The rhyme
I've
Overcome losing my home
Had my heart broken over a phone
Endured losing
Friends and lovers to scorn
Cried tears of grief to bury unborn
Death and I have played
Chess 'til morn'
...yet
You have power more
Than any of those things
I fear you more
Than any of those things
Your existence holds great meaning
That word I threw around
A childish quip
Now bruises my mouth
To escape my lips
Its glowing rips like a pebble skips
Across the vastness of heaven...
I never knew this word.
Until
Until
Until...
The reason
You never told me that word
But you showed me that word
You took the meaty pulped mess
Of your heartache filled childhood The dangered storied anger from
Your black american manhood
Formed the truest replica of the heart
You had before Life beat it out
It was your Sun Day best
Offered up at the altar of my soul
Bloody and raw and ethereal in its
Beauty
Priceless unflawed because it was
You
And you were so brave
And you were so ready
To fight and believe
And to stand in the sun
But I gave you midnight
There was light in me but you were
Only permitted to view it from a Shroud of darkness
That is only my second regret of 31 Years in this life.
What number regret am I for you?
The ending
I am content
I am healthy
I laugh
I succeed
I eat
I flirt
I find great joy and beauty in life
I'll one day consider becoming a wife
But you tell me I'll never be yours...
Life is magic and tragic like that
The last word
I used to think it was gasoline soaked silk sheets and pink passionate flames. I used to think it was only realized when the word was softly exclaimed.
I now know. It is a word I have never said to your face but we both know I do. You knew before reading this letter every line would say I love you.
exhaling. dulling. aching. missing.
~touch (pt. deaux)
selah.k_x
<<Life is magic and tragic like that.>>