thought I will see

I thought I knew you somewhere

A distant time at a distant memory

You and I colliding, intertwined

I didn't cease to give you the world

Even when you enrage me with

The blasphemies and selfish lies

You were what I wanted and

So much more, to tell you

I was like a mother giving care

To its child, unsupported

But I guess the universe spoke

And it told me that you were

Never meant for someone

As stupid, as loving and wild

As me.