The Helps and Hindrances of Stoicism
Stoicism ultimately aims at the harmony of order--order within one's self, order of one's actions and possessions, and order of self within the context of the whole cosmos. Achieving harmony in these ways is Stoic eudaimonia, that is, the perfection or fulfillment of the human unto beatitude or absolute happiness. In other words, the Stoic believes that if human beings are able to achieve this three-fold order, they will not want or desire anything else--they are perfected or complete.
According to the Stoic, one's self, one's actions, and all the parts of one's self all fall under the human being's "power" to order. This is largely true. Because of my nature as a human being, here I am sitting at my computer, because I have to be somewhere. I am typing these words because I know how and I have some proclivity or tendency to do it. Further, I am content in the knowledge of what I am doing is in conformity with the logic of the cosmos such that I am not experiencing any extremity of emotion. Thus, I demonstrate the order of myself in conformity to the world around me, order in my actions, and inner order.
Again, according to the Stoic, if there is any disorder to be found among these things, there is a single remedy: knowledge. If I am sad that I am sitting here typing this rather than doing something else that I might think to be more worth my time, it is because I am ignorant of some part of the overarching logic of the universe. Either it has been ordained that I be sitting here typing and I am just ignorant as to the reason why, or I am actually supposed to be doing something else, and so that hypothetical sadness would have driven me to be doing something else. If I am sick or injured, I can be healed through a knowledge of medicine or the knowledge of a doctor, to bring myself back to a certain equanimity of life. For whatever disorder, knowledge can bring order.
It very much seems that Stoicism is the answer to the many ills of our time. The teenage mental health crisis as a result of social media addiction seems able to be solved by the knowledge that putting down the phone and hanging out with people is good for teenagers. If tech CEOs and boards knew not to be so tight-fisted over the trillions (yes, with a capital "TR") of dollars in their control, perhaps the economy would be in better shape. Perhaps, someone should tell them.
On paper (or in this case, on screen), this all sounds like it should work and lead to happiness, but it ultimately does not. There are a few problems with Stoicism that are insurmountable. For one, it certainly seems our will is free contra Stoic determinism. I think many people, teens included, know that scrolling for hours on end is bad for them and yet they fall into it because it is something of a natural tendency. The Stoic is all about following our tendencies and inclinations. As a result people are sad and depressed in alarming numbers. Why? I think Aristotle had the right answer in saying there are conflicting appetites in human nature, and that we have to choose to follow our intellectual appetites. There is a free choice to make, and a certain amount of effort needed to make that choice. Knowledge is not enough.
Another related problem is the reality of our emotions. Stoicism denies the moral usefulness and value of our passions. One thing the Stoics definitely get right is that our decisions should be made in an "even-keeled" emotional state as much as possible. In doing so, we are able to let reason take the reins and make the best, most reasonable decision. However, I question both the sanity and moral compass of anyone who does not want to mourn the death of a loved one, or rejoice in the birth of their child.
I can understand if someone wants to cry and yet cannot, since mourning is a complex experience. But death is a natural evil which should move anyone to sadness even if it is not exteriorly expressed. A Stoic apatheia is not really welcome in such a case, which we modernly would call an emotional numbness. Again, that numbness is a tendency that we can just "fall into" suffering, but most people will say that it is not something they really want. People want to feel. It takes effort to actively process, become vulnerable, and let the gravity of loss "sink in." There is such a thing as "a good cry," and it comes with the knowledge of the reality that death is not a good thing, even if it is a natural thing. The experience of feeling is a two-sided coin. It is only by allowing oneself to be vulnerable to mourning and feeling sadness that one is thus also enabled to rejoice and feel joy. To reject emotions is to reject both sadness and joy.
So what does all this mean in application? No, I do not think that just because Stoicism is wrong that it should be entirely dismissed and never talked about. There are certainly parts of life that it gets right. Making decisions based purely on passion and instinct is certanly not the right way to live life. Living life only in and by emotions does not capture the truth of human nature and experience. And, obviously, harmony and order are good and noble things for which we should definitely seek. So, parts of Stoicism are helpful pedagogically in the quest for the real truth of the human being, who is a rational animal. Living stoically up to a point, then, is helpful for developing the virtue of temperance which is one of the Stoic virtues. Temperance is the control of the emotions. If someone is overly emotional, Stoicism can help in the practice of developing the habit of "tamping" them down before thinking and making a decision, which helps also in the exercise of another virtue, prudence. This leads to an inner harmony and order, letting reason reign as the most important part of human nature. However, as mentioned above, the feeling of emotions is a part of human nature, a reality that Stoicism denies as a human good. Further, being physicalist-materialist in essence, Stoicism denies that the human will is free. The merely Stoic man may be free of sadness, but he is not truly free.
Stoicism in the digital age
Title: "Stoicism in the Digital Age: Navigating Modern Turbulence"
In the chaos of 2024, Stoicism emerges as a beacon of clarity amidst the storm of constant change. Its timeless principles offer solace in the face of uncertainty and provide a roadmap for navigating the complexities of the digital era. However, applying Stoic philosophy in today's world comes with its own set of challenges, including the relentless barrage of technology and the divisive nature of the current social climate. Despite these hurdles, Stoicism's benefits remain profound, offering resilience and inner strength in a world where external circumstances often feel beyond our control. By cultivating virtues such as courage, wisdom, and self-discipline, individuals can find peace amidst chaos and gratitude amidst noise, embracing Stoicism as a timeless antidote to the tumultuous currents of modern life.
Stoicism vs. Modern America
This is not an essay on the history of the Stoic philosophy or a judgment on any of its ideals. There are thousands and thousands of books and scrolls and web pages and podcasts which cover the specifics. This is simply my thoughts on how an enduring moral philosophy is applicable today. I know Prose has done away with timestamps, but for context, this is written by a middle-aged, white American, in a southern state during the second Trump/Biden presidential race.
America, has developed some recent social problems in the past decade or so. There is a great distrust in the media. Traditional media, such as network news and newspapers, have become labeled as enemies of the truth and enemies of the people. Nothing seems to exist in a politically neutral sphere anymore. Education is being accused of “brainwashing” children to indoctrinate them into whichever philosophy is antithetical to the person telling the story. Modern media, social or simply web pages, allow people to find stories they wish to hear, regardless of their accuracy. People search by conclusion (the Earth is flat) rather than by question (is the Earth flat) and limit their perspective to what they wish the answer to be.
Science and medicine have fallen into similar disfavor. Doctors are no longer treated as experts who have spent a considerable amount of time learning their craft. Pharmaceutical companies are perceived as a necessary evil driven by profit rather than a motivation to help human kind. The rigors of the scientific method are scoffed at as people would rather “do their own research” rather than understand the concept of scientific facts. The resurgence of flat-earthers and anti-vaxxers are a tribute to a loss of rational thought. The ancient Greek philosophers contemplated a round Earth in somewhere around 300 BC and Eratosthenes determined the size of our sphere (at least a damn fine guess for the lack of much technology) a hundred years later.
All of the above problems have a history which is not going to be discussed here. Do your own research.
The moral philosophy of the Stoics have strong foundational tenets which, while not solving the base problems mentioned above, would certainly help an individual navigate through a complicated world.
One tenet is the responsibility people have to each other. Stoics found humanity joined to each other in two important ways. First, we are all part of the divine, and share that quality with each other. No man, from Emperor to slave, is disconnected from any other person. Second, we all have an obligation to make society work. For mankind to live its best life, there needs to exist a certain level of trust and cooperation between everyone. Roads could not connect distant cities without a higher level plan rather than what could be accomplished by a single individual. The modern Stoic would embrace these beliefs to deal with the often volatile politics of today. There is no judgment in one have a differing political view because there are many paths to the same outcome. They would ignore the divisiveness and dismiss any activity detrimental to an individual or society. Violent rhetoric would be considered abhorrent and treated as not in line with Stoic virtues and morality.
Stoics also believed in rational thought above else. They recognized that intense feelings could cloud the judgment and lead to one behaving in an irrational manner. They valued accepting that nature is rational and also realizing that only the behavior of oneself could be controlled. There is little judgment in good or evil, as everything happens for a rational reason. In a tumultuous political and social climate, individuals would do well to concentrate on their own behavior and only work on what they can change.
As stated, one can only change oneself. Stoicism places an obligation on an individual to improve oneself. A benefit of such an obligation is that as individuals approve, so will society. An individual is meant to be virtuous and has a duty to improve in that direction. Rational thought and the suppression of too strong of any emotion will allow one to learn wisdom, insight, self-control, and justice.
The Stoic tenets would serve an individual well in any time period, but especially in the passionate, narrow view which currently seems to permeate our modern society.
Passions
Eudemonia. What a beautiful, elusive word. The Ancient Greek masters of Stoicism believed true happiness is the highest human good. We've been chasing it ever since. Some claim they've even caught it. The problem is we've all been defining it differently, and those who claim to have achieved this virtuous enlightenment tend to be lying, albeit unknowingly.
We all want to be happy, don't we? Well, what is happiness? Some answer that question as if you had asked them what they would do if they won the lottery. Well, happiness is living in my dream house, buying whatever I want, and doing whatever I want. I wouldn't necessarily say they're wrong, either. It's easier to be happy without the burden of debt and scarcity handing over your head.
The Stoics would have a much more intellectual answer. Happiness is peaceful contentment. Eudemonia is achieved by speaking philosophically and rejecting earthly pleasures. I think that's an old relic from an ancient world that has long since died along with the philosophers. They didn't have exorbitant student loans or an ever-rising culture of consumption that makes the basic functions of life impossibly expensive. I don't envy their lack of running water and electricity, though, so I guess it evens out.
They believed that there was great virtue in a passionless life. There's a place for impulse and spontaneity, for the irreplaceable joy that passion brings. Yet these so-called masters lived boxed into a rigid world built around logic and scorning these passions, which they classified as failures of reason leading to corrupt, deceptive forces. Inaccurately evaluating people, objects, and moments as good or evil is what leads us astray. They're right, to a point — but we weren't all put on this earth to follow a single path.
Delight, lust, and anxiety are mortal sins to the Stoics. I say to lean into the things you feel. Sure, apply some reason to your decision-making. But don't go through life without allowing yourself your favorite meal or feeling your lover's touch. Don't shy away from anxiety and fear. Lean into it. Dig deep to figure out why your body is drawn to certain impulses rather than just stifling them. Only then can you truly overcome them.
I believe there's nothing more natural than passion. The Stoics believed we had to return to nature, but nature isn't stoic. Nature is rough and rugged and raw. Nature is the lion sinking its teeth into the antelope's flesh and two lovers with limbs intertwined. Nature is both the expression and reasonable inhibition of our impulse. It is not to kill all that makes us alive.
Take their advice with a grain of salt. Read Marcus Aurelius' Meditations and try to be a better person. Along the way, meditate on how you can find your own definition of happiness. You won't find in it any book, and I would distrust anyone who insists you can. Rent is just getting more expensive, and we are getting ever more distant in this increasingly digital world. So give your loved one a kiss and enjoy that slice of cake every now and then.
what is stoicism?
I didn't know much about Stoicism before taking on this challenge. I'll admit, I had a heavy bias against it because a person who used to be close to me, (who I now despise) used to be obsessed with Marcus Aurelius (specifically the Meditations).
After reading about the philosophy of Stoicism, I have mixed feelings about it. For the most part, I don't like it because it seems too dispassionate and individualistic to me. I do have a few things that I like about it and would agree with though, so I'll start with the positives.
On a small scale, I like the idea of worrying only about what you can control. When I was in the mental hospital, we talked about "radical acceptance" which is the idea that what has happened in the past has already happened and there is nothing you can do to change it, so you will have to accept it one way or another. Therefore, it's better for you and others to not allow yourself to get overwhelmed with anxiety or anger. An example they used was road rage - if you're in traffic and you're going to be late, you can't choose to leave earlier or force the cars to get off the road. There's no sense in getting angry about it.
I also like the anti-materialist/anti-consumerist attitude. I can talk about how much I hate consumerism all day, but I won't. I think this is a point that especially applies to today's world because, especially with advertisements, we are constantly bombarded with the idea that we need more "stuff" to make us happy, when I wholeheartedly believe that it's completely the opposite. I believe that most people want to create, to do, to invent, to interact, rather than to simply consume and purchase. And we would be so much better off if we could break out of the mindset that we are meant to buy, buy, buy.
On the other hand, I find that stoicism encourages an “it is what it is” mindset, which is my second least favorite phrase behind “life’s not fair”. To the second one, I would say: "but it should be". And to the first I would say: "shouldn't we strive for a better future?" Stoicism seems to be very individualistic, and doesn't just put the responsibility on the individual but robs the individual of the idea of collective power. The mindset of only being upset about what is within your control is resigning yourself to “what it is”. We do have some control over our external environment and we can convince others to join us in creating change. We are not passive or reactive actors in our own lives.
Moreover, I think that we should be angry sometimes. I think that the only way to fighting against injustice is to be fed up with systems and the actions of others. The only way that we can create change is by getting upset and banding together to change things. Again, there is power in numbers.
Caveat: I think that the modern conception of Stoicism is kind of different from the ancient one, and so some of what I'm speaking about isn't completely rooted in ancient philosophy but rather the teachings "self-help gurus". A lot of them seem to preach about self-discipline which I hate. For one thing, some people in this group, have an attitude that your lack of discipline is the reason that your life is subpar. If you woke up at 5 AM everyday, did 10 pushups, put money into your 401k, and were more grateful for everything around you, then you would be happy. One, this neglects to consider the socio-economic conditions that a lot of people live under, as well as disabilities and mental illnesses. In all of these cases, people can't do certain things that "self-discipline" requires due to lack of resources or lack of energy, etc. It's also unproductive at best and obnoxious at worst to tell people to be grateful for what they have (it often implies "because someone else has it worse" or "because it could be ripped away from you"). That just makes people feel guilty and anxious.
Additionally, the happiest I've ever been was when I was completely carefree but completely undisciplined. I skipped school, went out to parties and drank underage, I slacked off, I spent all the money I made instead of saving it and I'm happy that I had fun despite being sad and poor (and still undisciplined) now.
Most of all, I'd rather be passionate than content. I want to have security and peace of mind, but I want to grieve when people die, I want to feel longing for someone I have a crush on, I want to feel pissed off when I see injustices, I want to feel passion, despite how “irrational” it is. I hate stories with happy endings, I love tragic and bittersweet books, I love sad songs, and I write best when I am upset. I'd rather feel something so intense that it makes me scream and cry than feel something so subtle that it makes me feel numb.
Memento Mori
Remember you will die. - Marcus Aurelius
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How to apply stoicism today?
I was recently handed, from a doctor no less, an existential crisis. This doctor actually wrote this crisis in pen and ink for me and placed the paper in my hand; what exactly the crisis is, what I can expect from it, and what the treatments for it will be. I took the paper home and read it several times, letting it sink in. Strangely, I almost wish this doctor and this crisis had found me earlier as I feel somehow refreshed from it, as if I have been awakened from a nap. I have always assumed a great inner respect for life, mostly due to the fact that this was far from being my first existential crisis. I have been exploring them ever since my youth. In fact, I seem to love a good existential crisis so much that I employ a new one every five to ten years or so. It is because of them that my life has been a mission to work hard, play hard, and to try my best to love completely while at the same time remaining what a man is intended to be, which is the rock for those who would cling through the storm. Still, I caution you to remember you will die.
Unlike many, I enjoy manual labor. I like to work alone, but I also enjoy the camaraderie and hierarchical dynamics involved in working with others, how every little task within a job can raise up a new leader with an heretofore unrevealed competence. Work is a great replacement for the team sports of my youth which instilled in me not only a competitive fire, but also a sense of fair play (along with an outlet for my excessive and hyperactive energies). Conversely, I believe I could also be rather content with what simply is, and might be just as happy with a fishing pole, a warm sun, a good book, and a long day as I would be with a paycheck, but while those lackadaisical endeavors might lead to short term personal contentment, they would undoubtedly cause resentment within my family, my employers and employees, and possibly within my community as well if enjoyed too frequently, and those things matter. But that is ok by me, as I have discovered the greater joys of witnessing the benefits of my labors being bestowed upon those I love, sometimes monetarily, but mostly through the example that my efforts demonstrate. After all, what better example can I set for my grandchildren when I am not there for them than to make them the beneficiaries of purposeful engagement? It is certainly better than an estate that they will only blow through hedonistically if not instilled with the values and vision required to maintain one, and then to expand it for their children. What better legacy than a grounded work ethic? Remember, you will die. And when you do it won’t be the things around you that matter; the house, the car, the Instagram or Facebook accounts. It will be the people who have gathered themselves around you and the effect your character has had upon them.
For background, I am sixty years old. Or you could say I have lived for sixty years. I have, on average, twenty-ish odd years left… or should have, or might have, or probably not. Who is to say? A doctor with a legal pad? Ehhh. Yet looked at a little differently, have I really lived for sixty years? Perhaps it is more realistic to say that I have died for sixty years, as those years behind me are dead, most of them even to memory. And like those years, life is a gift that will end. Make the moments left matter. Tomorrow is promised to no one. Remember you will die.
I am far from being the man I long to be. Possibly due to the many existential crisis’ I previously mentioned, one of my greatest faults is impatience. I rush. And my hurry to get the physical work done so that I can make time for mental exercise makes me forgetful, to my wife's chagrin, nearly to the point of eccentricity. It reminds me of the chorus of that song by Alabama, “I’m in a hurry to get things done, oh I, rush and rush until life’s no fun. All I really gotta do is live and die, but I’m in a hurry and don’t know why.” That sums me up in a nutshell, and all that hurrying is done to get to that fishing pole, that book, and that warm sun I was speaking to earlier, although neither fishing pole nor warm sun are actually required to complete the fun. You see, I like to read. I like good books, thought provokers, books which are known as classics because they imbed morality within the reader. I often read the same ones over and again. For that reason I have accumulated a small, but decent library which expands itself almost through osmosis, the familiar thoughts in those few I own leading me towards new. Why waste precious time when there is marrow to be sucked from those precious few thinkers whom I trust? Remember you will die.
That same impatience also fuels my outrage… well, that and the media, both social and otherwise. I am not normally volatile, in fact I am almost even tempered to a fault, but watching the news gets to me, seeing the sad states of journalism, politics, education, and western society in general. My Prose friend dctezcan has picked up on that anger in my writings, and has advised that I stop watching the news altogether, but who can turn their head when the things they most treasure are being raped and pillaged; America and its constitution, no less? I find that I cannot, even though it is out of my control, which is itself the very foundation of stoicism; “Put on your brave face. Do not fret over what is out of your control. It can only damage your life if it damages your character.“
Yes, are these not the very foundations of stoicism’s guide to existence? Well, that and... remember, you will die.
Applying Stoicism in 2024
The ancient Stoics took a systematic approach to living. The resurgence of this philosophy in modern times is a testament of how little human nature has changed over time.
Roman emperor and famous Stoic, Marcus Aurelius, hailed the four virtues of Stoicism in his now-published journal Meditations,
“If, at some point in your life, you should come across anything better than justice, prudence, self-control, courage—than a mind satisfied that it has succeeded in enabling you to act rationally, and satisfied to accept what’s beyond its control—if you find anything better than that, embrace it without reservations—it must be an extraordinary thing indeed—and enjoy it to the full.”
To practice Stoicism, it requires one to seek answers and truth from within and to ignore what is outside their influence. It is to seek control over one’s self, and no one else.
It’s not enough to simply believe the tenets of this philosophy, but to live them. We can interpret the ancient teachings of the Stoics and apply them to modern obstacles.
On digital minimalism
In a society of endless distractions it’s easy to be emotionally swayed by every new form of stimuli, because that’s what they were designed to do. Stoicism reminds us that we are in control of our thoughts, emotions, and how we react to the impulses of life. It’s possible to disconnect and go against the grain of the modern technological movement. Ditch the smartphone. Unplug the router. Detach from the FOMO, advertisements, and links to TikToks. It only requires discipline and a confident answer when people ask about your Nokia flip-phone.
Digital minimalism, or minimalism in general, is a modern application of Stoicism. The Stoics believed in a concept of ‘preferred indifference’ that guided their decision-making. To be preferably indifferent is to perceive something as neutral and it having no impact or control on your attention or behavior. Eliminating these distractions and minimizing external stimuli can benefit us all greatly.
A surplus of digital device usage has been linked to many mental health issues such as depression, anxiety, and lowered self-esteem. When we take this leap away from our devices, we naturally find ourselves more grounded and centered.
On journals
Ryan Holiday, popular writer on Stoicism, argues that journaling is Stoicism, and that you can’t have one without the other. This process of reflection and mental exercise is an integral part of the routine of a Stoic. Marcus Aurelius, Epictetus, and Seneca were avid writers of themselves, to themselves.
Daily uncensored journal writing keeps us unabashedly self-aware and reminds us of what we’ve done (good or bad) and how we can improve and live better lives as a result.
Meditations is an entire collection of a Roman emperor who struggled with his morality, values, decisions, and how to withhold them to a higher standard while maintaining effective leadership of an Empire in the midst of a war and plague. His writing is humble, and he reminds himself of his own universal truths.
Writing can truly encapsulate and develop streams of thought. It can also reinforce and express them in a powerful way; writing is an extension of the Stoic mind.
On the passions
“Let thy chief fort and place of defense be a mind free from passions. A stronger place and better fortified than this, hath no man.” – Marcus Aurelius, Meditations
The Stoics believed that a happy life was one free of passions, or the impulses prefiguring action which defied reason and the rational mind. They categorized the passions as Distress, Fear, Lust, and Delight. Good-feelings were something else entirely and divided into Joy, Wish, and Caution. The wise person is one who is free from passions and experiences good-feelings.
Stoic (as in "Stoic") adj.: seeming unaffected by pleasure or pain; impassive; "Stoic courage"; "Stoic patience"; "a stoical sufferer”
On the sage
Wisdom is analogous with the term philosophy and a ceaseless pursuit of those who seek it. To be wise is to use one’s knowledge, experience and common sense to navigate life and face all of its obstacles. It is to have the ability to contemplate deeply and acknowledge one’s own ignorance. To ancient Greek philosophers such as Socrates and Plato, philosophy meant the love of wisdom (see etymology of Greek philo and sophia).
The Stoics viewed people as either knowledgeable or ignorant. They define what they call a sage as one who is free of the passions and knowledgeable, but remains an unattainable ideal rather than a tangible possibility. Yet, still, they held a firm opinion and offered no middle ground. There were only sages and fools – those morally corrupted and unfortunate souls.
A sage was conceived as an individual immune to fate itself, and the way Marcus Aurelius describes it, one who has entered godhood. “...who has knowledge of the beginning and the end, and of that all-pervading Reason which orders the universe in its determinate cycles to the end of time”
If I were to apply Stoicism to my life in 2024, it would take the form of: digital minimalism, habitual journaling, striving for a life free of passion, and a continuous pursuit of knowledge.
Character is Everything
"Do you swear in your writing?" is not really the apt question. It is more illuminating to ask, "Do my characters swear?"
Some do. Some don't.
My story "Rideshare" follows an angry, shallow, and lonely young corporate type . Here he is, drunkenly offering his Uber driver money to hang out with him:
“Look… Luis—glad your fucking nametag’s there—Luis, Bill Murray is the coolest guy in the world. Hands down. There’s this night out in LA, Bill Murray is going to a club or a movie or wherever the fuck a Bill Murray goes, and he takes this cab and the driver says he plays the saxophone, but Bill Murray talks to him and learns that he never gets the time to play. So Bill Murray says, drive to your apartment and get your fucking saxophone, and then they drove to a parking lot someplace and Bill Murray pays this guy for a whole night so he can just listen to him fucking play the saxophone on the hood of the cab. Now I’m not as cool as fucking Bill Murray, but I got some cash, man. How much you make in a night?”
He's glib. He's boastful. He makes a show of how impressive and manly he is because he tries, desperately, not to reveal what he really feels. (Full story here: https://www.sleetmagazine.com/selected/love_v13n2.html) He swears the way a child would, peppering his speech with an excess of profanity that does not make him as tough as he thinks. The Uber driver never swears once. He is a family man, empathetic and grounded. They are different people; if they are to be real, they need to talk differently.
By way of contrast, here's William Mumler in my yet-unpublished novel, justifying his practice of photographing people with deceased spirits:
Mumler watched the flame, coming forth steadily from the brass.
“Jonah told as destined. He gave the people the message they needed from the Lord,” Mumler said. “The Almighty knows all: my sins, your sins, what will become of us, what would become of Jonah and the Ninevites. Though He knew He would spare the city, He suffered Jonah to spread the message of its destruction. A small untruth in service of a greater truth.”
He appealed to Guay’s unmoving face. “Prophets must serve the truth. That is what I have learned. One cannot choose to be a prophet, Mr. Guay. One cannot choose even the details of the message. The truth chooses the prophet. There are spirits, manifesting in this new age. We must serve that truth, or we will be swallowed.”
If a profane syllable left that man's tongue, his entire character would crumble like a clay-footed statue. In a moment of crisis that could destroy everything he holds dear, my Mumler might use the word "damn," though if anyone heard, he would feel shame.
The character, the narrative, the style determine the language I use in my writing. I am perfectly content to write an academic analysis, or to drop an f-bomb if it makes a joke funnier. I'll write that businessman out on a bender or that photographer who reads his Bible nightly. My task is to write them true.
You, The Modern Angel
You were born of particle and dust, carefully sewn with trails of light, and filled with worlds unseen.
But then, you were pushed into the abyss, swallowed by the viscous black. It filled the spaces where there should be air and enveloped you, suffocating you with flesh and all its unruly demands. Pieces of you, vulnerable, contorted sinew push through your holy threads and leave you hapless. Hopeless.
You've felt this.
Haven't you?
It's in the way you wail for love, for fame. The way you glutton, though all discernable needs are met. Like an insect met with the shock of fate, you pour into the flashing light, for it has promised you so much. You fall, willingly so, into your own siren song of self-preservation. You jump from wheel to wheel, picking asphalt from your wounds. You peer into the depth of glass and plastic, hoping to catch remnants of your birth, that familiar glimmer within the darkness of dimensions. But the spark isn't there. It never is.
You despise this.
Don't you?
There is a piece of yourself, petulant and whining, just as you did when forced onto this Earth. Its cries keep you up at night as you stare yards into the black, merging with the déjà-rêvé. You mask the natural light, afraid of its illumination. And so, your Petulant Self is "disciplined", neglected, ignored, abused. It's forced into the background, unsure of how to reach you, for petulance is its only defense against the voracious black. It will wail until its needs are met. A thread tugs at your heart and you slice it, annoyed. You are too tired for the truth.
You're denying this.
Aren't you?
The smiles formed with brick and string are not the same as the ones that appear in those quiet moments when you recall your composition of dust and light. As you float along cyclicality, you discover how to move with grace through the uncanny valley, how to walk within the plotted chaos of the moon. The nature of your intelligence usurps the desire for control and the ancient truths of the past push you into the future. The guiding light of your Self relived will tell you stories of dust and stars. If you listen, you release.
But you knew this.
Didn't you?
Moving Forward
I’m tired. We’re all tired. There is so much to care about, so much that calls for our attention. Our jobs demand our full energy and attention 40 hours a week (or more), and our families beg for whatever we have left after that. Meanwhile, friends and hobbies are neglected, along with mental and physical health.
On top of that, we are bombarded daily with things happening around the world – politics, war, racism, climate disasters, violence, cruelty, hate, poverty. We’ve lost so much, but there’s so much more left to lose.
I’m an emotional person, but it’s hard to feel so much. You get to a point where you just can’t grieve anymore. You can’t fear anymore. You can’t care anymore.
But apathy isn’t the answer. In fact, that’s probably the biggest danger. If we give into the temptation of apathy, everything just gets worse.
The better choice is stoicism.
Stoicism isn’t the absence of emotion or passion or care. It’s endurance. It’s a hardened outer shell to protect the much softer heart. If we harden our hearts, we can’t survive. But if we harden our outer layers, we just might make it.
Tears and screaming and arguing and complaining – it’s all exhausting, and it rarely makes a difference. It might be cathartic for a short time, but if it’s all you’re doing, you’ll lose your voice and your ability to feel.
But if we stand up in the face of all that pounds against us, with stoicism as our shield, and push, we just might make some headway. Inch by inch, we move forward. Every little act of kindness. Every time we protect someone who can’t protect themselves. Every time we choose love over hate. Every time we embrace rather than push away. Every time we choose the wellbeing of the planet over selfishness. We move forward.
And as we move forward, the forces we push against may pound away at the shield we call stoicism, slowly eroding it. But that’s okay. Because if we don’t stop, if we don’t give in, by the time the shield has wasted away to nothing, we won’t need it anymore. We’ll have reached the other side.