Bright Heart in Cold Times
As I look outside while in the school,
I see obscuring clouds and a purple-gray sky
And I'm sitting here alone
While everyone else is talking and chatting
It brings the same feeling that I live in almost every day
It's normal, it's life.
I can't stop thinking about the past
And I can't stop my pursuit towards the end
But I sometimes wonder if I might accomplish what I want
And if I'll ever meet the friends who are so enigmatic
I cry so slow, I think too fast
Sometimes, I want to sleep so I can wake up a week later
Don't get me wrong, I'm proud of who I am
And I'm mostly proud of what I've done
But it's making me think of everything elseĀ
I'm happy when I get to see my best friend
And talk a lot, laugh sometimes and joke when his other's around
I'm glad he has someone that he likes and enjoys
And sometimes we hang out often
I'll soon move closer to him this summer
But he's also a great and charismatic guy that I enjoy
I have my close friends as well, I just don't bother to text
Probably because I have ample communication
I have people from all around, but I just don't bother to message
When they don't pick up or it's one-sided
There are many people that send different vibes
One is an intelligent person I will be monotonous with
One is in high school and writes a short story
One seems nice and enjoyable.
One taught me how to enjoy life and look at the positives
One stumbled along the way, I look at him as a brother
And one I love as if she is my sister only
There are also some things that I miss often
Because I love recollecting the experience
I miss the way life was before high school happened
I miss my grandmother, she's somewhere else now
I miss one of our family friends, she moved again
I miss the fun times of summer and the pool
I miss some of my childhood friends, they don't pick up the phone
And I miss the one friend that I would love to get to know better
But regardless, there's always some light
Emanating from the grey sky
And now I can see that they are parting
I feel much better now and I will continue to be
But there's no guarantee that I will stop thinking