Reluctance; a memoir.
I don't want to write anymore.
I don't want to feel the weight
Of this pen
Sinking me
Like an anchor
To the bottom of every blank
Page before me.
I don't want to write anymore.
I don't want to wake up
Shaking and sweating
Wondering if I could've
Said anything different
To make him stay.
And he hasn't even left.
Yet.
I don't want to write anymore.
I don't want to carry the burden,
Of every artist who's written
Before me.
And every poet
Sure to arise from the ashes.
I don't want to write anymore.
Yet here I sit,
Pen in hand.
Reluctant,
And
Ready.
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