if Life is one step ahead, and I am always one step behind, then ...

"Live in the moment" is terrible advice. It is an unattainable goal.

The so-called enlightened ones walk into a bar, eagerly, lining- up, and march proudly onto the tongue (a red carpet event) of a lion's mouth called Failure.

Because it is impossible. Literally. The mind processes sight, and all senses, not instantly, but seconds later. Maybe it is fractions of fractions of seconds, but it is not real time. Even if it is just milliseconds later, it is later. It isn't now.

Time is an illusion and humans thrive on definable boxes. The linear.

I am too exhausted from my own thoughts to do the research on the findings of human brain's exact processing times, but --

We do not exist in the present. It's not where we live. It is our applied projection. This much I know.

It is the past. The moment we feel something--or see or experience it--it is already history. It is over. Past tense. Fleeting, at best.

They are just memories, really. We are living in memories.

Because nothing is as it seems.