the way I gasp for air

- I look at you.

This gun leaves me paralyzed,

I shed a tear and

I try to breathe.

I am trapped by

the invisible ghost of my mind,

I love you - I swear.

It's so violent and hard

yet beautiful to look

you in the eyes.

I am chasing old ideas,

the cracks of my lies,

the edges of my mistakes,

and my ten thousand tries.

You dragged me here,

I whisper to the gun.

Make me want

to fall in love again.

The nudity of my feelings

flew with your holy doves,

I cry for my mistakes

and my ten thousand loves.

I do not want to die within you.

but I am a lover and like all lovers,

I am not afraid to die.