Who’s hand am I holding now ?
What do you do when you have two hearts inside of your chest. When those hearts contradict one another so strongly. One means sunshine, one means dusk. I am being whirled up into a storm of confusion and sadness. The minute I get my bearings, it's like a rug gets pulled from beneath me and I'm back on my ass again. I'm so scared of the future. My future depends on me but it's also altered by those around me and the decisions they make that include me. I would like to just drop it all and disappear and never have to look back. Never have to re visit the memories these humans hold for me. I want to hold onto the beautiful little chapters they gave me but I want to delete the rest of them from my book that's ever growing. I need clarity. My mind is a fog